An explanation, an update and an awesome time with Mistress

Hi everyone, firstly I guess an apology is in order, its been an absolute age since I last posted a blog on here.  Theres been a lot going on in my vanilla life careerwise, and combined with not really having much time for kinky fun over xmas and not having any trips out etc this blog kind of took a back seat.  I mean theres been plenty of cinnamon time at home, but no-one wants to read a blog of how I tease myself and get off do they?  Lol

I did have one memorable day shopping with my friend again, this time with the sole purpose of finding things for me.  It was a great morning and hopefully soon it will happen again, (after a payday) and maybe at a slightly larger shopping place than the town we were in. It is definitely easier shopping being with someone, I keep thanking my friend, but I dont think she realises how much she's helped me!



Of course a lot of my blogs in the last couple of years have been about my adventures with  Mistress Courtney and this weekend just past finally after a couple of months I got to see and catch up with Mistress in another wonderful session, getting some time off has been tricky with the career change, but managed to get the date set.  If i'm being honest I was looking forward to it from the moment I received the email saying it was all booked.  Then the day before I got a msg saying I should wear makeup to the dungeon, the more makeup the better the rewards, and the less makeup the worse the punishment.  That pretty much put my head in cinnamon mode right then and spent the evening before panicking about the drive.  I did have a couple of things to do in the morning and found myself with a rushed window to try and make my makeup look good.  I also had to make sure I was in girly lingerie and stockings too.  But luckily I just had enough time and set off on the paranoid journey to the dungeon. Armed with the Christmas gift I still had for Mistress I got out of my local town, but I'm certain someone spotted me in all the makeup, I caught them pointing out of a car at mine, and just wanted the traffic lights to change.  But I arrived without any further sightings and got myself parked up before awaiting that magical text.  I headed in as instructed and as that door opened any nerves I had disappeared.  I was greeted warmly by Mistress who looked as amazing as ever, and as a plus point she liked the gift I had taken.  After a little chat, I was shown into the larger dungeon room, saying a quick hello to Mistress Luci and Princess Lucina as I walked through.  I was allowed to use the bathroom quickly as Mistress got us some water, and then well the fun really started.....

Mistress with me strapped down at her mercy

I never go into much detail about what actually happens in the dungeon, and sorry I'm not really going to start now, but I will say the session was full of me being tormented, scratched restrained spanked, sat on, teased tickled, and for my first time with Mistress Courtney, caned, yes caned, as in swishy sticks of stingingness I've been afraid of for so long.  I can remember holding my breath after Mistress explained about them, unable to move strapped down on the bench, and then somehow, I think it was the tickling prior to the first stroke I giggled, this didn't go un-noticed, but although Mistress said she was a bit rougher on me than normal, and I dont really class myself as liking pain despite the stinging I felt quite exhilarated. After being on the bench, then led over Mistresses knee I was strapped down on my back, I literally couldnt have moved if there was all the chocolate in the world next to me.  I lost track of time then as I was taken somehow into that floaty special place, where all I can hear is Mistresses voice yet I hardly can tell what is being said.  Those nails scratching felt so sharp, (i'm still finding scratches all over which is awesome) but when they tickled I squirmed.  I know I was sat on at one point, which was another new experience for me in a session, and when the time came, well something happened I certainly wasn't expecting, and I dont think Mistress was either.  I blame the doxy!!

The beautiful Mistress Courtney

I was released from the restraints and left to just relax a moment, before being allowed to clean up and get dressed.  After that we had a chat which was awesome to catch up, but also get some possible future ideas, I liked Mistresses smile when I said that with the new job I could pretty much always get some time to help her if needed, and I know I wont leave it as long till I see Mistress again, i'd go every week if I could!!!


I drove home with a huge smile on my face, and spent the next day and a half re-imagining everything.  Thankfully even despite a monday morning commute with a frozen car i've avoided the dreaded drop so far.  I guess it may have taken just over a month but my first kinky experience of the year was worth the wait.

I'm going to leave this here for now, hope you enjoy, and also hope it wont be as long before my next blog post.  As always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Stay kinky, cinnamon xxx

Another wonderful session with Mistress Courtney

Hey everyone, I thought I would make a blog about my latest session with the amazing Mistress Courtney this week.  Having a couple of days booked off, I managed to book the session and had been building up excitement to it as I always do.  Yes sure I am lucky I can indulge in my thoughts and fantasies at home pretty much whenever I like but theres something about an actual session, that just magnifies all my thoughts.

I spent the day beforehand getting myself ready, and letting my mind wander before getting in my car and making that now familiar drive.  As always when I parked I sent a text to say I was there and felt my nervous excitement grow until the reply came through to come down.  I knocked at the door and was let in and greeted by Mistress, who looked as gorgeous as ever.  I was allowed to use the WC and then was shown into the dungeon.  I was told a couple of things, and then left to get myself stripped to my panties and my wig,  I'm never the most confident about my body, so felt quite exposed as I was sat there in only panties, but felt myself melt as Mistress opened the door and walked in with a dress.  There was so much satin and lace, as I was helped to put it on I just felt so submissive, and the sensations as it rubbed over my body gave me a goosebump or two.  Which Mistress duly noted.

An old photo of me and Mistress

I posed for a couple of pics, and had to do a twirl, and even briefly show Mistress Luci which definitely made me blush, then I was cuffed to the bar above my head, and given a punishment, with a strap followed by a spanking, paddling and I think a crop as well.  I felt something i've never felt before and could consciously feel myself try to stick my bottom out inbetween spanks,  despite the stinging I soon felt. When I was uncured I was given a sip of water, before being strapped to the gynae bench, unable to move with my arms and legs secured.  Then Mistress put a gag on me (I have a phobia about things in my mouth, but somehow wanted to at least try) Then a blindfold as well.  In that moment I felt a vulnerability i've never felt before.  I couldnt see, couldnt speak, couldnt move, (other than squirm) everything seemed magnified, from Mistress voice, to the touch of the various things she used to tease and torment me.  I could constantly feel my eyes trying to dart around behind the blindfold even though everything was dark for me.  Making little moaning sounds behind the gag as I was made to squirm.  I lost track of time, and just got in that special place.  Riding an edge for what seemed an age before being denied (well for now)  As the gag and blindold were removed  Mistress watched as I drifted back into normality and explained that I could text and ask permission later that night to make my panties sticky.  I was untied and left to get dressed again and Mistress made us a drink.

We sat and had a coffee and a chat and I always enjoy this.  A couple of ideas were discussed and I realised how easy Mistress can make me drift off as she pressed one of my triggers before I was let go to float my way home.  I've said it before, but following being in that place in my head no amount of traffic on the M60 can annoy you.  Then once I got home I made some food and changed into some of my naughtiest lingerie and teased myself before texting and asking Mistress for permission.  I beamed when the reply came back and after a little more teasing did what i'd been told hehe.

Maybe my outfit for saturday night

You know i'm already looking forward to my next kinky fun with Mistress.  But I also have another fun night at The Manchester Chambers planned for this weekend, and they are always such fun nights.  I just need to figure my outfit out now for it, i'm thinking of daring to try something a little sluttier than usual, but thats because of my naughty moods from the last week or so.  I also did debate trying to find a localish place to the chambers that may have done a makeover.  But that idea has gone for now, due to cost and well the time i'd need I guess.  Maybe another time!  If my really slutty idea doesn't work out then I may try this dress again





Anyways i'm gonna wrap this up and i'm sure you'll be seeing more on here soon.  Feel free to chat on twitter as always and have a great and kinky weekend!

Cinnamon xxx

A night of Fire and Ice, (and lots of fun)

Hey everyone, I thought after the weekend I would have to write a new blog post, as anyone who follows me on twitter or read my last post here would know I had another night out planned for the saturday just gone, so I thought i'd tell you all about it!

Last year I had my first kinky night out at the Manchester Chambers when they held Sinnation. I enjoyed it a lot and went back for a second time in January.  They did hold a third party in February but due to my trip with Mistress Courtney to london and Club Subversion the night before I just couldnt feasibly get there without teaching myself to sleepdrive which wouldn't be the best idea I bet.  So when the date was released for the relaunch of the party nights I was excited when I realised it clashed with nothing and would be able to attend!

It is now known as Events Chambers and it was announced there would be a theme of Fire and Ice for the re-launch.  I did genuinely have a look around for an outfit that would possible go with the them for the night but within my budget it was very tricky so I planned something similar to what I wore for Bitches UnleaSHEd in March.  A satin dress, nude tights/pantyhose, heels wig and makeup. So I spent a couple of hours the night before making sure I had everything ready as unfortunately I had to work the day of the party.

My dress for the night

Anyways I finished the shift at work and got myself home and had a quick meal, before feeling the nerves start to rise a little bit, I'd thought of pretty much dressing at home and just covering up slightly to make getting ready there a little easier.  A bit like Mistress Courtney told me to do a few weeks ago, so I was dressed and just wore some jeans and a hoody over the top of my cinnamon outfit.  But I also did the majority of my makeup at home as well.  This is where the nerves really started to make me tingle a little, after all it was still daylight outside when I set off. I couldnt actually get it just as I wanted as my hands were shaking like crazy but managed to be reasonably happy with the results, I just saved the red lipstick for when I got there.  The drive was uneventful though apart from a raised heart rate every time I stopped at traffic lights etc, and then the very short walk from my car to the venue.

As I walked into the yard I was greeted by part of the evenings entertainment, with a fire eating display in progress and a very talented stiltwalker, with people already there watching.  I made my way to the reception area and signed myself in before being allowed upstairs to finish off getting ready.  The way i'd done most of it at home, I found it was only a couple of minutes before I was storing my bag and ready to start the nights fun.  I made my way outside to catch the end of the show, and was greeted by people,  it sometimes still feels a bit strange that some people remember me, but I was really grateful.  It wasn't long before I was chatting away to someone who was at their first event, and also some Mistresses that I have been introduced to in the past, like Mistress Lola, Miss Kitty, Mistress Violet and Miss Torment  I was definitely not as nervous as I have been in the past.  I think this was slightly picked up on as well.  Pretty soon I found myself inside in one of the dungeon rooms watching an example of a "judicial" caning gulp, all I could think was ouch!! But seeing Mistress Arabella in full flow was a treat to watch, all the same I'm glad I was only watching.

My shoes for the night, 

I was then chatting in the bar-room when I heard my name being called and a Mistress I met at the very first party Mistress Violet was beckoning me over to her so I made my way over and it was really nice to have a chat, whilst performing a simple task for her.  She wasn't happy unless I was speaking in a girly voice though, and I tried my best.  I was asked about what I like in sessions and things, before being let go being told that maybe later it would happen.  There was so much happening its hard to note it all down, and I was talking to lots of people and watching allsorts of kinky fun happening,  It was later in the evening when I was in one of the dungeon rooms when I was called over to Mistress Violet again and she introduced me to Mistress Islya, who i'd spoke to on twitter but never met.  my weakness for tickling was divulged and soon I found myself sat with my arms way above my head being teased and tickled until I squirmed, It was like I totally forgot I was in a room full of people, my dress was hitched up, and I was trying my hardest not to completely melt, and I lost track of time totally as is always the case when I get tickled like that, my head goes into a place where time doesn't make sense, I was talking to the events photographer outside later and he said you looked like you enjoyed that.  It was only then I snapped back to reality and realised it was in front of everyone *blushes* which gave me an extra buzz of the exposure and humiliation, but obviously I seem to really like that so it was all good!


The rest of the night was mainly spent watching play and chatting with lots of other people about experiences, nights out etc, realising even more how far i've come in what is pretty much only 6 months since my first event like this.   I'm really sorry that i've not mentioned you all, it was fantastic to catch up with people i've met before though, and meet lots of new people too, and even better I got a lot of comments about my outfit, even that I had a Debbie Harry vibe going on, it was a shame that all too soon it was getting towards that time where i'd have to think about leaving, so I made my excuses and sort of de-cinnamonised into my jeans and hoody, and regular shoes.  I also took off the makeup before making my way back downstairs, it was as I was saying my goodbyes that a couple of people really commented on my transformation, I guess the boy me looks a little different from my favourite side of me.  That really made my night.  Mistress Arabella did say she didnt like this look on me one bit though!!  I did say I still had my dress on underneath though.

