Monday, 31 July 2017

My second trip to Bitches UnleaShed

Hey everyone, I guess my blog posts are like buses, its been weeks since I wrote and now there's two in a few days, I mentioned last time that I would be going to the second Bitches Unleashed event this weekend after having lots of fun attending the first with Mistress Courtney I was looking forward to it, even with the nerves I had as would be attending alone.

My dress on Saturday night
Firstly I came up with a plan to get there without needing to fully change and picked out, and changed the idea of the outfit I was going to wear, and was practicing my makeup for my homework from Mistress for the couple days before the night, I feel that it actually kept me in that submissive space in my head from the moment I left my session last week, personally I think the cumban had a lot to do with that as well.

Anyways Saturday came and once i'd got a couple of jobs done I started to get myself ready.  I wore a little black dress, underneath my boy clothes to travel,  I did what is becoming a slightly more common sneak out of my place diving in my car and getting at least a mile or so away before setting my sat nav up.  I then pulled into a quiet corner of the motorway services and tried to do my makeup, well, face and eyes, I thought I would leave the lipstick until I got there.  I then finished the drive with that paranoia it always gives me.  I got there without any incident though and parked up where I was told, before having a quick gulp of water and entering.  I was going to head straight for the cloakroom/ changing area but was spotted and very quickly brought to my knees, I was asked what I was wearing underneath as my eyes didnt look like a boys eyes.  I then headed downstairs to get changed.  There seemed to be a few nerves down there, but mine had strangely gone.

I headed upstairs and said hello to a couple of people and had single slave written on my arm by Diva Karishma, and was sent to get my appropriate wristbands, they are a great idea, especially for anyone with nerves, or limits, with different bands for different activities and limits etc.  I was also given my list for the Slave games.  A list of humiliating things and punishments that the single slaves could try and ask one of the Mistresses there to carry out and then sign the list.  I guess it was the kinkiest scavenger hunt i've ever seen or been a part of.  I'm not going to list all of the tasks but they ranged a lot, I remember being stood on, had more lipstick applied, getting spanked, had my nipples tormented  and more.  I didnt fully take part in the game, If one of the Mistresses mentioned it I was happy to get an item crossed off, I just didnt feel comfortable approaching Mistresses I'd never met and interrupting them.  I didnt finish last though thankfully!

A big cool part of the night for me was as last time meeting and chatting to others, and just being accepted, I feel in my vanilla life hiding this side of me away means its not often I get to be as open and just socialise.  Catching up and chatting to Mistresses i've met before and being introduced to others as well.  After the games had finished there was still lots of play going on which as always I find fascinating to watch, it was cool to chat to other subs there who were so nervous earlier on but now proud of their stripes, i didnt get any stripes *blushes* I do seem to be getting more curious about it though.

All too soon there was a lady coming round calling last orders, and I gathered my things together before saying my goodbyes and leaving for the drive home.  Then a lot of thinking when I got home, it was another fun night, just a little different from last time, being one of the single slaves, but I think I chose the correct wristbands for me and wasn't pushed too hard.  It was quite a rush knowing that any of the ladies there could give an order at anytime.

Then on sunday, Sissy sunday that is I was allowed to end my cumban from Mistress Courtney, so after teasing myself for a while both reminiscing and fantasising I treated myself to one of the most intense orgasms i've had, followed a couple hours later by a second, oops!  I couldnt help it, especially being allowed to watch a video Mistress had taken of me being spanked by her.  I had been looking forward to it for a while, and it was well worth the wait

Heres a link to the Bitches Unleashed website if you'd like to more, and I should say thankyou to the organisers, and also all of the people I spoke to, and all of the Mistresses, Goddesses, Diva's and Princesses who made it a special night for a sub like me, and as a side note after speaking to Mistress Arabella i'm looking forward to the next night at the Events Chamber as well!  So i'm gonna finish this up now, feel free to chat either here, or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS, I may be daydreaming a lot of being restrained like this again as my mind has been thinking of it since I got home

Friday, 28 July 2017

My latest session

Hey, firstly i'd like to apologise as its been an age since I have posted a blog on here.  I've kept starting and stopping on a few and just couldnt get one wrote that I like. But anyways I hope this one gets me back up to speed.

It had been a while since I had been to see Mistress Courtney at the dungeon, its been a busy couple of months, but having some time off from work I managed to get a session booked for earlier this week.  I'd been looking forward to it for ages, even before it was booked and for the few days before my mind was wandering into ever deeper fantasies.  It came to the morning of the session and as I sent a confirmation text my thoughts were tingling, once again I had no idea what Mistress had planned and found it exciting.

Me and Mistress Courtney 
Despite greater manchester traffics best attempts to slow me down I just about made it and parked up at pretty much the exact right time.  Sent a text and awaited the order,  I was actually thinking of the first time I did this, the nervous excitement I had, and once again felt those butterflies.  My phone beeped with a message from Mistress telling me to go to the door and I headed in.

I was shown in and said hello to Princess Lucina, before being led to the large dungeon room and had a little chat before the session started.  I was undressed by Mistress who really liked the animal print cami and panties I had on, so much that Mistress said she was just going to keep me in those rather than what she had planned and then I had the treat of Mistress doing my makeup.  Then  I was tied with my arms above my head while Mistress teased me, and spanked and went through a couple of crops, and a paddle, then I was told to get over Mistresses knee for a spanking, including one part where I was lucky to get spanked for every birthday Mistress has had.  Next I was strapped into a chair that scarily looks like it would be ideal for cbt, my legs strapped apart and my arms stretched out to the side of me, totally exposed, I can't say what exactly happened then, my head just drifted into that place, as I was teased, Mistress didnt need to shout, even whispering at points.  I was told that my eyes change or do something when Mistress takes me into that special place.  That made me tingle even more, I was being brought to edge after edge by the aid of a Doxy.  I was untied from the chair and then ordered to kneel before Mistress as the doxy was continued to be used, eventually to a lot of laughter I was trying to hump against it,  really feeling like I couldnt hold it any longer, and then it was pulled away, it took a moment for me to stop humping even though it was now only air, as Mistress told me I was to be all aching and aroused when I have my night out at the weekend.

I was then left to dress and had a chat and a coffee with Mistress, where I gave her her birthday presents and we chatted about a couple of things coming up that sound very exciting to me and I was given a couple of homework tasks and told no cumsies till sunday.  I left and drove home via a friends house who could tell that i'd been to see Mistress, according to a text later on I was glowing.  To be honest as always I seem to have been floating since.  

It may not be as long until I make another blog post as tomorrow night sees the second Bitches UnleaSHED event in Manchester.  I have my ticket and have a nervous excitement about it.  Last time I attended with Mistress, this time I will have the S on my head and have no idea what may happen.  I'm sure anyone who reads this blog may find out!!

Anyways I'm going to wrap this up, and as always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xx

Wednesday, 7 June 2017

The next night out

Hi everyone, I thought it was about time I tried to write another blog post, I do have a few draft ones, but all of them seem to need just a little bit of finishing off and for some reason I just can't seem to get them right, so pretty much this is just going to be a little bit of an update, with what I guess could be seen as a little bit of a hissy fit but somehow feels like it needs saying added in just for the fun of it.

Maybe these tights for the Kinky party?
Well where to start, since my last blog a couple weeks ago there has been another date announced for the next kinky party at the Events Chamber which i'm looking forward to, I still have to wriggle out of something else that evening but am looking forward to going again and getting the chance to be me for the night and not just all alone at home.  I am going to have to figure out an outfit though gulp, maybe a shopping trip, or maybe a playsuit with tights,  hmmmm I'll have to think on that one.  I just know I may need to treat myself to a cumsie before then as if I got tickled again like last time that would really embarrassingly set my little you know what off!

I'm going to get my little hissy fit out of the way now, I hope no-one thinks bad of me for doing this, but recently i've had a few DM's on twitter, now normally I do not mind them one bit.  But and I say this quite strongly, if i have never chatted with you on there, I will not respond to a DM calling me a  loser and demanding I message back as I need to suck you off, especially when you refer to yourself as an "alpha" male. Fuck theres an oxymoron if I ever heard one.  I'm not going to deny that I have a humiliation kink amongst my many others, however I dont just expect it off anyone at anytime, yes I know I have a tiny manhood, but I dont see myself as a "loser" anymore, mainly as I take a look at myself and think fuck, i'm living the dreams I've had since my youth, even outside of my kinky side, I have a fairly good job, friends that stick with me through anything, my own place, I get to take part in loads of things that I love and I feel totally happy in myself, now why would I call myself a loser???  Ok its one thing in the middle of play, but accepting some random douche calling it me, oh fuck no! oh and another thing if you read through my twitter, my blog etc, you would probably fairly easily see that anything involving Bi-play just isn't me, that aint gonna change, no matter what so i'm sorry but the next DM like that will receive back a picture of a bottle of hot sauce, and a msg saying to use that as lube, followed by a big BLOCK!!!!!

Right thats off my chest now, and feels a lot better,  to all the people i've spoke to a lot before this is not aimed at any of you, like I say I like nice comments and chat but that just needed to be said!

Ok where was I.  I was very lucky to catch up with the always amazing Mistress Courtney earlier this week, as i'd been asked to help with something, as always I was glad to, and it was also good to have a chat too as its been a while since I last saw Mistress.  Its a very exciting time for her and I couldnt be happier!  Mistress also planted a couple of seeds in my head about something that has been itching away in there all day today *blushes* I think i'll save more of that for another post though, I also have a little homework task for Mistress that I will be taking a look at!

I guess this is quite a short post, and once again sorry for the little hissy fit / rant, blame the idiots who have now been blocked and probably will never see this but oh well, i'm off for the rest of the day indulging in my girly side and let my imagination run wild.  Feel free to chat to me on twitter as always, and i'll catch you all soon

Cinnamon xx

Monday, 22 May 2017

A night of Fire and Ice, (and lots of fun)

Hey everyone, I thought after the weekend I would have to write a new blog post, as anyone who follows me on twitter or read my last post here would know I had another night out planned for the saturday just gone, so I thought i'd tell you all about it!

Last year I had my first kinky night out at the Manchester Chambers when they held Sinnation. I enjoyed it a lot and went back for a second time in January.  They did hold a third party in February but due to my trip with Mistress Courtney to london and Club Subversion the night before I just couldnt feasibly get there without teaching myself to sleepdrive which wouldn't be the best idea I bet.  So when the date was released for the relaunch of the party nights I was excited when I realised it clashed with nothing and would be able to attend!

It is now known as Events Chambers and it was announced there would be a theme of Fire and Ice for the re-launch.  I did genuinely have a look around for an outfit that would possible go with the them for the night but within my budget it was very tricky so I planned something similar to what I wore for Bitches UnleaSHEd in March.  A satin dress, nude tights/pantyhose, heels wig and makeup. So I spent a couple of hours the night before making sure I had everything ready as unfortunately I had to work the day of the party.

My dress for the night
Anyways I finished the shift at work and got myself home and had a quick meal, before feeling the nerves start to rise a little bit, I'd thought of pretty much dressing at home and just covering up slightly to make getting ready there a little easier.  A bit like Mistress Courtney told me to do a few weeks ago, so I was dressed and just wore some jeans and a hoody over the top of my cinnamon outfit.  But I also did the majority of my makeup at home as well.  This is where the nerves really started to make me tingle a little, after all it was still daylight outside when I set off. I couldnt actually get it just as I wanted as my hands were shaking like crazy but managed to be reasonably happy with the results, I just saved the red lipstick for when I got there.  The drive was uneventful though apart from a raised heart rate every time I stopped at traffic lights etc, and then the very short walk from my car to the venue.

As I walked into the yard I was greeted by part of the evenings entertainment, with a fire eating display in progress and a very talented stiltwalker, with people already there watching.  I made my way to the reception area and signed myself in before being allowed upstairs to finish off getting ready.  The way i'd done most of it at home, I found it was only a couple of minutes before I was storing my bag and ready to start the nights fun.  I made my way outside to catch the end of the show, and was greeted by people,  it sometimes still feels a bit strange that some people remember me, but I was really grateful.  It wasn't long before I was chatting away to someone who was at their first event, and also some Mistresses that I have been introduced to in the past, like Mistress Lola, Miss Kitty, Mistress Violet and Miss Torment  I was definitely not as nervous as I have been in the past.  I think this was slightly picked up on as well.  Pretty soon I found myself inside in one of the dungeon rooms watching an example of a "judicial" caning gulp, all I could think was ouch!! But seeing Mistress Arabella in full flow was a treat to watch, all the same I'm glad I was only watching.

My shoes for the night, 
I was then chatting in the bar-room when I heard my name being called and a Mistress I met at the very first party Mistress Violet was beckoning me over to her so I made my way over and it was really nice to have a chat, whilst performing a simple task for her.  She wasn't happy unless I was speaking in a girly voice though, and I tried my best.  I was asked about what I like in sessions and things, before being let go being told that maybe later it would happen.  There was so much happening its hard to note it all down, and I was talking to lots of people and watching allsorts of kinky fun happening,  It was later in the evening when I was in one of the dungeon rooms when I was called over to Mistress Violet again and she introduced me to Mistress Islya, who i'd spoke to on twitter but never met.  my weakness for tickling was divulged and soon I found myself sat with my arms way above my head being teased and tickled until I squirmed, It was like I totally forgot I was in a room full of people, my dress was hitched up, and I was trying my hardest not to completely melt, and I lost track of time totally as is always the case when I get tickled like that, my head goes into a place where time doesn't make sense, I was talking to the events photographer outside later and he said you looked like you enjoyed that.  It was only then I snapped back to reality and realised it was in front of everyone *blushes* which gave me an extra buzz of the exposure and humiliation, but obviously I seem to really like that so it was all good!

The rest of the night was mainly spent watching play and chatting with lots of other people about experiences, nights out etc, realising even more how far i've come in what is pretty much only 6 months since my first event like this.   I'm really sorry that i've not mentioned you all, it was fantastic to catch up with people i've met before though, and meet lots of new people too, and even better I got a lot of comments about my outfit, even that I had a Debbie Harry vibe going on, it was a shame that all too soon it was getting towards that time where i'd have to think about leaving, so I made my excuses and sort of de-cinnamonised into my jeans and hoody, and regular shoes.  I also took off the makeup before making my way back downstairs, it was as I was saying my goodbyes that a couple of people really commented on my transformation, I guess the boy me looks a little different from my favourite side of me.  That really made my night.  Mistress Arabella did say she didnt like this look on me one bit though!!  I did say I still had my dress on underneath though.

After the goodbyes I made my way home and even forgot to turn the radio on, I was in a happy place, I got home and stripped back down to my girly outfit, and the next thing I knew it was the next morning and i'd fallen asleep on the couch, oopsies! I was thinking back over it the next day and realised that was probably the first time i've been played with at one of these events, however little it was compared to some of the other play going on.  Feels like kind of another cool step for me to take so yay!  And thankyou to Mistress Violet and Mistress Islya too!!

  I'm gonna wrap this post up now as it may be pretty damn long but thanks as always for reading, I hope you enjoy, i'm already looking forward to the next party, and booking another session with Mistress Courtney of course!  I hope theres lots of kinky fun coming this way.

Feel free to chat to me on twitter as always,

Cinnamon xxx

P.S another big thanks must go to Mistress Arabella for all the hard work organising the event, and looking great as the Ice Queen!!

Tuesday, 16 May 2017

A random little update

Hey everyone, I thought it was time I should be looking at doing another blog post, coming up to a couple of weeks after my last.  Now unfortunately this one wont have any kinky sessions to tell about, although the memory of that afternoon with Mistress Courtney is still so fresh in my head.

So what to post about, firstly theres only a couple of days now until I get another night out as cinnamon, for the relaunch of the party nights at the Manchester Chambers.  The last couple of times I really enjoyed myself and feel I learned a lot there.  So I am looking forward to it, even though I have no idea what to wear.  I'm thinking i'll be a lot more comfortable again as i've obviously had more nights out since the last time.  I guess the only thing i'll feel is slightly jealous if I see others getting spanked etc *blushes* Anyways i'm sure it will be lots of fun and i'll be posting more about it.  Still haven't decided on an outfit but maybe this dress on the right will get an outing?  its either that or the on in the pic on the left of this post below that I wore for BitchesUnleSHEd, which feels awesome as its satin and makes me all tingly.

It seems i've been getting more and more into my fantasies the last couple of weeks, but at the same time looking back at old posts on here and my twitter etc noticing in a way how they have evolved.  I still have the humiliation fantasies but am finding they're happening more when i'm feeling in a "boy" mood, when I get fully into Cinnamon I find the humiliation craving is less, yet I dont feel any less submissive.  Considering how much my wardrobe has been added too this last year, i'm getting to spend more and more time when alone at home as cinnamon.  To be completely honest its more comfortable a lot of the time, the only downside is making sure all traces of makeup are gone the next morning when I walk into work still half asleep.  Its been good to chat to a couple of people on twitter about this, and I reckon i'm understanding myself a lot more now.  But on a similar note i'm also getting some strange feelings, its almost been like a kink withdrawal mood the last few days, despite dressing etc at home a lot. I guess its been a busy few months i've had and i'm grateful for every single bit of it!

Sorry i'm going to be keeping this post fairly short, I just wanted to put something here as its been a while.  I think my next on may  be a longer one after the party at the weekend, and also there are a couple of other things Mistress Courtney has mentioned that are intriguing to me, and of course i'll be looking to book another session pretty much as soon as I can.  So as always feel free to chat to me on twitter i'm off to relax in my naughty thoughts and have a couple of cappucino's

Cinnamon xxx

Saturday, 29 April 2017

Another amazing session

Hey everyone, its been a couple of weeks since I posted, few things on and to be honest been looking forward to something quite a bit.  I mentioned a couple of times that the first anniversary of my first session was coming up, and well earlier this week It happened, and what better way to spend it than having another session with the amazing Mistress Courtney

I've been looking back over the year building up to this, remembering the feelings I had at this time last year, the nerves, the excitement, with a little bit of fear as well I guess.  Whilst all the time getting some similar feelings, well the fear has gone now, I think that was just because it was my first time, and totally unknown.  There was definitely excitement and some nerves too, but i'll get to those in a little bit.  I actually found myself getting lost in thoughts for a good few nights before the day.  I even spent the last few days before keeping myself in virtual bubblewrap to make sure I didnt get any injuries or anything.

I'd been thinking a lot of my first session, exactly a year ago

The day before the session Mistress told me she would like me to be wearing underwear under my clothes, and some makeup when I arrived.  That was where those nerves came in, I know I drove to meet Mistress before Bitches UnleSHED wearing makeup, but that was at night, in the dark.  This was going to be broad daylight, well that night I tossed and turned in bed but eventually drifted off into a dream that ended up being very humiliating.  I woke up on the day and sent a confirmation message and was told to bring the dress I wore while filming a couple of weeks ago and then had a relaxing morning, getting everything ready, before having some lunch and then getting dressed,  I chose a baby pink babydoll, baby pink fishnets and some silky pink panties with a lace trim on underneath a shirt and jeans.  I had no idea what makeup to wear, so I started with foundation and a hint of blush, a little eyeshadow and liner and mascara, I had a little play with my eyebrows too.  Finally for the lips, I used a lip crayon that came out much brighter than I thought it was, but I didn't have time to change it.  Grabbing my bag I got to my car as quick as possible while keeping my head down, and was so conscious all the way to the dungeon, trying to keep my head as straight as possible, especially through the busy section of roadworks on the M60, I parked up and was shaking a little.  Trying not to be seen by any passers by, I received a text telling me to go in, I had to put on my dress, and a wig and eye mask Mistress had left out, and to wait.

 As I approached the door I had a flashback of the first time that door opened to me last year. I was tingling as I got myself how Mistress wanted and then put the mask on.  I really couldnt see, then heard a little giggle as Mistress came in, I felt those sharp fingernails lightly brush along my arm,  now as always i'm not going to go into all the details of the session but at one point I was shown a video of me being spanked by Mistress, while she re-enacted the clip at the same time, it was like an overload of senses, watching it while feeling it at the same time, I was then tied up, which gave Mistress something to pull me about on.  It gave me such a great feeling as I was totally trapped.  I was then spanked again over Mistresses knee and I found out after that i'd been introduced to a cane for the first time. I was then turned over and teased a lot more with a Doxy, Mistress was mentioning all kinds of idea's, my head was just in that place where everything just feels right, and the ideas were making me even more excited.  I was writhing as the teasing continued.
Panties made sticky for the journey home
  I was allowed after a while to "make my panties wet and sticky for the drive home" and with the help of the Doxy and Mistresses permission had one of the most intense orgasms i've ever had.  I was kind of spaced out then, and was told to just lie there a minute as Mistress went to get some water.

Mistress came back and we chatted as I sort of came back round, before leaving me to get dressed.  I had to keep the sticky panties on though and we had another chat about the session and some possible future plans again and I gave Mistress a little surprise gift i'd got her, I was delighted that she liked it, when I left the dungeon I was on a high, and once again just drifted through the rush hour traffic, I spent the evening still feeling like I was floating, reliving not just that session but bits from all the sessions and things over the last year.  Its taken me a couple of days to let everything sink through for me to write about it, i'm sure i'll still be having flashbacks for a long time.

I've been thinking of the last year or so as a whole lately, I know I feel more comfortable in myself, lived some dreams I thought were impossible, and met some really great people.  Yet I know i've still lots to learn and i'm most definitely looking forward to that.  Right, this is probably way too long already so I'm gonna wrap this up, but as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS no panties were permanently damaged, yay

Tuesday, 4 April 2017

An afternoon of filming fun

Hey everyone, I guess its that time for another post again.  Luckily just a day after another fun afternoon so I don't need to rumble around my imagination to try and come up with something to post.

The dress I wore for the day
Towards the end of last week I received a message from Mistress Courtney asking if I could help do some filming again for her which of course I said yes to.  I kind of had a feeling how the day would go after doing it a couple of times already until sunday afternoon when Mistress sent me another message both confirming the time, and telling me to bring a dress.  The part about a dress was definitely new.  Anyways I got up yesterday and did a few jobs I needed to do before getting myself ready and heading off to the dungeon with  dress and my wig in a bag.  I parked up and waited a couple of minutes before heading down and being greeted by Mistress.  I swear she looks stunning whatever she wears, and was excited about the afternoon.  We set up in the dungeon room as the other slave arrived and then Mistress asked me if I was forgetting something.  Gulp, so it was time for  me to get myself changed into my pink dress and wig, with a touch of lipstick too.  I didnt wear any heels as the camera is worth a bucketload and well I would hate to have tripped while using it.  When I was ready Mistress said "thats better"  I did feel a bit apprehensive as the other slave was there and inbetween clips  we were chatting etc, but that soon disappeared as we moved around the dungeon filming a load of different kinky fetish clips, including a couple that made my eyes water *blushes* But as always i'm not going to go into details here, you'll have to check Mistresses clips sites for that!

Maybe I can wear this one at an event soon
We took a break half way through the day and this was slightly scary as we all nipped outside for some fresh air, but I was still dressed in my dress but thankfully wasn't really in a visible position to anyone, there were some clip ideas for the future bouncing around then.  Then we went back in for some more clips.  There was one where both the slaves and Mistresses reaction to a certain toy being used was genuinely hilarious and I had to really bite my lips to stay silent, I soon burst into a giggle after we ended the clip though.  Finally after we finished the last clip for the day (or so I thought) I was instructed to kneel over a bench and was strapped down.  I was spanked and teased with Mistresses nails until I was shivering.  I didnt even care that the other slave was watching or that it was being recorded, It was actually fun, and has made me long for my next session,  I keep telling myself its less than a month now!

We tidied up and had a chat, and some delicious cookies that Mistress had brought with her, before saying our goodbyes, but I did manage to ask if I would be able to attend an event next month at the Chambers where Sinnation was held.  I missed the last one as I hit a massive wall after the fun of subversion the day before and travelling back up from that there London!  But I have had fun at the couple I attended, I can only dream that Mistress would be able to go as well *blushes*  And also hot off the press, the date for the second Bitches UnleaSHEd event at cirque has been released, hopefully i'll be able to attend this one as well, especially as i'm off work that week, the last one apart from the stairs of doom was a great night, that reminds me, maybe I need to find myself a pretty pair of flats??

Right i'm gonna wrap this up and have a coffee and relax, stay kinky ppl, and as always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx