Wednesday, 1 November 2017

A night of Halloween fun at Events Chambers

Hi everyone, I thought i'd make myself a blog of my last evening out as Cinnamon, once again at one of the Events Chambers monthly kinky parties.  I did actually have this blog wrote last week but after an accidental deletion its time to start it up again.

I knew that this party had a special Halloween theme, although had had no luck whatsoever with sorting a decent outfit early enough.  My friend who knows thought she had helped me with a "bad fairy" outfit, but the sizing was way out so it had to be returned.  So in the end I found a top on amazon and ordered it, thinking I would wear with my mini skirt, tights and heels.

My top for the party, a satin inner and lace layer over the top
Anyways the day of the party came and I after work began my task of getting ready.  I was pretty much dressed as I set off from home, all I needed to do was swap my shoes,  take off my pants and jacket, put my wig on and freshen up my makeup.   I had done a quick effort with my makeup at home, and as it was dark didn't have the same paranoia i've had driving in it before.  It was an interesting drive as the weather was way crazy.  But I pulled up outside the Chambers just after the start time and made my way in.  I was greeted as warmly as ever and allowed upstairs to get changed.  And pretty soon Cinnamon was downstairs chatting.  Some of the outfits and makeup were awesomely done as the theme was Halloween and the chambers had been decorated,  there was even a candyfloss machine and attendant in the reception area.  There were a few new faces there this time, yet I felt none of the nerves and paranoia I felt the first couple of times that I went.  It was great to catch up with people i've met before and speak to the Mistresses.  It may sound strange, but just by chatting I've learned a lot, and its hard to say just how grateful I am.

For this party there was some food available that had been cooked by the resident Dommes at the chambers, which smelled divine, I was cursing the fact i'd already eaten.  There was also entertainment similar to last time which this time scared the be-jesus out of me, anything with broken glass does, but the lady doing the demonstration had a flow to her movements, and managed to keep everyones attention.  It was quite erotic if i'm being honest, (even if the scary sissy inside me was cringing at the broken glass)  Mistress Arabella led a game at one point as well, two slaves with sparklers inserted into a certain body part followed by them apple bobbing.  This game ended up with a caning and something completely different.  All the subs were invited to give one spank, I've got to be honest this felt really strange, but kind of cool as well.

All too soon it was time to think about getting home and said my goodbyes before a thankfully dryer drive home.  Looking forward to next time, and with permission have pics of the event flyers to share in my blog, all contact details are on there, i'd really recommend the evenings, especially for anyone who may be nervous, i've found that unless you are being told to bend over a stool, or escort a Mistress to the bathroom there is just no reason to be!  I've never felt under any pressure there, and even if the chatting isn't about kinky things and is about music festivals etc, its still just as relaxed

My cute pink pillow, and me of course x

Since the party night i've been keeping myself busy while Mistress Courtney is away on holiday.  And kind of invented a kinky random game of chance, involving a playlist of humiliation clips and a timer.  Basically selected a couple of hours worth, but only one of the clips gives permission to make a precious cumsie.  Over the weekend i've cursed myself for coming up with this game as I have had absolutely zero luck with it.  Since then as well i've been told I need to play this game for an hour each day.  Its made the ache extremely intense, and has had me almost constantly aroused.  i've nearly called someone Mistress at work, and am feeling so submissive all the time.  In fact when i'm at home I'm almost cuddled up to the pink pillow all the time now, I guess it is perfect for a sissy.

Right, I think I am going to wrap this up now as I keep nearly drifting into something I am saving for another blog, as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Monday, 23 October 2017

A day of helping film with Miss Courtney

Hi everyone, I thought I would write a post about a really fun day I had last week.  Helping Mistress Courtney film some clips for her clips stores.  And on a chilly afternoon what better way to write a blog than a hot and milky coffee

If you've read my blogs before you will know that I have helped film a few times before with Mistress and had always enjoyed helping, so when I was asked again I jumped at the opportunity.  Mistress had booked a dungeon studio called The Facility, in Birmingham and the day before had confirmed the times etc with me.

I woke up early and made sure I had a proper breakfast for once and set off.  My mind wandering in my car, wondering what this place would be like, would I just be behind the camera? or as Mistress had said maybe there would be a little clip with me in,  I was glad i'd allowed extra time as the roads seemed to be feeling the effects of a certain Ophelia, the sky and sun a strange colour and the damn 50 mph limit on the M6 rolling into one huge jam.  But still I managed to get there about 5 minutes before we'd agreed and after driving up and down the road not seeing the studio thought I'd park up and wait for Mistress.  After a moment I saw Mistresses car coming down the road, and we waved at each other, as Mistress parked I walked over and said hi.  As none of us had been here before we had a giggle looking for the place, even walking into the wrong yard of some units at one point before finding the place and moving our cars to their car park.   Whilst we unloaded the car the first filming slaves arrived and we were all introduced.  It was very quiet at first as we were getting ready.  The room we were using was really well equipped and I set up the lighting for the area we were going to be using first as Mistress was throwing some ideas around and some of the formalities were done.  (paperwork, it gets everywhere)

Some images of the amazing Mistress Courtney
Pretty soon we were off with the clips.  As always I'm not going to go into too much detail about them, you'll have to check Mistresses store out.  I'm often transfixed while filming, trying to make sure I get the camera right while being in awe of Mistress, she has a certain aura of dominance and flows like an artist through a scene, I feel very lucky that i've had the chance to witness it, even though with some things I get cravings like I wish it was happening to me, in between scenes Mistress often tells me she could tell I liked the last one, which just sets me off blushing.

We filmed a good few clips, including a couple of role-play clips that had me trembling behind the camera, (thank god for tripods) and a couple that made me want to close my eyes, I couldnt of course.  Then there was a little swap around, as the first couple of slaves left and another arrived, We had a little break and then started again with the new slave, who also dresses, Sophie.  Mistress did her makeup, and I was a little envious watching, but still enjoyed it.  Before some clips involving cling film, foot worship, strap on play and a cute pink sissy dress.  It did get late very quick and we had to wrap the day up, I wasn't in any clips this time.  But Mistress mentioned booking another day after her holiday.  The Facility was a really good space to film in.  I think there were other ideas that we just didnt have time to get through

After packing up and saying my goodbyes I left for the thankfully quieter drive home feeling an ache all the way, picturing some of the things i'd seen, imagining being knelt before Mistress and smiling all the way home.  I couldn't really relax in my thoughts that evening though as I was home and instantly get ready for work the next day.  I knew later in the week as well I had another evening out as cinnamon at the Halloween Events Chambers party.  Thats being saved for another blog though, and for now I am going to wrap this one up.  Thanks for reading and feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS.  Feel free to check out Mistress Courtney's clip store here

Monday, 18 September 2017

An amazing and kinky night at the Events Chambers party

Hmm so what does my blog and buses have in common?  Yep thats it theres none for ages, then two pretty much right after one another.  Well as I mentioned in my last post a couple of days ago I was planning on going to the Events Chambers party on Saturday.  Though its getting to the stage where I am always wondering what to wear!  I need a bigger wardrobe hehe!
I chose this dress in the end

Well it came to saturday and i finally decided on my outfit, and got everything ready I needed.  The dress, wig, shoes, makeup although as i've done a few times now I wore most of the underwear from home.  And as has happened before I pulled into the quietest corner of the motorway service station car park I could find and set about trying to do some makeup.  Mainly my eyes, they weren't perfect but for a rush job in a car park I was happy.  I pulled up outside and made my way in saying hi, and being as warmly greeted as ever before heading upstairs to change.  You know its less than a year since I first attended and I remember the nerves as I almost cowered in a room changing and the way my heart pounded as I walked out into the party, yet now I find those nerves are just not there, so as i finished getting as ready as I could be I packed all of my boy things into my bag and took it back downstairs to be stored.  My dress had some lovely comments, and everyone there was friendly, when someone said they thought I was a similar age to them I was delighted, (they were only 23) Talk about a confidence booster.

I always find chatting at these do's to be fun, to other subs, Mistresses, the staff and well everyone,  there seems to be no judgement and its something someone like me doesn't get to feel too often.  But there often seems to be plenty of play too, i've found it fascinating watching some of the play when i've been there, even though some of the things scare me silly.  I have been teased and tickled lightly and had a spanking there but this night seemed to have a lot of firsts for me.  The first one I was in the bar area chatting when a Mistress told me to accompany her to the toilet.  (very nervously I followed while explaining i'd never done anything like this before)  It was explained to me that I needed to stand and watch and fold up some toilet paper which I did, shaking with nerves and not sure what would happen next.  As the Mistress finished she stood and I was instructed to use the folded up toilet paper to wipe her clean.  Which I hope I did ok, again I was shaking at this.  As the Mistress was leaving the bathroom and said we could go back to the bar I asked if I could just use the toilet.  I hadnt banked on the Mistress standing before me as I sat on the toilet feeling exposed, and finding it hard to go, even though I needed to.  After some encouragement I managed it though, despite the feelings rushing through me.  After I finished my you know what was wiped clean and I pulled my panties back up.  As we made our way downstairs I was told its good for girls to "share" and that I could put this in my blog but no names where necessary.

Pretty soon after I found myself in one of the dungeon rooms watching a caning over the bench and also a beautiful female sub being a puppy, and chatting with others.  Then I was challenged to take a caning myself.  (this was just after another Mistress asked if she could flog me later) Now i've never been really caned before but I was told it would be a "sensual" caning,  the thought has come up in my head more and more often for me though lately and somehow I found myself knelt over the bench and exposed with the skirt of my dress lifted right up. Hearing others around chatting added to the feelings, I heard a whisper that we have an audience.  I then got told i'd be having 6 strokes, I managed to take them without screaming, as that was my fear and felt a rush of emotions as I stood up.  I chilled a little after this, watching some other canings, chatting before I had an experience i'll never forget, my blog is not the place to talk about that though.  I felt very lucky.

Later in the evening as things were drawing to a close I received some possibly inadvertent SPH from a Mistress who was instructing a slave to wank.  And chatted more with everyone before dressing back as a boy for my drive home.  It was a really good night and i'd like to thank all of the Mistresses, all of the subs, for another really fun experience.  I can't wait for the Halloween one next month.

I'm going to wrap this up now, but as always, feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Friday, 15 September 2017

Another wonderful session with Mistress Courtney

Hey everyone, I thought I would make a blog about my latest session with the amazing Mistress Courtney this week.  Having a couple of days booked off, I managed to book the session and had been building up excitement to it as I always do.  Yes sure I am lucky I can indulge in my thoughts and fantasies at home pretty much whenever I like but theres something about an actual session, that just magnifies all my thoughts.

I spent the day beforehand getting myself ready, and letting my mind wander before getting in my car and making that now familiar drive.  As always when I parked I sent a text to say I was there and felt my nervous excitement grow until the reply came through to come down.  I knocked at the door and was let in and greeted by Mistress, who looked as gorgeous as ever.  I was allowed to use the WC and then was shown into the dungeon.  I was told a couple of things, and then left to get myself stripped to my panties and my wig,  I'm never the most confident about my body, so felt quite exposed as I was sat there in only panties, but felt myself melt as Mistress opened the door and walked in with a dress.  There was so much satin and lace, as I was helped to put it on I just felt so submissive, and the sensations as it rubbed over my body gave me a goosebump or two.  Which Mistress duly noted.
An old photo of me and Mistress

I posed for a couple of pics, and had to do a twirl, and even briefly show Mistress Luci which definitely made me blush, then I was cuffed to the bar above my head, and given a punishment, with a strap followed by a spanking, paddling and I think a crop as well.  I felt something i've never felt before and could consciously feel myself try to stick my bottom out inbetween spanks,  despite the stinging I soon felt. When I was uncured I was given a sip of water, before being strapped to the gynae bench, unable to move with my arms and legs secured.  Then Mistress put a gag on me (I have a phobia about things in my mouth, but somehow wanted to at least try) Then a blindfold as well.  In that moment I felt a vulnerability i've never felt before.  I couldnt see, couldnt speak, couldnt move, (other than squirm) everything seemed magnified, from Mistress voice, to the touch of the various things she used to tease and torment me.  I could constantly feel my eyes trying to dart around behind the blindfold even though everything was dark for me.  Making little moaning sounds behind the gag as I was made to squirm.  I lost track of time, and just got in that special place.  Riding an edge for what seemed an age before being denied (well for now)  As the gag and blindold were removed  Mistress watched as I drifted back into normality and explained that I could text and ask permission later that night to make my panties sticky.  I was untied and left to get dressed again and Mistress made us a drink.

We sat and had a coffee and a chat and I always enjoy this.  A couple of ideas were discussed and I realised how easy Mistress can make me drift off as she pressed one of my triggers before I was let go to float my way home.  I've said it before, but following being in that place in my head no amount of traffic on the M60 can annoy you.  Then once I got home I made some food and changed into some of my naughtiest lingerie and teased myself before texting and asking Mistress for permission.  I beamed when the reply came back and after a little more teasing did what i'd been told hehe.

Maybe my outfit for saturday night
You know i'm already looking forward to my next kinky fun with Mistress.  But I also have another fun night at The Manchester Chambers planned for this weekend, and they are always such fun nights.  I just need to figure my outfit out now for it, i'm thinking of daring to try something a little sluttier than usual, but thats because of my naughty moods from the last week or so.  I also did debate trying to find a localish place to the chambers that may have done a makeover.  But that idea has gone for now, due to cost and well the time i'd need I guess.  Maybe another time!  If my really slutty idea doesn't work out then I may try this dress again

Anyways i'm gonna wrap this up and i'm sure you'll be seeing more on here soon.  Feel free to chat on twitter as always and have a great and kinky weekend!

Cinnamon xxx

Monday, 4 September 2017

A shopping trip with a friend

Hey everyone, I thought something that happened at the weekend deserved a blog post and its been a couple of weeks so here goes.  I knew I had time off work, and my original reason for booking the weekend off had been cancelled, so I hadn't really got any plans as such.

I've been getting naughtier in my thoughts lately and had treated myself to a clip from a clip store the other night from Cruel Girlfriend (I still remember winning that prize of a months subscription last year)  The clip featured a Princess I have met a couple of times at the Bitches UnleShed events, and it was based around a humiliating visit to a mall with lots of tasks to complete for points.  I'm sure anyone who reads my blogs regularly can tell, this kind of idea is one of my wildest fantasies.  I'm not going to ruin it by naming all the tasks but will say that completing the set would leave any sissy utterly humiliated and embarrassed, even though all the tasks were doable.  Do you find in some clips as few of the instructions/tasks just border a little into the impossible?  Not with this one.  Not with this one indeed.

I was actually daydreaming about doing this task, even shared a tweet about it, but soon realised checking my budget, i'd kind of need to be a little more flush.  But then I had a message from one of my friends who kind of knows everything about me, asking if I wanted to catch up that afternoon, over a few texts we came up with the idea of meeting at the Trafford Centre and having a laugh, some coffee, and maybe I could help her with some shopping.  So I had some lunch and got myself ready and set off.  I was dressed in my boy clothes, but of course had panties on underneath.  I got there and parked up, before heading to where we'd agreed to meet. I thought I was going to be early but my friend was there and greeted me with a hug,

We went inside and were just having a general catch up chat, then she asked me if there was anything I was looking for in the shops today, I said I wish with a smile, not until payday as I know I have a couple of cool things coming up next week.  She giggled at this knowing full well what the "cool things" are.  I think this was my first inadvertent blush of the day.  We headed into New look first, and I was loosely just following around, feeling some of those feelings, looking for myself, but trying not to show it too much as you know, I was with a friend.  This continued for a few stores, At one point I was told a dress i'd said was cute would look great on me, I nervously glanced around but there was no-one within earshot, cue my second blush of the day, I was growing more confident though, I could feel myself looking more attentively rather than just look like the unfortunate guy to get dragged shopping.  It was so much fun, and as I wasn't alone, didnt get any of the creeping paranoia and fear that does happen when alone.  Then we headed up to the large Debenhams up at the far end of the centre.  I knew we were heading to a specific makeup counter, she goes there all the time.  I followed but felt the smell of cosmetics as soon as we entered, it has such an effect on me, but I tried not to show it as my friend was chatting to the girl on the counter, and after a moment was trying on all sorts of little testers, in fact the counter girl asked her to sit down and applied some lipstick but kind of blended two colours together, an ombre look.  She looked at me and winked, saying I bet this colour would suit me too.  The girl from the counter giggled at that.  I felt my third blush as my eyes widened and could feel goosebumps all over, I tried to smile and act as cool as I could, as she stood up she grabbed my hand and looked at me all funny.  She paid up and we left the store, I was told it was coffee time now.  So we walked almost the entire length of the place to our favourite  Starbucks, its better than the others somehow, ordered us a drink and sat down.  I'd calmed a little and was surprised to hear her say "sorry" I asked why??

She explained how she saw how I reacted in the makeup department, that by my reaction I actually wanted to be in that chair, especially when telling me the lipstick would have suited me,  we've chatted about my kinks before and some of the milder things I have done with Mistress Courtney etc, but she had no idea how nervous they make me, especially in a setting like that, It was just meant to be a friendly joke, I knew it was, I told her that, but said that some little things just trigger my mind, we were back to laughing a little now thankfully and the uncomfortable moment had passed.  As we left the coffee shop she asked if there was any other stores I wanted to check out and it was here I had the next blush of the day, saying well......  She told me I could tell her anything, so I said i'd always wanted to go into Victorias secret, without feeling awkward, she looked at me really deeply, like she was reading me, and said ok, we'll go in, but we'd be just pretending we were looking for her.  No more uncomfortable moments for the day.  She actually held my hand as we went in, and I have to say I could have spent all day in there with her *blushes* the best thing was not feeling dodgy for being in there, I was just in there with a friend, we left shortly after.  I walked her to her car and we hugged, I thanked her for the day and she said maybe one day, we can be shopping for you, she then kissed my cheek and drove off.  I was on a high walking back to my car, it had been such a cool and fun day.

Going back to the start of this post I mentioned the clip, I think for sure all the tasks would be doable at the trafford centre, and I know how strong sometimes my humiliation cravings get.  Gulp, I think it would definitely need to be around payday on a month with no sessions etc though to do it properly.
Anyways I'll wrap this up here, but have lots more fun, and probably a lot more kinky too coming up, with hopefully a session with the amazing Mistress Courtney next week and also the next kinky play party at EventsChambers with all week off I can really indulge *blushes*  I'm sure you'll hear all about it.  Feel free to chat with me, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Tuesday, 22 August 2017

A kinky and fun few days

Hey everyone,  I thought I would have to put together a blog post about the last week or so, its been lots of fun for me.  So I made myself a cappuccino as is always necessary and here goes!!

Firstly last week one afternoon I had the opportunity to meet Mistress Courtney, and spend some time with her.  I finally got to give Mistress the last part of her birthday present, and we had some fun.  I had to take a selection of some of my girly things and Mistress chose me an outfit to wear out of my case and did my makeup, which always feels sooooooooooooo.  I was restrained and paddled and spanked, which felt a little harder than the other times, before being tied down totally and I was subjected to a tickling,  scratching, tormenting experience, I was kind of blindfolded with a pair of my own panties, it really really enhanced the feelings, and its been giving me all kinds of flashbacks. I was totally lost in that moment, and can just remember that giggle, and my body jerking, squirming but being unable to really move.  Mistress also explained a little more about something she mentioned last time, that when I go to that special place, my eyes seem to change, I find this fascinating in fact i've tried to replicate it at home in front of a mirror, but not had any luck yet. I can't wait to have some more fun with Mistress.  There were a couple of things mentioned that sounded so exciting, just so very exciting.
The fishnets I wore for the night

Then after a couple of hellish shifts at work I found myself getting ready to attend another party at the Manchester Chambers  Anyone who's read my previous blogs will know i've been to a few events there now.  My plan for the evening after work was get home, eat and shower, then get as ready as I could while still having boy clothes over the top, and as is seemingly getting a familiar routine did the basics of my makeup while still at home.  I drove to the Chambers, wondering how this time would be, I had no nerves at all this time, just the usual paranoia as I drove through the traffic.  I parked up and headed inside and was greeted by Diva Karishma  Mistress Arabella and a few other people I have met before.  In no time I had nipped to the changing rooms and fully got changed, before heading down to the bar area, It was a very friendly night, as always and I felt relaxed, even when I was threatened with a caning, scarily I may have been a little excited at that point.  During the night it was great to chat with others, about all sorts of kink, plus some vanilla stuff too.  There was also a few demo's that had been arranged, these were fantastic, they involved a stapler and a very sharp bed of nails, that frightened the life out of me, but looked amazing, especially when the lady was led on the bed, and had a Mistress stand on top.  Following this there was a burlesque style strip from a smouldering secretary look down to not very much at all, and it culminated with a lot of red wax that the lady poured over herself.  In the dark light and to the music that was playing I got a distinct vampiric vibe that I really loved.

Another demo a little later was by Mistress Lola who had attached two milking units up to a Venus2000 machine, and a challenge was set for two slaves, the first to lose control of their cock would lose and therefore have to take a caning.  You wouldn't believe it but this ended as a dead heat so both of the slaves had to take a caning, the machine itself is something that looks nice, but you can easily see how you could get punished, imagine being attached to that with no mercy, yikes that would get sensitive quickly.  Anyways after a thoroughly enjoyable evening I had to revert to my boy clothes and get myself home.  The problem with my early starts are that I can never seem to make it to the end of the night!

Back at home on the sunday I just had to indulge in Sissy Sunday, and after the few days i'd had I teased myself to some trembling edges before finally ruining an orgasm that seemed to just ooze out for ages, i've finally found something more frustrating than my football team losing.  Anyways i'm going to wrap this up now as i've realised I now have a free weekend next week so need to make myself a plan for it.   So as always feel free to chat to me on twitter and hope you've enjoyed

Cinnamon xx

Monday, 31 July 2017

My second trip to Bitches UnleaShed

Hey everyone, I guess my blog posts are like buses, its been weeks since I wrote and now there's two in a few days, I mentioned last time that I would be going to the second Bitches Unleashed event this weekend after having lots of fun attending the first with Mistress Courtney I was looking forward to it, even with the nerves I had as would be attending alone.

My dress on Saturday night
Firstly I came up with a plan to get there without needing to fully change and picked out, and changed the idea of the outfit I was going to wear, and was practicing my makeup for my homework from Mistress for the couple days before the night, I feel that it actually kept me in that submissive space in my head from the moment I left my session last week, personally I think the cumban had a lot to do with that as well.

Anyways Saturday came and once i'd got a couple of jobs done I started to get myself ready.  I wore a little black dress, underneath my boy clothes to travel,  I did what is becoming a slightly more common sneak out of my place diving in my car and getting at least a mile or so away before setting my sat nav up.  I then pulled into a quiet corner of the motorway services and tried to do my makeup, well, face and eyes, I thought I would leave the lipstick until I got there.  I then finished the drive with that paranoia it always gives me.  I got there without any incident though and parked up where I was told, before having a quick gulp of water and entering.  I was going to head straight for the cloakroom/ changing area but was spotted and very quickly brought to my knees, I was asked what I was wearing underneath as my eyes didnt look like a boys eyes.  I then headed downstairs to get changed.  There seemed to be a few nerves down there, but mine had strangely gone.

I headed upstairs and said hello to a couple of people and had single slave written on my arm by Diva Karishma, and was sent to get my appropriate wristbands, they are a great idea, especially for anyone with nerves, or limits, with different bands for different activities and limits etc.  I was also given my list for the Slave games.  A list of humiliating things and punishments that the single slaves could try and ask one of the Mistresses there to carry out and then sign the list.  I guess it was the kinkiest scavenger hunt i've ever seen or been a part of.  I'm not going to list all of the tasks but they ranged a lot, I remember being stood on, had more lipstick applied, getting spanked, had my nipples tormented  and more.  I didnt fully take part in the game, If one of the Mistresses mentioned it I was happy to get an item crossed off, I just didnt feel comfortable approaching Mistresses I'd never met and interrupting them.  I didnt finish last though thankfully!

A big cool part of the night for me was as last time meeting and chatting to others, and just being accepted, I feel in my vanilla life hiding this side of me away means its not often I get to be as open and just socialise.  Catching up and chatting to Mistresses i've met before and being introduced to others as well.  After the games had finished there was still lots of play going on which as always I find fascinating to watch, it was cool to chat to other subs there who were so nervous earlier on but now proud of their stripes, i didnt get any stripes *blushes* I do seem to be getting more curious about it though.

All too soon there was a lady coming round calling last orders, and I gathered my things together before saying my goodbyes and leaving for the drive home.  Then a lot of thinking when I got home, it was another fun night, just a little different from last time, being one of the single slaves, but I think I chose the correct wristbands for me and wasn't pushed too hard.  It was quite a rush knowing that any of the ladies there could give an order at anytime.

Then on sunday, Sissy sunday that is I was allowed to end my cumban from Mistress Courtney, so after teasing myself for a while both reminiscing and fantasising I treated myself to one of the most intense orgasms i've had, followed a couple hours later by a second, oops!  I couldnt help it, especially being allowed to watch a video Mistress had taken of me being spanked by her.  I had been looking forward to it for a while, and it was well worth the wait

Heres a link to the Bitches Unleashed website if you'd like to more, and I should say thankyou to the organisers, and also all of the people I spoke to, and all of the Mistresses, Goddesses, Diva's and Princesses who made it a special night for a sub like me, and as a side note after speaking to Mistress Arabella i'm looking forward to the next night at the Events Chamber as well!  So i'm gonna finish this up now, feel free to chat either here, or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS, I may be daydreaming a lot of being restrained like this again as my mind has been thinking of it since I got home

Friday, 28 July 2017

My latest session

Hey, firstly i'd like to apologise as its been an age since I have posted a blog on here.  I've kept starting and stopping on a few and just couldnt get one wrote that I like. But anyways I hope this one gets me back up to speed.

It had been a while since I had been to see Mistress Courtney at the dungeon, its been a busy couple of months, but having some time off from work I managed to get a session booked for earlier this week.  I'd been looking forward to it for ages, even before it was booked and for the few days before my mind was wandering into ever deeper fantasies.  It came to the morning of the session and as I sent a confirmation text my thoughts were tingling, once again I had no idea what Mistress had planned and found it exciting.

Me and Mistress Courtney 
Despite greater manchester traffics best attempts to slow me down I just about made it and parked up at pretty much the exact right time.  Sent a text and awaited the order,  I was actually thinking of the first time I did this, the nervous excitement I had, and once again felt those butterflies.  My phone beeped with a message from Mistress telling me to go to the door and I headed in.

I was shown in and said hello to Princess Lucina, before being led to the large dungeon room and had a little chat before the session started.  I was undressed by Mistress who really liked the animal print cami and panties I had on, so much that Mistress said she was just going to keep me in those rather than what she had planned and then I had the treat of Mistress doing my makeup.  Then  I was tied with my arms above my head while Mistress teased me, and spanked and went through a couple of crops, and a paddle, then I was told to get over Mistresses knee for a spanking, including one part where I was lucky to get spanked for every birthday Mistress has had.  Next I was strapped into a chair that scarily looks like it would be ideal for cbt, my legs strapped apart and my arms stretched out to the side of me, totally exposed, I can't say what exactly happened then, my head just drifted into that place, as I was teased, Mistress didnt need to shout, even whispering at points.  I was told that my eyes change or do something when Mistress takes me into that special place.  That made me tingle even more, I was being brought to edge after edge by the aid of a Doxy.  I was untied from the chair and then ordered to kneel before Mistress as the doxy was continued to be used, eventually to a lot of laughter I was trying to hump against it,  really feeling like I couldnt hold it any longer, and then it was pulled away, it took a moment for me to stop humping even though it was now only air, as Mistress told me I was to be all aching and aroused when I have my night out at the weekend.

I was then left to dress and had a chat and a coffee with Mistress, where I gave her her birthday presents and we chatted about a couple of things coming up that sound very exciting to me and I was given a couple of homework tasks and told no cumsies till sunday.  I left and drove home via a friends house who could tell that i'd been to see Mistress, according to a text later on I was glowing.  To be honest as always I seem to have been floating since.  

It may not be as long until I make another blog post as tomorrow night sees the second Bitches UnleaSHED event in Manchester.  I have my ticket and have a nervous excitement about it.  Last time I attended with Mistress, this time I will have the S on my head and have no idea what may happen.  I'm sure anyone who reads this blog may find out!!

Anyways I'm going to wrap this up, and as always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xx

Wednesday, 7 June 2017

The next night out

Hi everyone, I thought it was about time I tried to write another blog post, I do have a few draft ones, but all of them seem to need just a little bit of finishing off and for some reason I just can't seem to get them right, so pretty much this is just going to be a little bit of an update, with what I guess could be seen as a little bit of a hissy fit but somehow feels like it needs saying added in just for the fun of it.

Maybe these tights for the Kinky party?
Well where to start, since my last blog a couple weeks ago there has been another date announced for the next kinky party at the Events Chamber which i'm looking forward to, I still have to wriggle out of something else that evening but am looking forward to going again and getting the chance to be me for the night and not just all alone at home.  I am going to have to figure out an outfit though gulp, maybe a shopping trip, or maybe a playsuit with tights,  hmmmm I'll have to think on that one.  I just know I may need to treat myself to a cumsie before then as if I got tickled again like last time that would really embarrassingly set my little you know what off!

I'm going to get my little hissy fit out of the way now, I hope no-one thinks bad of me for doing this, but recently i've had a few DM's on twitter, now normally I do not mind them one bit.  But and I say this quite strongly, if i have never chatted with you on there, I will not respond to a DM calling me a  loser and demanding I message back as I need to suck you off, especially when you refer to yourself as an "alpha" male. Fuck theres an oxymoron if I ever heard one.  I'm not going to deny that I have a humiliation kink amongst my many others, however I dont just expect it off anyone at anytime, yes I know I have a tiny manhood, but I dont see myself as a "loser" anymore, mainly as I take a look at myself and think fuck, i'm living the dreams I've had since my youth, even outside of my kinky side, I have a fairly good job, friends that stick with me through anything, my own place, I get to take part in loads of things that I love and I feel totally happy in myself, now why would I call myself a loser???  Ok its one thing in the middle of play, but accepting some random douche calling it me, oh fuck no! oh and another thing if you read through my twitter, my blog etc, you would probably fairly easily see that anything involving Bi-play just isn't me, that aint gonna change, no matter what so i'm sorry but the next DM like that will receive back a picture of a bottle of hot sauce, and a msg saying to use that as lube, followed by a big BLOCK!!!!!

Right thats off my chest now, and feels a lot better,  to all the people i've spoke to a lot before this is not aimed at any of you, like I say I like nice comments and chat but that just needed to be said!

Ok where was I.  I was very lucky to catch up with the always amazing Mistress Courtney earlier this week, as i'd been asked to help with something, as always I was glad to, and it was also good to have a chat too as its been a while since I last saw Mistress.  Its a very exciting time for her and I couldnt be happier!  Mistress also planted a couple of seeds in my head about something that has been itching away in there all day today *blushes* I think i'll save more of that for another post though, I also have a little homework task for Mistress that I will be taking a look at!

I guess this is quite a short post, and once again sorry for the little hissy fit / rant, blame the idiots who have now been blocked and probably will never see this but oh well, i'm off for the rest of the day indulging in my girly side and let my imagination run wild.  Feel free to chat to me on twitter as always, and i'll catch you all soon

Cinnamon xx

Monday, 22 May 2017

A night of Fire and Ice, (and lots of fun)

Hey everyone, I thought after the weekend I would have to write a new blog post, as anyone who follows me on twitter or read my last post here would know I had another night out planned for the saturday just gone, so I thought i'd tell you all about it!

Last year I had my first kinky night out at the Manchester Chambers when they held Sinnation. I enjoyed it a lot and went back for a second time in January.  They did hold a third party in February but due to my trip with Mistress Courtney to london and Club Subversion the night before I just couldnt feasibly get there without teaching myself to sleepdrive which wouldn't be the best idea I bet.  So when the date was released for the relaunch of the party nights I was excited when I realised it clashed with nothing and would be able to attend!

It is now known as Events Chambers and it was announced there would be a theme of Fire and Ice for the re-launch.  I did genuinely have a look around for an outfit that would possible go with the them for the night but within my budget it was very tricky so I planned something similar to what I wore for Bitches UnleaSHEd in March.  A satin dress, nude tights/pantyhose, heels wig and makeup. So I spent a couple of hours the night before making sure I had everything ready as unfortunately I had to work the day of the party.

My dress for the night
Anyways I finished the shift at work and got myself home and had a quick meal, before feeling the nerves start to rise a little bit, I'd thought of pretty much dressing at home and just covering up slightly to make getting ready there a little easier.  A bit like Mistress Courtney told me to do a few weeks ago, so I was dressed and just wore some jeans and a hoody over the top of my cinnamon outfit.  But I also did the majority of my makeup at home as well.  This is where the nerves really started to make me tingle a little, after all it was still daylight outside when I set off. I couldnt actually get it just as I wanted as my hands were shaking like crazy but managed to be reasonably happy with the results, I just saved the red lipstick for when I got there.  The drive was uneventful though apart from a raised heart rate every time I stopped at traffic lights etc, and then the very short walk from my car to the venue.

As I walked into the yard I was greeted by part of the evenings entertainment, with a fire eating display in progress and a very talented stiltwalker, with people already there watching.  I made my way to the reception area and signed myself in before being allowed upstairs to finish off getting ready.  The way i'd done most of it at home, I found it was only a couple of minutes before I was storing my bag and ready to start the nights fun.  I made my way outside to catch the end of the show, and was greeted by people,  it sometimes still feels a bit strange that some people remember me, but I was really grateful.  It wasn't long before I was chatting away to someone who was at their first event, and also some Mistresses that I have been introduced to in the past, like Mistress Lola, Miss Kitty, Mistress Violet and Miss Torment  I was definitely not as nervous as I have been in the past.  I think this was slightly picked up on as well.  Pretty soon I found myself inside in one of the dungeon rooms watching an example of a "judicial" caning gulp, all I could think was ouch!! But seeing Mistress Arabella in full flow was a treat to watch, all the same I'm glad I was only watching.

My shoes for the night, 
I was then chatting in the bar-room when I heard my name being called and a Mistress I met at the very first party Mistress Violet was beckoning me over to her so I made my way over and it was really nice to have a chat, whilst performing a simple task for her.  She wasn't happy unless I was speaking in a girly voice though, and I tried my best.  I was asked about what I like in sessions and things, before being let go being told that maybe later it would happen.  There was so much happening its hard to note it all down, and I was talking to lots of people and watching allsorts of kinky fun happening,  It was later in the evening when I was in one of the dungeon rooms when I was called over to Mistress Violet again and she introduced me to Mistress Islya, who i'd spoke to on twitter but never met.  my weakness for tickling was divulged and soon I found myself sat with my arms way above my head being teased and tickled until I squirmed, It was like I totally forgot I was in a room full of people, my dress was hitched up, and I was trying my hardest not to completely melt, and I lost track of time totally as is always the case when I get tickled like that, my head goes into a place where time doesn't make sense, I was talking to the events photographer outside later and he said you looked like you enjoyed that.  It was only then I snapped back to reality and realised it was in front of everyone *blushes* which gave me an extra buzz of the exposure and humiliation, but obviously I seem to really like that so it was all good!

The rest of the night was mainly spent watching play and chatting with lots of other people about experiences, nights out etc, realising even more how far i've come in what is pretty much only 6 months since my first event like this.   I'm really sorry that i've not mentioned you all, it was fantastic to catch up with people i've met before though, and meet lots of new people too, and even better I got a lot of comments about my outfit, even that I had a Debbie Harry vibe going on, it was a shame that all too soon it was getting towards that time where i'd have to think about leaving, so I made my excuses and sort of de-cinnamonised into my jeans and hoody, and regular shoes.  I also took off the makeup before making my way back downstairs, it was as I was saying my goodbyes that a couple of people really commented on my transformation, I guess the boy me looks a little different from my favourite side of me.  That really made my night.  Mistress Arabella did say she didnt like this look on me one bit though!!  I did say I still had my dress on underneath though.

After the goodbyes I made my way home and even forgot to turn the radio on, I was in a happy place, I got home and stripped back down to my girly outfit, and the next thing I knew it was the next morning and i'd fallen asleep on the couch, oopsies! I was thinking back over it the next day and realised that was probably the first time i've been played with at one of these events, however little it was compared to some of the other play going on.  Feels like kind of another cool step for me to take so yay!  And thankyou to Mistress Violet and Mistress Islya too!!

  I'm gonna wrap this post up now as it may be pretty damn long but thanks as always for reading, I hope you enjoy, i'm already looking forward to the next party, and booking another session with Mistress Courtney of course!  I hope theres lots of kinky fun coming this way.

Feel free to chat to me on twitter as always,

Cinnamon xxx

P.S another big thanks must go to Mistress Arabella for all the hard work organising the event, and looking great as the Ice Queen!!

Tuesday, 16 May 2017

A random little update

Hey everyone, I thought it was time I should be looking at doing another blog post, coming up to a couple of weeks after my last.  Now unfortunately this one wont have any kinky sessions to tell about, although the memory of that afternoon with Mistress Courtney is still so fresh in my head.

So what to post about, firstly theres only a couple of days now until I get another night out as cinnamon, for the relaunch of the party nights at the Manchester Chambers.  The last couple of times I really enjoyed myself and feel I learned a lot there.  So I am looking forward to it, even though I have no idea what to wear.  I'm thinking i'll be a lot more comfortable again as i've obviously had more nights out since the last time.  I guess the only thing i'll feel is slightly jealous if I see others getting spanked etc *blushes* Anyways i'm sure it will be lots of fun and i'll be posting more about it.  Still haven't decided on an outfit but maybe this dress on the right will get an outing?  its either that or the on in the pic on the left of this post below that I wore for BitchesUnleSHEd, which feels awesome as its satin and makes me all tingly.

It seems i've been getting more and more into my fantasies the last couple of weeks, but at the same time looking back at old posts on here and my twitter etc noticing in a way how they have evolved.  I still have the humiliation fantasies but am finding they're happening more when i'm feeling in a "boy" mood, when I get fully into Cinnamon I find the humiliation craving is less, yet I dont feel any less submissive.  Considering how much my wardrobe has been added too this last year, i'm getting to spend more and more time when alone at home as cinnamon.  To be completely honest its more comfortable a lot of the time, the only downside is making sure all traces of makeup are gone the next morning when I walk into work still half asleep.  Its been good to chat to a couple of people on twitter about this, and I reckon i'm understanding myself a lot more now.  But on a similar note i'm also getting some strange feelings, its almost been like a kink withdrawal mood the last few days, despite dressing etc at home a lot. I guess its been a busy few months i've had and i'm grateful for every single bit of it!

Sorry i'm going to be keeping this post fairly short, I just wanted to put something here as its been a while.  I think my next on may  be a longer one after the party at the weekend, and also there are a couple of other things Mistress Courtney has mentioned that are intriguing to me, and of course i'll be looking to book another session pretty much as soon as I can.  So as always feel free to chat to me on twitter i'm off to relax in my naughty thoughts and have a couple of cappucino's

Cinnamon xxx

Saturday, 29 April 2017

Another amazing session

Hey everyone, its been a couple of weeks since I posted, few things on and to be honest been looking forward to something quite a bit.  I mentioned a couple of times that the first anniversary of my first session was coming up, and well earlier this week It happened, and what better way to spend it than having another session with the amazing Mistress Courtney

I've been looking back over the year building up to this, remembering the feelings I had at this time last year, the nerves, the excitement, with a little bit of fear as well I guess.  Whilst all the time getting some similar feelings, well the fear has gone now, I think that was just because it was my first time, and totally unknown.  There was definitely excitement and some nerves too, but i'll get to those in a little bit.  I actually found myself getting lost in thoughts for a good few nights before the day.  I even spent the last few days before keeping myself in virtual bubblewrap to make sure I didnt get any injuries or anything.

I'd been thinking a lot of my first session, exactly a year ago

The day before the session Mistress told me she would like me to be wearing underwear under my clothes, and some makeup when I arrived.  That was where those nerves came in, I know I drove to meet Mistress before Bitches UnleSHED wearing makeup, but that was at night, in the dark.  This was going to be broad daylight, well that night I tossed and turned in bed but eventually drifted off into a dream that ended up being very humiliating.  I woke up on the day and sent a confirmation message and was told to bring the dress I wore while filming a couple of weeks ago and then had a relaxing morning, getting everything ready, before having some lunch and then getting dressed,  I chose a baby pink babydoll, baby pink fishnets and some silky pink panties with a lace trim on underneath a shirt and jeans.  I had no idea what makeup to wear, so I started with foundation and a hint of blush, a little eyeshadow and liner and mascara, I had a little play with my eyebrows too.  Finally for the lips, I used a lip crayon that came out much brighter than I thought it was, but I didn't have time to change it.  Grabbing my bag I got to my car as quick as possible while keeping my head down, and was so conscious all the way to the dungeon, trying to keep my head as straight as possible, especially through the busy section of roadworks on the M60, I parked up and was shaking a little.  Trying not to be seen by any passers by, I received a text telling me to go in, I had to put on my dress, and a wig and eye mask Mistress had left out, and to wait.

 As I approached the door I had a flashback of the first time that door opened to me last year. I was tingling as I got myself how Mistress wanted and then put the mask on.  I really couldnt see, then heard a little giggle as Mistress came in, I felt those sharp fingernails lightly brush along my arm,  now as always i'm not going to go into all the details of the session but at one point I was shown a video of me being spanked by Mistress, while she re-enacted the clip at the same time, it was like an overload of senses, watching it while feeling it at the same time, I was then tied up, which gave Mistress something to pull me about on.  It gave me such a great feeling as I was totally trapped.  I was then spanked again over Mistresses knee and I found out after that i'd been introduced to a cane for the first time. I was then turned over and teased a lot more with a Doxy, Mistress was mentioning all kinds of idea's, my head was just in that place where everything just feels right, and the ideas were making me even more excited.  I was writhing as the teasing continued.
Panties made sticky for the journey home
  I was allowed after a while to "make my panties wet and sticky for the drive home" and with the help of the Doxy and Mistresses permission had one of the most intense orgasms i've ever had.  I was kind of spaced out then, and was told to just lie there a minute as Mistress went to get some water.

Mistress came back and we chatted as I sort of came back round, before leaving me to get dressed.  I had to keep the sticky panties on though and we had another chat about the session and some possible future plans again and I gave Mistress a little surprise gift i'd got her, I was delighted that she liked it, when I left the dungeon I was on a high, and once again just drifted through the rush hour traffic, I spent the evening still feeling like I was floating, reliving not just that session but bits from all the sessions and things over the last year.  Its taken me a couple of days to let everything sink through for me to write about it, i'm sure i'll still be having flashbacks for a long time.

I've been thinking of the last year or so as a whole lately, I know I feel more comfortable in myself, lived some dreams I thought were impossible, and met some really great people.  Yet I know i've still lots to learn and i'm most definitely looking forward to that.  Right, this is probably way too long already so I'm gonna wrap this up, but as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS no panties were permanently damaged, yay

Tuesday, 4 April 2017

An afternoon of filming fun

Hey everyone, I guess its that time for another post again.  Luckily just a day after another fun afternoon so I don't need to rumble around my imagination to try and come up with something to post.

The dress I wore for the day
Towards the end of last week I received a message from Mistress Courtney asking if I could help do some filming again for her which of course I said yes to.  I kind of had a feeling how the day would go after doing it a couple of times already until sunday afternoon when Mistress sent me another message both confirming the time, and telling me to bring a dress.  The part about a dress was definitely new.  Anyways I got up yesterday and did a few jobs I needed to do before getting myself ready and heading off to the dungeon with  dress and my wig in a bag.  I parked up and waited a couple of minutes before heading down and being greeted by Mistress.  I swear she looks stunning whatever she wears, and was excited about the afternoon.  We set up in the dungeon room as the other slave arrived and then Mistress asked me if I was forgetting something.  Gulp, so it was time for  me to get myself changed into my pink dress and wig, with a touch of lipstick too.  I didnt wear any heels as the camera is worth a bucketload and well I would hate to have tripped while using it.  When I was ready Mistress said "thats better"  I did feel a bit apprehensive as the other slave was there and inbetween clips  we were chatting etc, but that soon disappeared as we moved around the dungeon filming a load of different kinky fetish clips, including a couple that made my eyes water *blushes* But as always i'm not going to go into details here, you'll have to check Mistresses clips sites for that!

Maybe I can wear this one at an event soon
We took a break half way through the day and this was slightly scary as we all nipped outside for some fresh air, but I was still dressed in my dress but thankfully wasn't really in a visible position to anyone, there were some clip ideas for the future bouncing around then.  Then we went back in for some more clips.  There was one where both the slaves and Mistresses reaction to a certain toy being used was genuinely hilarious and I had to really bite my lips to stay silent, I soon burst into a giggle after we ended the clip though.  Finally after we finished the last clip for the day (or so I thought) I was instructed to kneel over a bench and was strapped down.  I was spanked and teased with Mistresses nails until I was shivering.  I didnt even care that the other slave was watching or that it was being recorded, It was actually fun, and has made me long for my next session,  I keep telling myself its less than a month now!

We tidied up and had a chat, and some delicious cookies that Mistress had brought with her, before saying our goodbyes, but I did manage to ask if I would be able to attend an event next month at the Chambers where Sinnation was held.  I missed the last one as I hit a massive wall after the fun of subversion the day before and travelling back up from that there London!  But I have had fun at the couple I attended, I can only dream that Mistress would be able to go as well *blushes*  And also hot off the press, the date for the second Bitches UnleaSHEd event at cirque has been released, hopefully i'll be able to attend this one as well, especially as i'm off work that week, the last one apart from the stairs of doom was a great night, that reminds me, maybe I need to find myself a pretty pair of flats??

Right i'm gonna wrap this up and have a coffee and relax, stay kinky ppl, and as always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Wednesday, 29 March 2017

An upcoming anniversary

Hi everyone, thought I would try to make a quick post, i'm sorry it probably wont be as fun as my last post but it feels like a bit of a milestone.

I've been writing posts on this blog for nearly 18 months now, and exploring my submissive side slightly longer.  I was happy, making the occasional niteflirt call to the MeanGirls when I could and doing assignments for them.  I'd had a couple of semi public experiences like say at the makeup counter, but it was about this time last year I got a small bonus from my job, and after a lot of thought an idea was forming in my head.  I'd thought about a Real Time session with a dominatrix in the past, but to be honest had been a little scared, or had not been in a position to treat myself financially, so nothing had come of my thoughts.

Anyways, I can remember being on my knees on cam to the MeanGirls one night, pretty much around this time last year, having had a good a call as ever,  and having just a quick chat after, I just asked if they would mind if I looked into having a RT session.   I was thankful they said sure and that it was cool.  Even though its like a year ago I can remember coming off the phone and thinking oh god I will have to look into this now.  I took a good few days before really doing anything although I had looked at a number of websites of Dommes.  I guess in my area up here in the NW we are blessed with a number of Mistresses.  (well within an hour or so's drive)  There were a few who's websites stood out, and one more than any others.  (for a reason i've kept private since then for fear of sounding stupid)

I read the website and read it again.  Before writing an email trying to follow what the website said.  I wrote it and left it in my drafts for a couple of days all nervous, while googling things like "How to initially contact a Mistress" trying to gather some tips.  It was probably about a week later I was comfortable and ready to send the email.  I tried to keep it short, polite, explaining my interests but also that i'd never done anything like this before so I really wasn't sure of my limits etc, and briefly mentioned pretty much the one thing that I really have no interest in exploring.

I can still remember sitting there for a moment after I pressed send, my heart was racing and I thought well its done now.  I wasn't expecting a reply straight away, but hoped that the email I had sent was ok and wouldn't just be dismissed. I also went away wild camping for a couple of days so had no access to any form of internet,  but a few days later when I was back I checked my emails and had a reply.

Ready for my first ever spanking

Yes the Mistress said she would be able to arrange a session around what I had put in my email, while also explaining not all sessions would involve pain, plus there would be a safe word etc.  I felt at ease with the reply and over another couple of emails had a date and time set for my first session.  It was still a couple of weeks ago so my imagination had a lot of fun.  Indeed I think the MeanGirls had fun teasing me about what may happen on a call before the session, while also saying I would have to let them know what happened in detail.  Then finally the day came, I followed the instructions I had been given, (confirming in the morning etc) and I headed off into the unknown.  I can still visualise that first session so clearly, from the Dungeon door opening and meeting Mistress Courtney for the first time.  Being shown into the dungeon and having an introductory chat, (where I did confess the reason I had been drawn to her website) before being left for a moment.  When Mistress re-entered the session started and I was almost under a spell.  From the instant Mistress realised I was in panties *blushes* that little giggle.  I had my first spanking, and my first real experience of real time BDSM play

Since then I've had some more sessions that I will have commented on already on here, and some experiences that I never would have thought possible just a short while ago.  If someone had told me I would have been on nights out dressed totally as Cinnamon I would have probably bet my car against it, but it happened,  helping out as a camera-man (ahem sissy) again I wouldn't have believed it, being used as a "demo" model in front of a hen party of 10 women?  you've guessed it, I may have dreamed it but never thought it possible.   And here I am looking forward to my next session, a year on from the first, with the possibility of something else Mistress has mentioned in the future too.  I've probably never been happier or felt more accepted for this side of me, and i'm sure i'll be back with more updates with more kink in them than this one.

I guess this post has a bit of a subverted meaning to it,  if you have dreams, there is no harm in chasing them.  It doesn't matter if "normal" people would think that they are a bit weird, if everyone was the same life would be so boring.  Take a chance and go for them.  I found out yesterday an old schoolfriend has passed away, its reminded me life is short.  Happiness in yourself is more important than any material riches, and keeping hopes and dreams bottled away is no quick route to the happy places.

I'm gonna wrap this up, hope this post doesn't bore anyone, I just felt I had to write it and as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Monday, 20 March 2017

A night at BitchesUnleaSHEd

Hi everyone, its time for another of these blog posts, and I hope this will be quite an exciting one.

  A few months ago i'd heard through twitter that there was going to be a Femdom evening organised by two well known Mistresses in Manchester.  I had asked for some info back then, and then a few weeks ago while I was in London with Mistress Courtney at Subversion the event came up, and I was told that I could go with her.  Tickets were bought, plans were starting to be made and Mistress told me that she had rented a house with Mistress Evilyne and that I could meet their group there to travel to the venue Cirque.

A couple of weeks ago I was told that I would have be pretty much ready when I arrived at the house which set off paranoia in my head and got my nerves up.  I was going to have to leave my home pretty much ready, and last week while I was helping Mistress film she said that my makeup would have to be done ready as well, or at very least the basics.  To me that was a total first, I've never gone out of my house dressed before, (well apart from the lingerie underneath everything etc) I'm not going to lie but it had been on my mind literally all week, I knew I was wearing a new satin dress which i've found impossible to get a decent picture of, but when I tried it it felt electric on my body, and slowly throughout the week I made a plan.

Saturday came and I had to get the boring work rubbish out of the way first before heading home.  I made sure I ate this time, and then started to get myself ready with a shower, shave etc.  Then I started to get dressed, new tights, the dress, I did have a zip up hoodie on, and also a pair of jeans over everything,  if it was just that the journey would have been fine,  but then the makeup.  I started by moisturising then a primer, and my skin matched foundation which didnt look too bad, I then worked on my eyes and was quite happy with them.  Although they never look as good as when others have done them.  I then packed a bag up with the extras. (my bag, heels, wig, makeup etc) and sat waiting for instructions.

Following a message with the address to go to I headed off.  Nervously checking there was no-one outside as I got in my car and programmed the satnav.  Once I got out of my village I actually felt ok for a while as the motorway was quiet and it was going dark.  But the satnav took me into the heart of Manchester down the M602 with all the well lit advertising boards making me very paranoid, especially sat at traffic lights alongside other cars, I was trying to look away from everyone else *blushes*  Anyways I soon found the address and pulled up outside, took a moment to breathe and have a drink of water before getting out and knocking on the door.  When it was opened I thought at first I was in the wrong place as there were two other guys there who I didnt recognise, I asked if I was in the right place but I was thankfully and was told Mistress Courtney was through at the back.  so I took my shoes off and headed through. There were two ladies on a couch who commented on my makeup straight away, I could feel the nerves growing now as I walked through and was greeted by Mistress.  I was then introduced to everyone, including Madam Cruella, Miss Angelica Andrews and Mistress Evilyne, the other guys, and was told to sit and chat.  They were friendly and my nerves at walking into a room of strangers while wearing a dress and makeup soon disappeared.  Mistress went upstairs to get ready before calling me up so I could get ready.  It was at this point where Mistress gave me a collar to put on for the night.  I was feeling very lucky.  And hopefully I looked ok in my outfit.

Back downstairs we ordered taxi's before setting off. As in London a few weeks ago getting into the taxi was nerve-wracking but a few minutes later we were pulling up outside the club. As we got in it seemed very crowded but I instantly felt a little more at ease as there were plenty of people dressed, I even recognised a couple of faces.  We made our way to the bar area and at this point I remember being tickled and giggled at when it made me blush, before being asked if I was Cinnamon, I chatted to the slave while we were at the bar and the Mistresses were chatting It was then time to explore. There was three floors in the club, we then headed down some pretty evil stairs to the lower area that holds the dungeon, an outdoor smoking area and a cloakroom/changing area.  There was bits of play happening all over, and as usual i'm not going to give all the details away but safe to say it looked like all the Mistresses were enjoying themselves.  Throughout the night I met a number of Mistresses i've never met in person before, and when some of them recognised the name Cinnamon I tingled.  There was also a moment when a Mistress commented on my legs, which is something thats never happened before.  Being introduced as one of Mistresses "boys" made me feel so lucky all through the night.
  It was also good to have a brief chat to some people i've met before especially Princess Jessika who I met last year at Sexhibition and Miss Raven who recognised me from the couple of parties I went to at Sinnation,   I really had a good time, and apart from walking up and down the stairs dont think i've ever been as comfortable around others dressed as Cinnamon.  There was one moment that really stuck in my mind though, a Mistress asked me why I was not wearing any of the wristband bracelets, I wasn't sure what to say but Mistress Courtney lent in and said that I was collared, at that I felt my insides shaking.

All in all it was a great night, full of dancing, chatting, watching some play, drinking (well for everyone who wasn't driving) and being around people who just accepted everyone for who there are,  I really enjoyed it, and once we left the club we headed back to the house for a coffee and a chat.  I then asked permission to get changed and I went upstairs to get back into boy mode,  Mistress Courtney asked why i'd taken my makeup off when I came down, that set the blushing off again, I soon had to set off for home, and took the collar off that Mistress had lent me and she whispered we may have to get me a pink one *blushes* that thought has been in my dreams the last couple of nights.  I said my goodbyes and headed home, fighting off sleep and feeling like I was in that floaty space all over again, even though I was shattered I had to just sit a while and think when I got home.

Finally I have to say congratulations to the organisers of Bitches UnleaSHEd Miss Kitty, and Mistress Brown, the night seemed to go really well.  I hope they both enjoyed it as much as the people I spoke to during the night, I hope theres more events like it, and if allowed i'll definitely be going back.

Right this seems to have gone on way too long so i'm gonna wrap it up, but as always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter i'm always there, when I'm not lost in a fantasy of hmmm maybe i'll save that one for next time ;)

Cinnamon xx