After the goodbyes I made my way home and even forgot to turn the radio on, I was in a happy place, I got home and stripped back down to my girly outfit, and the next thing I knew it was the next morning and i'd fallen asleep on the couch, oopsies! I was thinking back over it the next day and realised that was probably the first time i've been played with at one of these events, however little it was compared to some of the other play going on.  Feels like kind of another cool step for me to take so yay!  And thankyou to Mistress Violet and Mistress Islya too!!

  I'm gonna wrap this post up now as it may be pretty damn long but thanks as always for reading, I hope you enjoy, i'm already looking forward to the next party, and booking another session with Mistress Courtney of course!  I hope theres lots of kinky fun coming this way.

Feel free to chat to me on twitter as always,

Cinnamon xxx

P.S another big thanks must go to Mistress Arabella for all the hard work organising the event, and looking great as the Ice Queen!!

Another amazing session

Hey everyone, its been a couple of weeks since I posted, few things on and to be honest been looking forward to something quite a bit.  I mentioned a couple of times that the first anniversary of my first session was coming up, and well earlier this week It happened, and what better way to spend it than having another session with the amazing Mistress Courtney

I've been looking back over the year building up to this, remembering the feelings I had at this time last year, the nerves, the excitement, with a little bit of fear as well I guess.  Whilst all the time getting some similar feelings, well the fear has gone now, I think that was just because it was my first time, and totally unknown.  There was definitely excitement and some nerves too, but i'll get to those in a little bit.  I actually found myself getting lost in thoughts for a good few nights before the day.  I even spent the last few days before keeping myself in virtual bubblewrap to make sure I didnt get any injuries or anything.

I'd been thinking a lot of my first session, exactly a year ago

The day before the session Mistress told me she would like me to be wearing underwear under my clothes, and some makeup when I arrived.  That was where those nerves came in, I know I drove to meet Mistress before Bitches UnleSHED wearing makeup, but that was at night, in the dark.  This was going to be broad daylight, well that night I tossed and turned in bed but eventually drifted off into a dream that ended up being very humiliating.  I woke up on the day and sent a confirmation message and was told to bring the dress I wore while filming a couple of weeks ago and then had a relaxing morning, getting everything ready, before having some lunch and then getting dressed,  I chose a baby pink babydoll, baby pink fishnets and some silky pink panties with a lace trim on underneath a shirt and jeans.  I had no idea what makeup to wear, so I started with foundation and a hint of blush, a little eyeshadow and liner and mascara, I had a little play with my eyebrows too.  Finally for the lips, I used a lip crayon that came out much brighter than I thought it was, but I didn't have time to change it.  Grabbing my bag I got to my car as quick as possible while keeping my head down, and was so conscious all the way to the dungeon, trying to keep my head as straight as possible, especially through the busy section of roadworks on the M60, I parked up and was shaking a little.  Trying not to be seen by any passers by, I received a text telling me to go in, I had to put on my dress, and a wig and eye mask Mistress had left out, and to wait.

 As I approached the door I had a flashback of the first time that door opened to me last year. I was tingling as I got myself how Mistress wanted and then put the mask on.  I really couldnt see, then heard a little giggle as Mistress came in, I felt those sharp fingernails lightly brush along my arm,  now as always i'm not going to go into all the details of the session but at one point I was shown a video of me being spanked by Mistress, while she re-enacted the clip at the same time, it was like an overload of senses, watching it while feeling it at the same time, I was then tied up, which gave Mistress something to pull me about on.  It gave me such a great feeling as I was totally trapped.  I was then spanked again over Mistresses knee and I found out after that i'd been introduced to a cane for the first time. I was then turned over and teased a lot more with a Doxy, Mistress was mentioning all kinds of idea's, my head was just in that place where everything just feels right, and the ideas were making me even more excited.  I was writhing as the teasing continued.

Panties made sticky for the journey home

  I was allowed after a while to "make my panties wet and sticky for the drive home" and with the help of the Doxy and Mistresses permission had one of the most intense orgasms i've ever had.  I was kind of spaced out then, and was told to just lie there a minute as Mistress went to get some water.


Mistress came back and we chatted as I sort of came back round, before leaving me to get dressed.  I had to keep the sticky panties on though and we had another chat about the session and some possible future plans again and I gave Mistress a little surprise gift i'd got her, I was delighted that she liked it, when I left the dungeon I was on a high, and once again just drifted through the rush hour traffic, I spent the evening still feeling like I was floating, reliving not just that session but bits from all the sessions and things over the last year.  Its taken me a couple of days to let everything sink through for me to write about it, i'm sure i'll still be having flashbacks for a long time.


I've been thinking of the last year or so as a whole lately, I know I feel more comfortable in myself, lived some dreams I thought were impossible, and met some really great people.  Yet I know i've still lots to learn and i'm most definitely looking forward to that.  Right, this is probably way too long already so I'm gonna wrap this up, but as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS no panties were permanently damaged, yay

A trip, a club, and another new experience.

Hey everyone, I guess regular readers may have known this post was coming.  After a lot of anticipation, nerves and excitement my time off work had come.  Some of you will have seen on twitter I seem to listen to secret102 quite a lot and they had arranged to have a meet at Club Subversion.  I was also lucky that Mistress Courtney had said that I could go with her to the event, which had kind of put a few of my nerves at rest.  But also made my excitement grow even more.

Anyways, the day came, I had my instructions of where to meet Mistress and another of her slaves, (i'm not sure really if he would like naming so i'm refraining from it just in case) and thanks to the aftermath of storm Doris I boarded a train to London that was absolutely heaving, talk about sardines in a tin.  I found a little bit of the floor and claimed it before settling in for a fairly uncomfortable journey. But I couldnt care less about it as my mind was totally elsewhere, and after a couple of hours the train pulled in at Euston station.  I'd had a message telling me where to meet Mistress and set off in search, it didnt take too long before I spotted her and fairly nervously headed over.  I was introduced to her other slave and greeted,  I could actually feel my nerves lifting as I was told a couple of plans.

We headed outside and from there I was just a passenger as various ways of booking posh taxi's via apps were discussed and chosen from.  With the cases etc we thought this would be much easier than the tube then another train etc.  I must be honest once it was ordered it was pretty much there straight away, we loaded everything in and then set off.  We all chatted all the way to the hotel, and I realised just how much of a newbie at all this I am, but didnt feel out of place which was cool, it was quite a traffic filled journey but we got to the hotel in one piece and checked in.  We then went looking shopping round all the stores in the town centre as Mistress wanted to try and find some new shoes.  I was in heaven at this, especially walking into some of the department stores through the makeup areas and smelling all the cosmetics, being with Mistress also didnt bring us any of the stares I get when shopping alone and my head was racing with ideas *blushes*   Mistress found a bag she liked, and then we had a coffee,  pretty soon after that we headed back up to the hotel and met some of the others before taking a couple of hours to relax.  I ordered room service but the nerves were back by then and I hardly managed any.  I think being alone in the room was adding to them.  But after a while I received a message telling me to dress and come to Mistresses room.

I put my outfit on and felt extremely conscious walking through the hotel corridor to Mistresses with my sparkly pink dress on, I dont think anyone saw me though.  I knocked at the door and was let in.  I gave Mistress the small gift I'd brought for her as a thankyou for taking me and then was shown into the bathroom and sat down.  Mistress proceeded to do my makeup, taking her time and inside I was melting, I dont think i've ever worn so much in my life, I was in a special place once again, and for a long while was forbidden to take a look, when I was allowed I was in awe.  I wish could come up with results even half as good as that.

 We were still in Mistresses room when some other people started to come up ready for a pre-drink It was really good to meet some of the people I've been chatting to online and interacting with via the radio show for months, I still was feeling very much a newbie to the whole thing though and got quite shy, happy to be sat in the corner listening and taking it all in.  We then got ready for the taxis to the venue, which was a little chaotic, and I have to say walking through the hotel dressed fully as cinnamon was one of the most daunting experiences i've had, especially the reception area, but pretty soon I was safely on my way.  We got there and I had my next nightmare, but got through it ok, full on outside Stairs up to the club entrance, I was so glad I didnt fall!!!!

Following a quick security search and ticket check we were in, a huge room full of people into all sorts of kinky things, with fantastic costumes, I could feel my nerves subsiding, especially seeing others crossdressed, again more introductions and meeting people and to be honest being there with Mistress made me feel so lucky, I could really see how popular she is, with people wanting to chat with her.  The next few hours went in pretty much a blur i'll be honest.  Watching some play, hearing the scariest whip sound i've ever heard and laughing, chatting, and just feeling like the real me.  Some of the people I spoke to were so nice, and my dress was commented on, it was a great night.  To comment on the club, it was quite a large room, with a dancefloor that had been converted into a play area with crosses, benches, a cage and allsorts of scary and fun looking things, the bar was a good size and there was plenty of seating.  There was another room set up as a dance room, and a secluded outdoor smoking area, I was gutted that the toilets were down a set of stairs though, but I managed them without breaking my neck yay!

I met and spoke to so many people I dont know if I dare try and name them all on here as I may forget a couple, It was truly cool to meet so many others, especially Annabel Grey as her dress was amazing, Adam Green from the radio show, his partner, Mr Black Sheep and his wife who's home made feather hat was insanely cool.  Becky, Lady Sara Borgia, Domstrapon, Candie kitten and many more.  I'm really sorry if I have forgot anyone.  I had some other people come up and ask if I was Cinnamon as well which was really unexpected.  And although I didnt speak to them I did recognise a few people from  my day at Sexhibition last year.

When the time came to leave, I was in a taxi with Mistress Courtney and her other slave who I met much earlier, we went back to Mistresses room for a bit of a chat.  Again I felt lucky and hearing Mistresses ideas etc was an honour.  It got late before the walk back to my room still totally Cinnamon-ised but I wasn't even bothered if anyone saw me by then.  I got in and cleaned off my makeup ready for bed, wishing that wasn't a beauty essential as it was so nice.  Before a couple hours sleep, (i didnt get very much at all) In fact I was stood outside very early the next morning and Domstrapon came out, and at first didn't recognise me in normal boy clothes.  That really made me feel so awesome, its not the first time its happened either as it happened at Sinnation last month too!

Later in the morning I was summoned to meet Mistress Courtney and we had a drink in the bar with her other slave, Mr BlackSheep and Alexandria Web, before arranging for a ride back to Euston again in one of these app called taxis.  Trains were arranged when we got there and we saw Mistress off safely,  before getting ready for ours.  Mine was a complete change to the day before, indeed after the first stop I was left in an entire carriage by myself and was once again overdosing on coffee and having wild ideas about going out last night, maybe to the Sinnation party.  I was actually really tempted by this but when I finally got home and had a bite to eat I hit a wall, I think I was totally shattered, exhausted and knew I wasn't in a good enough place to make the drive there.  Even when I received a surprise phonecall from Mistress Felix,  next time i'll be back for sure!  Hopefully as well there are some other plans with Mistress Courtney too.  I'm so lucky and can't wait.  But as i say last night I virtually hit a wall and think I had about 15 hours sleep.  Full of deliciously kinky dreams.


Anyways this has gone on for ages now, sorry if i've rambled but as always feel free to chat either here or on twitter and if you want to see what all the radio fun is about check out secret102.com where the main show is broadcast mon-thurs from 9-11 pm!!

Cinnamon xxx

From a previous session but can't wait to be in that position again

My latest dungeon trip

Hey everyone.  I thought there would be another post this week, after my post about Sinnation last weekend.  Knowing that I had my first session of the year with Mistress Courtney later in the week.  In fact it would be the first since my birthday session a couple months ago.  I had a few "vanilla" things to do during the week but found myself thinking a lot of what may happen.  Especially thanks to a couple of messages from Mistress asking to send a couple of my fantasies and thoughts and maybe i'd be surprised with one in the session.  Somehow I find it hard to write them straight down even though my imagination is normally non-stop.  I admitted this, and also realised Mistress was getting me even more excited about the session.  This built up to a fever pitch by the day before,  I was invited to go snowboarding, but thought with my injury track record it may not be the best idea.


The morning came and I woke up feeling really good, I texted to confirm my appointment and set about getting ready.  I had a stop to make on the way there and received some instructions from Mistress that were different than normal.  It really set my imagination off again.  And I realised I may need another pitstop on the way there.  I did the usual standing around putting what I may need into a bag, before completely changing my mind and swapping it all.  In the end I settled for my fishnet dress Mistress had commented on last week and my pink wig as i'd been instructed to take that.  Some makeup and fence net stockings.  In my other bag I had the laptop i'd fixed for a friend, so when I dropped that off I had to make sure it was the right bag!!

I'd been told by Mistress to inform her when I'd parked up, then when told to enter the dungeon and go straight into the room and get myself dressed for her.  I realised that this would maybe put a toilet break to the back of the agenda so I made another "pit-stop" at a well known supermarket chain, to use their toilets and also buy a drink for the drive home and as always had the panty paranoia as there was another customer in there.  A few minutes later  I pulled up outside the dungeon slightly apprehensive as this was a completely new start to the session, sent a quick text and felt the nervous excitement peak as it always does.  I then got the command to enter.

I locked up and headed to that now fairly familiar door and headed in,  I went into the room i'd been instructed to without seeing Mistress Courtney, and I set about getting ready.  I was just about ready when Mistress entered and I gulped, as always Mistress looked stunning.  She liked my outfit and helped me with the last touches, while explaining what she wanted to do in the session, at some of the comments I found myself trembling with excitement.  I've never been video'd before, and it was going to happen. I then gave Mistress a small gift which she put on and the session properly started.

I normally leave out a lot of the details of my sessions, and feel i'm still going to here, but I started being strapped over the bench, legs and back strapped down and wrists cuffed, I really couldnt move at all. Mistress was first teasing me with her nails and tickling me and I couldnt resist, she alternated this with a spanking, which was probably harder than any i've had before, (I had said in the pre-session msg's that I really haven't explored the whole pain threshold thing, so I guess I had this coming)  I was squirming a fair bit, all the while Mistress's voice was softly in my ear pushing me into that space,  I found out later this was where Mistress had recorded a couple of clips.

Next I was led over Mistresses knee for more spanking, with more of her words making my mind melt, talking about some of the idea's i'd sent, how she would love to make a proper clip with one of them.  Almost like a femdom TV gameshow.  But i'll leave that there for now hehe.

After being over Mistresses knee I was well strapped down on my back, ankles held apart with a spreader bar, arms cuffed down the sides and rope strapping me to the trolley.  I was gazing up at Mistress as she proceeded to tickle, prod and poke me, making me moan and squirm, which was also for the cameras benefit, I was lost in the moment and then Mistress pulled out a magic wand, which added to the teasing and torment, before Mistress came up with the idea of running a twitter poll to see just how long people would think I could last and then pointing out we would have to do a proper clip then, I was writhing on the bench feeling myself dangling at that magic point desperate to be allowed a release, alas that wasn't coming in the session.  I was told that Mistress would like me to still be all excited when I watched the videos later.  She left me strapped to the bench to calm down while she got me some water, and giggled as she returned as something certainly hadnt calmed down.  Then unstrapped me, checked I was ok and left me to get dressed.  

I was pretty much dressed as Mistress came back in for a chat,  she showed me a little video and has posted it on her twitter showing off the Necklace I gave her and saying she was still going to exploit me, I nearly melted right there again.  We talked about a few things and it looks like being a very busy few weeks, I genuinely feel lucky.  As always I left with a huge smile on my face, despite the ache, and floated through the 5pm friday traffic.  I've said it before, but seeing Mistress does seem to stop any signs of traffic frustration.  I got home and made some food before sitting down and checking my phone and......

It seems lots of people liked the little clip Mistress posted, about her exploiting me.  And then a check of my emails found the clips that had been recorded.  At that point I only knew of the last one when I was led on my back, so I got relaxed and sat back and watched them, it instantly brought the feelings back, knowing Mistress wanted me to think about how I felt about them and maybe others seeing them had thoughts crashing round inside me.  I really do find the thought exciting, almost intoxicating, needless to say I watched the clips a couple of times each and let my mind drift.  I used my own magic wand whilst watching the clip with one used and pretty soon found myself how can I put it, hmmm extremely happy.  I can safely say I had an amazing dream last night and have felt in such a happy mood all day today.

I'm gonna wrap this up now as its gone on quite long, but needless to say i'm excited about a fair few things coming up, and feel so very lucky about it all.  As always feel free to chat, either on here or on twitter, and I need to say a huge thankyou to Mistress Courtney and also the Stockport Dungeon for another great day.

Cinnamon xx

An update and my new toy

Hey everyone, i'm guessing this post may not have the same appeal as the last three, I may wish life could be as kinky as that all the time but know realistically it isn't going to be and with the busy as heck build up to Christmas there may be lots of other stuff going on.  But I thought I would make quick post with an update and maybe a couple of possible future plans.

first I teased in my last post that I had a new toy, and that I would save it for this time to write about, well here goes.  Anyone who has been reading this blog for a while or following me on twitter will know about the mini-wand I got at the end of last year, and the teasing on myself I have done with it.  Due to something in my past I really have a hard limit about inserting anything, so toys like these are perfect for me.  My biggest problem with it has always been the batteries.  Damn they go fast and to be honest it was never really that powerful.  Anyways in my time off work a couple weeks ago I gets an email about a special offer from Lovehoney.  One of their deluxe magic wands with 50% off.  As it was my birthday I couldnt resist and only a couple days later received it through my door.  I couldnt try it straight away as was heading out for a day with the family but tried it the next day I plugged it in and wow it was really like something else.  It actually made me orgasm in moments after a teasing session and a couple of humiliation clips.  Since then i've been teasing myself with it quite a few times whilst also not wanting to just use it and kill all sensitivity down there.  Although this last weekend I had the whole day to myself so challenged myself to edge with it on the hour every hour.  I'm really wishing I had released at the end of the day now, especially as i've been told on twitter not to make a cumsie until Christmas by the wonderful Mistress Elesa who has given me so much advice over the last year or two.  So i've decided to try my utmost hardest not to, although if I managed to squeeze another  session in with Mistress Courtney and got the command I doubt I could say no.  Somehow think it may be after the Christmas holiday that I have another session though, (well I can dream *blushes*)

I did get to briefly see Mistress Courtney last week, she is doing a really good thing and collecting items for the homeless you see, and I had a sort through of some old clothes and had a couple of bags full that I donated.  All of us with easy access to the internet, families and roofs over our heads are so lucky, so to be able to do something to help those who aren't as lucky feels just so right.  It also shows that Mistress Courtney is an amazing lady.  I really hope this project she has taken on goes well.

Getting to the new year the next date for Sinnation has been released, gulp i'm going to need another new outfit if I go to that one.  Its conveniently fallen at the start of my next week off work as well.  Hmm I wonder if it could end up being the next week of kink!!  I really hope it is.  Who knows what it could bring.  I've definitely just got the most perfect new lipsticks that I could wear though!

For the last couple of months as well i've been listening to an online radio station in the evenings a few nights a week.  The best thing is, the station has a kinky twist.  Each night they run a Mistress Chart where listeners can vote in their favourite Mistress.  They have adverts for kinky events, clubs and allsorts.  On occasions as well they have had guest Mistresses in the studio, which always makes for a lively show.  Especially when Lady Sara Borgia takes in her bag of tricks to ermmmm torture one of the DJs with. There is always a good bit of banter and if anyones interested you should check their website out, its secret102.com and the show goes out mon-thurs between 9 and 11pm.  Hopefully after managing to get a weekend off work in February theres a chance of possibly meeting a couple of them at club subversion as well which could be fun.  May as well make my first ever proper visit to London have something kinky involved with it!

Anyways I'm going to wrap this up now, as always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Another instalment from this awesome week

Hey everyone.  I know this is like the third post in a week, but a lots happened.  After the events of the past few days Helping Mistress film and also what happened at Sinnation last weekend I was having cravings, and they were getting intense having seen lots of other slaves being played with, although some of the stuff scared me I still felt the ache and cravings grow, but I knew I had my session with Mistress Courtney to look forward to.

The day came later in the week and I felt the usual nervous excitement along with the cravings and the ache which grew as I got closer to the dungeon.  As usual they peaked as I knocked at the door.  Which was opened by Mistress looking stunning as ever and I was shown in.  I said hello to Mistress Luci as I was shown into the same room as last time, we had a little chat about the other day, and other things before Mistress left me with the instruction to get dressed.  After a couple of minutes Mistress was back and loved my dress, and especially my stockings,
 and she sat me down before doing my makeup.  All the while speaking softly, I was as drawn in as ever.   We took a couple of pics then, before I was strapped to the bench.  As always i'm not going to go into all the details, but over the rest of the session I was teased, and for the first ever time had electrics used on me.  Along with wax, a blindfold, Mistresses nails, a little pinwheel I was soon squirming, being blindfolded it seemed Mistresses footsteps were echoed,  As the session went on I was losing myself deep in something i've never experienced before, I could hear Mistress whispering in my ear, and using her nails on something that seems to be a real trigger point for me,  I can't explain what I was feeling as I was craving the ideas Mistress was putting in my head.  Eventually a command i've been craving for a while was whispered, and well wow, that is all i'm saying.

I was led there almost unable to move after and was trembling.  My head was very happily spinning as slowly Mistress went and got some water then had me sitting up, before standing up.  She said it looks like you've found subspace.   Thinking about it now, i've never felt like that before, I was tingling all over, but felt exhausted and crazily happy.  I was then left to clean up and shower and dress.  There was wax everywhere, and Mistress came back in with some chocolate and we had a chat after, she said i'd had a very kinky week, and made sure I was back on planet earth.  I was given a homework task and left with the biggest smile on my face.  As always I seemed to float back home.  Maybe seeing a Mistress is an antidote to getting annoyed stuck in traffic.

I spent the evening feeling all floaty and happy just thinking what had happened.  The evening seemed to disappear and I drifted into some awesome and vivid dreams.  I did also have on saturday morning what I've been told may have been subdrop.  Thats another first for me, can't say its a good thing.  But I was glad of a bit of support I got on twitter as a couple of people recognised it, also Mistress had said it may happen, its hard to explain, but after a relaxed day full of little treats and a play with a new toy in the evening I got off to sleep last night and woke up feeling fine today.  Still having flashbacks though.  Of squirming as Mistress whispered in my ear, feeling my whole body tense and tremble, flinch slightly at the wax, and pulse with the electrics.  Looking back, the day of feeling lousy was well worth it.

I mentioned a new toy, but maybe thinking that will be best left for another post.  I'm going to wrap this up now, what a great end to this week of kinky fun though.  I hope theres more soon.  As always feel free to chat, either on here, or on twitter thanks for reading

Cinnamon xx

My night at Sinnation

Hi everyone, I'm hoping this will be a fun blog post,  after my adventure last night.  I'd bought a ticket for the first Sinnation event a few weeks ago and had been looking forward to it as it was the first event like that I have ever been to.  I'm guessing as well if you've read any of my recent posts as well you'd know i'd been wondering just what to wear.  I'd been told that I could arrive "vanilla" and change into whatever I felt comfortable in.  Now I wear lingerie most of the time under my guy clothes, but have never really been fully dressed in front of more than one Mistress, but thanks to some encouragement on twitter from Mistress Felix I'd found a dress online, and some heels, and decided I was going to do it.

So anyway time drew around to yesterday and I spent most of the day getting myself ready, and packing a bag with all my things in.  I travelled to the location at the Manchester Chambers, and as usual for my first visit somewhere got a little bit lost, but found myself sat outside soon enough.  I actually met Mistress Felix and her slave outside and they showed me in.  Whilst I was checking my coat and showing my ticket etc I was introduced as Cinnamon to the other people in the room.  This made me blush, which didnt go unnoticed.  Was asked if I wanted to get changed and was shown upstairs to a room and left to get changed.  I was just about ready, when Mistress Felix came in and gave me some help with my makeup, she is very talented, I'm not sure what she did to my eyebrows but they looked amazing.

We went back downstairs to a playroom where there was a sushi girl.  A lot of the other people there were posing for pics and enjoying the sushi off her body.  I think this was the point that I was the most nervous, as there was quite a few people in the room, I was introduced to a few more people and  then stood back to watch a demonstration of Shibari, I've seen pictures of this before but actually seeing someone who was an expert in it in action was something else.  It truly looks like an work of art in progress.  There was some play starting to happen as a slave was worshipping a Mistresses feet during the demo.  I didnt really join in any play, was happy just to watch and try soak things in.  Especially as i'd never really met any of the people there before.  I talked to a few people and then headed upstairs for more Demos, one by Mistress Arabella who had a slave strapped to a bench and proceeded to give a spanking, paddling and caning demo.  Even the cane snapped.  During this I was speaking to another Mistress who remembered me from my day at Sexhibition who said she thought she had remembered me and that she liked my outfit.

There was a bar there that I couldnt properly enjoy with having to drive but I headed over there to cool down a bit, and outside it was very chilly before I headed back upstairs and taken into a room by Mistress Felix, she introduced me to another couple of Mistresses as Cinnamon,  and asked me to watch, I then for the first time ever saw a violet wand used, in tandem with a magic wand, the slave was squirming,  when they started tickling him I got a little bit jealous, (I love being tickled when I can't move) Although I dont think I have a pain threshold like some of the people there.

I had to sit down after a few hours as my feet had started to ache, but it was getting pretty late by then and eventually I got my bag to change ready to leave.  I did have a nightmare though getting my dress unzipped as it had stuck, thankfully though I was helped by Mistress Lola to get it open.  Before I got changed and headed back downstairs.  Chatted for another few minutes and thanked the Mistresses who'd organised it and said my goodbyes.  I had the most traffic free journey home ever (it was 1.45am though) and had some very kinky dreams last night.  I loved that I had the balls to go through with wearing the dress and not going to lie have loved some of the comments I had, I also loved that I didnt feel weird, or pressurised into anything.  Some of the play I saw was way beyond anything i've done yet.  But all in all I had a really good night, and hopefully i'll get to attend more things like this in the future.

A link to the event page is here  Sinnation

That was a hell of a start to my time off work, *blushes* although there is much more to come hopefully starting tomorrow but my lips are sealed, this really could be a week of kink!  As always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

The next week of kink!!

Hey everyone, just thought as its been a couple of weeks since my last post i'd write a quick one.  I'll be honest its been a couple weeks of anticipation growing ready for my time off work thats coming up so fast now, and a few things are falling into place for it.  As I said last time I have a ticket for the first Sinnation event this weekend.  And thanks to my only female friend who knows about this side of me I virtually have an outfit ready, the dress and heels are here, (I have been trying to practice on them) All I'm waiting for now is a pair of tights and a bag which we've ordered.  (I have to have somewhere to keep a few things hehe).  Anyways I've got a fair few nerves now although I'm sure I will be fine when I get there.  I really have no idea what to expect of the night, but it promises to be a lot of fun.  I guess i'll be letting you all know more after it.

Then after that i'm into my final period of annual leave for the year, which i've got a fair few plans.  Some of them vanilla but also have a session booked with the awesome Mistress Courtney which to be totally honest i've been looking forward to since my last one.  There may be a couple of other things happening in the next few weeks too but i'm not going to be jinxing them by talking about them on here yet.  I guess last week I took a bit of a plunge,  I suppose its like Eminem said in "Lose Yourself"

Look

If you had
One shot
Or one opportunity
To seize everything you ever wanted
In one moment
Would you capture it
Or just let it slip?

I would never have thought, 14/15 years ago i'd be making a decision and taking a chance based on the intro to that song.  Especially one like this, but i've done it now, and who knows what will happen from it.  At least I wont be sat in a few years thinking I wonder what would have happened if i'd only took that shot?   

Been a lot of time to think and fantasise the last couple of weeks, and i'm really finding my cravings evolve in a way.  A couple of years ago I would have been like just a horny mess, hoping to be allowed to cum in some way whilst being humiliated.  Whereas now, yes I'm not going to say humiliation does nothing for me at all, but its not all I think of.  Yes I think of some of the wonderful and intriguing things that have happened to me in both sessions and also at the couple of events i've been to, one thing I can't forget though was being introduced to a group of vanilla women as a sissy.  kneeling before them, afraid to lift my eyes at first but feeling just that hand on my head making me feel safe, despite my whole body shaking, the fantasy of cumming doesn't come anywhere close to the dream of that feeling.  

I really do love that I seem to be learning all of the time, theres always something new and I seem to be accepting myself more the more I learn.  Realising that making a Mistress happy makes me not only happy but makes me tingle and seems to be taking a much more prominent postition in my fantasies.  Right I'm going to wrap this one up.  As always feel free to chat, on here or on my twitter and i'll be looking forward to writing my next post *blushes*

Cinnamon xxxx

A little update, and where it all began

Hey everyone, i've been kicking an idea around for a blog post for a while now about how I developed into who I am today.  Firstly in the last couple years or so i've had the fortune both to meet and speak to some amazing people who have helped me accept who I am.  But these thoughts and fantasies that seem to consume me aren't just some recent thing.

I dont know if this is true for all submissives or anyone into kink but for as long as I can remember I have had fantasies about being forced into makeup, normally by a group of girls when I was younger that gradually changed into women as I grew up.  At first there was nothing sexual about it, hell I dont think I even knew what sex was back then.  But I can vividly remember the dreams, more than some other stuff from childhood.  For a long time I daren't share these anywhere and as I went through my teenage years tried to suppress the thoughts and appear as normal as possible.  I did alright at school with marks/ grades etc but was an idiot out of it.  Typical teenage stuff really, now I think about it was I overacting the "normal" teenage role?  who knows.  But school and college passed and Uni beckoned.  It was about this time that the internet was just starting to take off.  The century was changing and I was moving in to a sort of semi independent place.  I'd seen a few things about fetishes, and kinks,  but still was nowhere near a position to accept it, I didnt even know "forced fem" was a thing, only really that there were Dominatrix's etc.



I pretty much wore panties for the first time at uni. They weren't mine, and they weren't stolen.  But I kind of had a loose relationship with a girl and I kind of found them after we had split up, one thing led to another and I couldn't resist, the electric feeling I got was something i'd never had before, and for a while after that night I never wore other girly things.  Although the idea was very much planted in my head then.  I kind of tried a few phonesex lines at this time, and although I guess I felt humiliated a bit it just seemed that whoever you got through to was basically going off a script.  Although as a treat when you'd been single a while I thought it was cool.  My kinky development then totally stopped when I finished Uni, as I embarked on what now seems ridiculous, a nearly year long trip around Europe travelling as finding work as I went.  I experienced real SPH for the first time on this trip,  i'll never forget the humiliation as a dutch girl laughed her head off, even more so when it got obvious I was enjoying it.  After that I was wary around dating and even more so when I got home.

Back home the internet had really moved forward, apparently there was going to be something called broadband soon, where you didnt have to hog an entire phone line to browse.  I think i first found a few humiliation sites about this time, and if I had spare time would be basically looking through web-teases and things.  A couple year later I actually took a plunge and started chatting online with a Mistress, man looking back now I wish I knew half of what I did now, as something happened that put me off for a long time and left me in a terrible state,  this isn't the place for details, I know a couple of you may know from chatting but still here isn't the place.



I'm going to be skipping a couple of years again now, to late 2011 I think.  I'd finally started to use twitter.  And as I had my own place again was occasionally using phonesex and chatting about femdom and humiliation again, but again it was one off calls.  This was until on twitter I met Mistress Charlotte, we tweeted a bit and I took part in a series of Humiliation tasks she set called the 12 humiliations of christmas.  Writing reports up every day and having fun.  So much so that after the Xmas holidays I called her on her phone lines and begun a phone relationship that took me further than i'd ever been before.  I had genuine feelings for her and could really tell the difference in our calls as she had got to know me, yes she was on the other side of an ocean, but I learned a lot from the time I spent with her.  However about 18 months later she disappeared.  I still have no idea what happened to her and just hope she is happy.

I took a break from calling anyone then, and to be honest was in and out of hospital for a while, but then found myself calling another Lady, who is still on twitter, Miss Jane.  However with my illness I felt I wasn't in the right place and couldnt do as I was asked.  So after a few calls had to ease off for a while.  So it came to the summer of 2015 and after a few messages I called the MeanGirls for the first time.  I'm not going to say I was hooked straight aways but I knew if they allowed I would be calling back, and for nearly the next year I was calling when I could and carrying out any task they set.  It was them who gave me the idea to start this blog and I learned a lot from them.  Yes on a call I got plenty of the humiliation I craved, (cam and Skype were totally new to me)  But from their tweets I learned a lot.  I'll always be grateful to them.  But I had an itch, and asked if they would mind if I went to see a real Mistress, (theres more details on this in previous posts)  This led to my first real time session, and if you've read this blog you know what has happened since then.

I've found when I get all submissive now, i'm thinking more of trying to please than I am of getting horny and getting myself off.  I genuinely think for the first time i'm being the real me, and I dont think i've ever been happier.

So there you have it, thought I would try and write a post about my journey, without giving away too many personal details, but as for the little update I mentioned in the title, my first "kinky play event" is now only a couple of weeks away and theres a few nerves building but i've bought a ticket and the majority of a new outfit including these shoes, and a new dress thats all pink and sparkly.  I just need a bag and some new holdups and i'm all set I think!








Also some of you may remember the day I had at Sexhibition this year, well I took the plunge and have booked the whole weekend off for next year so hopefully there will be more fun, and also have time booked off to head down to that there London, which will hopefully include a trip to one of the kinky club nights that I have heard so much about.

Theres so much to look forward to, as I will be hopefully seeing Mistress Courtney again for another session when i'm off work in a couple of weeks.  Seriously right now I love my life!!

Anyways this has gone on for an age so i'm going to wrap it up, if you've stuck it out this long thanks for reading, I guess this is kinda a personal post, feel free to chat on here or on twitter as always.

Cinnamon xxx

P.S it was Halloween yesterday so a HarleyCinn pic had to be added :) I do love that makeup app!!!!

A little update of my week and some things coming up!

Hi everyone, I wanted to write a quick post today,  although its probably going to be nowhere near as interesting as the one I posted at the weekend,  I really cannot believe how many views that post has had and some of the feedback I've had on it.  As what happened has sunk in more and the more i've thought about it I've realised even more just how lucky I was.  It really isn't every day that something like that happens, and the thoughts of those laughs in unison have been in my dreams all week and i've been loving the dreams.  Its once again been a week of draining the batteries in my mini-wand.  I've been looking actually at a real sized mains powered wand from Lovehoney, especially at the moment as theyve emailed me a voucher code for 20% off all purchases.  Part of me has been fantasising about being tied up, restrained, maybe blindfolded and teased till i'm totally squirming.  Its only since I started having sessions in real time i've realised how much I somehow just enjoy that feeling of squirming, and having no control over it whatsoever.  I like feeling weak for a dominant woman, it just feels so so right.

  I've mentioned a couple weeks ago about an event that i've been looking forward to and have now bought a ticket.  Which has left me with the dilemma of an outfit.  Having been in touch with the venue i've been told that people can arrive in "normal" clothing and get changed in there to whatever is comfortable.  However I dont really have many outfits, especially fetish orientated ones.  I had spoke over twitter to one of the Mistresses attending who said maybe to wear feminine attire underneath say normal going out clothes.  To be totally honest i've been thinking about doing that, but after last weekend and feeling the exposure I felt last weekend in front of all of those women I'm leaning towards actually getting a full on outfit to take with me, and if i'm comfortable to get changed into it when I get there, and have been looking around for something online.  Found a metallic looking rockabilly dress that may fit me well and also some shoes on amazon that would fit my feet.  May have to wait till payday but I think that the outfit would work ok, I just wish I knew how many people etc will be there and the ratio of males and females.  I guess its the kind of thing that I will be fine with if there is a healthy balance, but I know I certainly wouldn't like a guy trying anything on with me, in fact i'd probably curl up into a ball and freak out.  I think with the outfit I would have to accessorize with stockings, my wig, makeup etc but thats a bridge i'll cross when I get there.  I suppose in a worst case scenario I could use this outfit below as it still just about fits.  It is very very short though. So I could be open to a world of spanking.

  I may well be getting ahead of myself here as the event is still a month or so away, I'm looking forward to seeing another dungeon chambers though and some of the demonstrations that will be happening at it.  Its actually at the start of my next week off work, so I will also be trying to book a session with Mistress Courtney again, especially as it is a special week for me, (not saying i'm getting old but lets face it i'm getting no younger)  Maybe i'll make it the week of kink part 2.  So will hopefully be planning a couple of other things for the week alongside the usual hectic preparations for the festive period.  Any kinky ideas will be more than appreciated hehe. I know full well i'd love to be back in this position again (below to the right)

But in the meantime I have a lots of time, so will be trying to continue a couple of my stories if I can.  And also help something I am very excited about.  A talented writer has asked to basically use me as a character in a story, and I keep getting emails asking me what i'd do in a certain situation and how I would react to things, *blushes* i've certainly never been called someones muse before and it is quite exciting.  And the parts of the story i've read have set a scene very well.  I believe its just starting to get to the exciting and kinky parts now which is even more fun.

Anyways, sorry this is only a short post but i'll wrap it up and get back to my imagination, as always feel free to get in touch, either on here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx