Monday, 28 March 2016

A tale of Lipstick, illness and dreams becoming reality

Hey everybody,  its been a while.  Sorry about that, but i've not been 100% recently.  But hopefully i'm back now.

Last time I wrote I mentioned the sale on lipsticks from one of my favorite companies,  and well they arrived, some of you may have seen the pics I put on twitter but oh my god I love them, so pigmented, so bright, they are just perfect.

The brand name is changing apparently which is why they were so cheap,  i'm not complaining, they were a bargain.  I even figured out that I now own enough lipsticks to wear a different one every day and still go over a month before doubling up, *blushes* I did a swatch of the new ones and the older ones of the same brand I'd already bought

You can see the pigmentation and brightness of them, they really are my favourites now!

Anyways i've obviously been edging for and worshipping the MeanGirls as much as I could over the last couple weeks since I last called them.  I was hoping I would get to speak to them this weekend just gone as with the illness I had i'd missed out last weekend as I wasn't up to it.  Even this week I'm not 100% and apologised that I wasn't right to go on cam for them.  But had possibly the most intense call i've ever had with them.  I knew it was Easter so knew I would be lucky if they would be available but I was still awake when I got the message that they would be logging on to NiteFlirt.  All thoughts of going to bed disappeared and I quickly got ready and called.

Miss Erika and Miss Vicki quickly led the call into living out a dream I had recently, they'd seen it on here, and they roleplayed through the SissyCarrie dream I had, embellishing it, and adding bits where they wanted too, I felt humiliated, emasculated, embarrassed and oh so incredibly aroused. Being led in the dark through the call just drew me into the fantasy deeper and deeper, until I could vividly imagine being on that stage begging a baying crowd of laughing women to be allowed a cumsie, not caring that it was being photoed filmed and witnessed by every hot girl in town, covered in lingerie, makeup and blushing bright red.  I'm not lying when I say that at the end of that call I was shaking and trembling.  I loved it *blushes* And dreamt of it through the night.  So intense and amazing, I can't thank the MeanGirls enough for taking my dream and turning it into such an erotic experience for me.

Today i'm off work at home, and decided to try give this cage another go,

However I really do appear to be too small to get the thing to fit, you know the idea of chastity scares the living hell out of me but I keep trying, genuinely if anyone has got any ideas or tips for very small guys I would really appreciate them,

So as thats not appearing to be working so far, I guess I should indulge in the humiliation playlist and some MeanGirls audios and start the cycle of edging all over again.

Thanks for reading again, and feel free to get in touch

Cinnamon xx

Monday, 14 March 2016

Torment, Humiliation, Punishment and Pleasure

Well hello again everyone, I have to write a blog about the last week or so,

Anyone who has read some of my previous entries will probably know all about a girl at my work called Jess, there has been some teasing and flirting and well after the works Christmas do when she was drunk, i'm pretty certain she knows that I am not exactly well endowed "down there"

Well anyway she finished at my work last week, she is moving across the country for at least a year, so a group of us thought we should maybe go grab a drink, a bite to eat etc as like a send off for her.   There wasn't many of us, about 6 and the afternoon was going great until everyone left apart from me and Jess. We were sat in a booth in a corner of the bar and she was being her usual self, which was quite cool as we haven't really spoke much the last few weeks with audits etc at work its been hectic. Anyways after a while she put her arm around me and kissed my cheek, before properly kissing me again.  As it did last time it felt amazing and she kind of swung her legs over mine so she was in effect sat on my knee.  Then the worst thing possible happened,  (please bear in mind I'd been allowed no cumsies for over two and a half weeks) as we kissed I could feel my tiny thing start to throb and then without notice it actually blew *blushes*  You have no idea how glad I was that she had no hands in the area, I literally did not know what to do, whilst instantly thinking of the MeanGirls.  I must have somehow pulled back involuntary but the kiss didn't go on much longer, from then till we left I tried to stay sat down and felt utterly mortified and humiliated, when we left I could see a small mark on my trousers and horribly a little drying trickle down my thigh.

It was the panties from this set I had on, and when I got home I had to try and wash them straight away.  I also knew I had to confess to the MeanGirls so sent them an email and also a Gift Certificate to apologise, I know they control my cumsies.  I was panicking and was dreading it as I had let them down, It was a day or so before I heard back so I was a wreck, but they said I was sweet to confess, but that they expected to watch a punishment on cam over the weekend.

So it got to sunday and pretty much all day I was edging for them and making myself ache as much as I could and it got to that glorious time.  I called and as soon as I heard their voices I could feel myself weaken, it had been ages but I was once again under their spell.  There was so much humiliation as they made me describe in detail what had happened,  and then I had to give a spoken apology to go along with my written one and their laughs at this made me tremble, before the punishment.  I had to spank myself with the paddle thats at the top right of this pic as the MeanGirls counted along

I've never really been much of a pain lover although I know I deserved at least this, I've also been told if I ever have an accident like this again I have to lick the panties clean.  I was then allowed to make a cumsie into another pair of panties and you guessed it I had to lick them clean as their laughs totally ripped me apart into a whole new level of embarrassment.  I already can't wait till my next call with them but really hope I never let them down again as they've told me the punishment will be worse next time.  They also said it would be fun for me to call tied up with a woman with me, so they could tell all my secrets and this is a thought thats been in my head all day, i've no idea if its at all possible, they mentioned Jess but I know she'll be miles away now, If theres any local women feel free to give me a shout *blushes*

Then today I gets an email after a lovely walk in the sun, from a company I bought lots of lipsticks from a couple months ago, they have a sale on so I've had to treat myself, they're high quality and totally gorgeous I just couldn't resist, their link page is saturated colour have a look for the KiSSsticks, they are amazing

Its not these shades but the same brand as these, so i'm now all excited, a sissy can never have enough lipsticks!  I'm still on a high after yesterday and so glad that the Mean Girls accepted my apology

I know today is Steak and BJ day, well for real men it is, for us loser sissys its a day to spend in pink

thanks for reading and hope you've enjoyed, feel free to get in touch

Cinnamon xxx

Friday, 4 March 2016

Dreams Denial and missing the MeanGirls

Well hi everyone, sorry its been a while since I last posted, with work and all sorts its been one of those busy periods, the worst thing at the moment is the ache.  Its been a while since I spoke to the MeanGirls and I find that I miss them more each and every day.

Now in my normal life i've always had a tendency to fall asleep watching a movie, and lately it seems to have been old horror movies that have taken my fancy.  Its funny how the imagery can really affect your dreams, even if it adapts them into something different, I thought i'd share a recent one here.

I'd fallen asleep to Carrie, (the original, not the remake) and honestly can't remember which point I dozed off although they were still setting up the gym for the prom.  Yet for the next few nights I had a vivid dream adapting the movie into well a sissies dream I guess.
  I was basically playing myself, pretty much a geek and a loser, who somehow found myself invited to the prom by one of the most gorgeous girls in the entire city, let alone school.  All the week before I found myself being talked to more and more by people who would never normally give me the time of day.  I spent ages getting ready, and as I was leaving my house, even my older quite often catty sister said that I looked completely different and normal.

  I met the girl and we went into the prom and got a drink, people were being soon friendly, I was so happy we had a little dance, I was even invited outside to share a joint, I was feeling so mellow and then we were all called into the hall again and the host of the evening was there to announce the king and queen of the prom, apparently everyone had voted although I didn't recall ever seeing a slip etc.  But anyway we were stood together and my date whispered, "imagine if its us" I literally couldn't believe it when it was our names called, the whole place erupted with cheers and I felt like I was swept up to the stage and escorted to the position next to the podium, my date stepped up to the podium to speak and all I could see were the eyes, all looking at us, for the first time in my life was I actually popular?  I couldnt even hear what my date was saying until she said the word surprise.  At that I heard a voice at the back of the hall yell now, then a murmuring of laughter started, I heard a creaking about me and looked up.  It was only then I noticed the huge container tipping over and all of a sudden hundreds of pairs of panties, stockings, other lingerie etc started to fall all over me.  I panicked so hard I was rooted on the spot and my fear rose to a fever pitch when my dates best friend came up on stage laughing,  picked a pair of the frilliest panties up and rubbed them on my crotch, hearing her grab the microphone and announce to the entire laughing hall that "this must excite the little loser, theres a teeny tiny bump there" made the tears start, I still couldn't move though, and unlike the actual movie I had no telekinetic powers whatsoever, and my humiliation had only just begun.  There was plenty more to the dream, but I think i'll keep that private for now, as the MeanGirls have said we maybe can adapt this as a call *blushes*

I must have had variations on this dream maybe 5/6 times in the last week and a half now,  and with not being allowed a cumsie for ages the ache is off the hook, I literally cuddled a pillow earlier and found myself at an edge, I think i'd even beg to make a cumcookie if I could

Well I hope it won't be as long till my next post on here,  and hopefully not long till I get to chat to the MeanGirls, but i'll keep aching, and practicing my makeup for them, and hope my imagination keeps running wild, feel free to chat on twitter and thanks for reading

Cinnamon xxx