An explanation, an update and an awesome time with Mistress

Hi everyone, firstly I guess an apology is in order, its been an absolute age since I last posted a blog on here.  Theres been a lot going on in my vanilla life careerwise, and combined with not really having much time for kinky fun over xmas and not having any trips out etc this blog kind of took a back seat.  I mean theres been plenty of cinnamon time at home, but no-one wants to read a blog of how I tease myself and get off do they?  Lol

I did have one memorable day shopping with my friend again, this time with the sole purpose of finding things for me.  It was a great morning and hopefully soon it will happen again, (after a payday) and maybe at a slightly larger shopping place than the town we were in. It is definitely easier shopping being with someone, I keep thanking my friend, but I dont think she realises how much she's helped me!



Of course a lot of my blogs in the last couple of years have been about my adventures with  Mistress Courtney and this weekend just past finally after a couple of months I got to see and catch up with Mistress in another wonderful session, getting some time off has been tricky with the career change, but managed to get the date set.  If i'm being honest I was looking forward to it from the moment I received the email saying it was all booked.  Then the day before I got a msg saying I should wear makeup to the dungeon, the more makeup the better the rewards, and the less makeup the worse the punishment.  That pretty much put my head in cinnamon mode right then and spent the evening before panicking about the drive.  I did have a couple of things to do in the morning and found myself with a rushed window to try and make my makeup look good.  I also had to make sure I was in girly lingerie and stockings too.  But luckily I just had enough time and set off on the paranoid journey to the dungeon. Armed with the Christmas gift I still had for Mistress I got out of my local town, but I'm certain someone spotted me in all the makeup, I caught them pointing out of a car at mine, and just wanted the traffic lights to change.  But I arrived without any further sightings and got myself parked up before awaiting that magical text.  I headed in as instructed and as that door opened any nerves I had disappeared.  I was greeted warmly by Mistress who looked as amazing as ever, and as a plus point she liked the gift I had taken.  After a little chat, I was shown into the larger dungeon room, saying a quick hello to Mistress Luci and Princess Lucina as I walked through.  I was allowed to use the bathroom quickly as Mistress got us some water, and then well the fun really started.....

Mistress with me strapped down at her mercy

I never go into much detail about what actually happens in the dungeon, and sorry I'm not really going to start now, but I will say the session was full of me being tormented, scratched restrained spanked, sat on, teased tickled, and for my first time with Mistress Courtney, caned, yes caned, as in swishy sticks of stingingness I've been afraid of for so long.  I can remember holding my breath after Mistress explained about them, unable to move strapped down on the bench, and then somehow, I think it was the tickling prior to the first stroke I giggled, this didn't go un-noticed, but although Mistress said she was a bit rougher on me than normal, and I dont really class myself as liking pain despite the stinging I felt quite exhilarated. After being on the bench, then led over Mistresses knee I was strapped down on my back, I literally couldnt have moved if there was all the chocolate in the world next to me.  I lost track of time then as I was taken somehow into that floaty special place, where all I can hear is Mistresses voice yet I hardly can tell what is being said.  Those nails scratching felt so sharp, (i'm still finding scratches all over which is awesome) but when they tickled I squirmed.  I know I was sat on at one point, which was another new experience for me in a session, and when the time came, well something happened I certainly wasn't expecting, and I dont think Mistress was either.  I blame the doxy!!

The beautiful Mistress Courtney

I was released from the restraints and left to just relax a moment, before being allowed to clean up and get dressed.  After that we had a chat which was awesome to catch up, but also get some possible future ideas, I liked Mistresses smile when I said that with the new job I could pretty much always get some time to help her if needed, and I know I wont leave it as long till I see Mistress again, i'd go every week if I could!!!


I drove home with a huge smile on my face, and spent the next day and a half re-imagining everything.  Thankfully even despite a monday morning commute with a frozen car i've avoided the dreaded drop so far.  I guess it may have taken just over a month but my first kinky experience of the year was worth the wait.

I'm going to leave this here for now, hope you enjoy, and also hope it wont be as long before my next blog post.  As always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Stay kinky, cinnamon xxx

An amazing and kinky night at the Events Chambers party

Hmm so what does my blog and buses have in common?  Yep thats it theres none for ages, then two pretty much right after one another.  Well as I mentioned in my last post a couple of days ago I was planning on going to the Events Chambers party on Saturday.  Though its getting to the stage where I am always wondering what to wear!  I need a bigger wardrobe hehe!

I chose this dress in the end

Well it came to saturday and i finally decided on my outfit, and got everything ready I needed.  The dress, wig, shoes, makeup although as i've done a few times now I wore most of the underwear from home.  And as has happened before I pulled into the quietest corner of the motorway service station car park I could find and set about trying to do some makeup.  Mainly my eyes, they weren't perfect but for a rush job in a car park I was happy.  I pulled up outside and made my way in saying hi, and being as warmly greeted as ever before heading upstairs to change.  You know its less than a year since I first attended and I remember the nerves as I almost cowered in a room changing and the way my heart pounded as I walked out into the party, yet now I find those nerves are just not there, so as i finished getting as ready as I could be I packed all of my boy things into my bag and took it back downstairs to be stored.  My dress had some lovely comments, and everyone there was friendly, when someone said they thought I was a similar age to them I was delighted, (they were only 23) Talk about a confidence booster.

I always find chatting at these do's to be fun, to other subs, Mistresses, the staff and well everyone,  there seems to be no judgement and its something someone like me doesn't get to feel too often.  But there often seems to be plenty of play too, i've found it fascinating watching some of the play when i've been there, even though some of the things scare me silly.  I have been teased and tickled lightly and had a spanking there but this night seemed to have a lot of firsts for me.  The first one I was in the bar area chatting when a Mistress told me to accompany her to the toilet.  (very nervously I followed while explaining i'd never done anything like this before)  It was explained to me that I needed to stand and watch and fold up some toilet paper which I did, shaking with nerves and not sure what would happen next.  As the Mistress finished she stood and I was instructed to use the folded up toilet paper to wipe her clean.  Which I hope I did ok, again I was shaking at this.  As the Mistress was leaving the bathroom and said we could go back to the bar I asked if I could just use the toilet.  I hadnt banked on the Mistress standing before me as I sat on the toilet feeling exposed, and finding it hard to go, even though I needed to.  After some encouragement I managed it though, despite the feelings rushing through me.  After I finished my you know what was wiped clean and I pulled my panties back up.  As we made our way downstairs I was told its good for girls to "share" and that I could put this in my blog but no names where necessary.

Pretty soon after I found myself in one of the dungeon rooms watching a caning over the bench and also a beautiful female sub being a puppy, and chatting with others.  Then I was challenged to take a caning myself.  (this was just after another Mistress asked if she could flog me later) Now i've never been really caned before but I was told it would be a "sensual" caning,  the thought has come up in my head more and more often for me though lately and somehow I found myself knelt over the bench and exposed with the skirt of my dress lifted right up. Hearing others around chatting added to the feelings, I heard a whisper that we have an audience.  I then got told i'd be having 6 strokes, I managed to take them without screaming, as that was my fear and felt a rush of emotions as I stood up.  I chilled a little after this, watching some other canings, chatting before I had an experience i'll never forget, my blog is not the place to talk about that though.  I felt very lucky.

Later in the evening as things were drawing to a close I received some possibly inadvertent SPH from a Mistress who was instructing a slave to wank.  And chatted more with everyone before dressing back as a boy for my drive home.  It was a really good night and i'd like to thank all of the Mistresses, all of the subs, for another really fun experience.  I can't wait for the Halloween one next month.

I'm going to wrap this up now, but as always, feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Another wonderful session with Mistress Courtney

Hey everyone, I thought I would make a blog about my latest session with the amazing Mistress Courtney this week.  Having a couple of days booked off, I managed to book the session and had been building up excitement to it as I always do.  Yes sure I am lucky I can indulge in my thoughts and fantasies at home pretty much whenever I like but theres something about an actual session, that just magnifies all my thoughts.

I spent the day beforehand getting myself ready, and letting my mind wander before getting in my car and making that now familiar drive.  As always when I parked I sent a text to say I was there and felt my nervous excitement grow until the reply came through to come down.  I knocked at the door and was let in and greeted by Mistress, who looked as gorgeous as ever.  I was allowed to use the WC and then was shown into the dungeon.  I was told a couple of things, and then left to get myself stripped to my panties and my wig,  I'm never the most confident about my body, so felt quite exposed as I was sat there in only panties, but felt myself melt as Mistress opened the door and walked in with a dress.  There was so much satin and lace, as I was helped to put it on I just felt so submissive, and the sensations as it rubbed over my body gave me a goosebump or two.  Which Mistress duly noted.

An old photo of me and Mistress

I posed for a couple of pics, and had to do a twirl, and even briefly show Mistress Luci which definitely made me blush, then I was cuffed to the bar above my head, and given a punishment, with a strap followed by a spanking, paddling and I think a crop as well.  I felt something i've never felt before and could consciously feel myself try to stick my bottom out inbetween spanks,  despite the stinging I soon felt. When I was uncured I was given a sip of water, before being strapped to the gynae bench, unable to move with my arms and legs secured.  Then Mistress put a gag on me (I have a phobia about things in my mouth, but somehow wanted to at least try) Then a blindfold as well.  In that moment I felt a vulnerability i've never felt before.  I couldnt see, couldnt speak, couldnt move, (other than squirm) everything seemed magnified, from Mistress voice, to the touch of the various things she used to tease and torment me.  I could constantly feel my eyes trying to dart around behind the blindfold even though everything was dark for me.  Making little moaning sounds behind the gag as I was made to squirm.  I lost track of time, and just got in that special place.  Riding an edge for what seemed an age before being denied (well for now)  As the gag and blindold were removed  Mistress watched as I drifted back into normality and explained that I could text and ask permission later that night to make my panties sticky.  I was untied and left to get dressed again and Mistress made us a drink.

We sat and had a coffee and a chat and I always enjoy this.  A couple of ideas were discussed and I realised how easy Mistress can make me drift off as she pressed one of my triggers before I was let go to float my way home.  I've said it before, but following being in that place in my head no amount of traffic on the M60 can annoy you.  Then once I got home I made some food and changed into some of my naughtiest lingerie and teased myself before texting and asking Mistress for permission.  I beamed when the reply came back and after a little more teasing did what i'd been told hehe.

Maybe my outfit for saturday night

You know i'm already looking forward to my next kinky fun with Mistress.  But I also have another fun night at The Manchester Chambers planned for this weekend, and they are always such fun nights.  I just need to figure my outfit out now for it, i'm thinking of daring to try something a little sluttier than usual, but thats because of my naughty moods from the last week or so.  I also did debate trying to find a localish place to the chambers that may have done a makeover.  But that idea has gone for now, due to cost and well the time i'd need I guess.  Maybe another time!  If my really slutty idea doesn't work out then I may try this dress again





Anyways i'm gonna wrap this up and i'm sure you'll be seeing more on here soon.  Feel free to chat on twitter as always and have a great and kinky weekend!

Cinnamon xxx

A night of Fire and Ice, (and lots of fun)

Hey everyone, I thought after the weekend I would have to write a new blog post, as anyone who follows me on twitter or read my last post here would know I had another night out planned for the saturday just gone, so I thought i'd tell you all about it!

Last year I had my first kinky night out at the Manchester Chambers when they held Sinnation. I enjoyed it a lot and went back for a second time in January.  They did hold a third party in February but due to my trip with Mistress Courtney to london and Club Subversion the night before I just couldnt feasibly get there without teaching myself to sleepdrive which wouldn't be the best idea I bet.  So when the date was released for the relaunch of the party nights I was excited when I realised it clashed with nothing and would be able to attend!

It is now known as Events Chambers and it was announced there would be a theme of Fire and Ice for the re-launch.  I did genuinely have a look around for an outfit that would possible go with the them for the night but within my budget it was very tricky so I planned something similar to what I wore for Bitches UnleaSHEd in March.  A satin dress, nude tights/pantyhose, heels wig and makeup. So I spent a couple of hours the night before making sure I had everything ready as unfortunately I had to work the day of the party.

My dress for the night

Anyways I finished the shift at work and got myself home and had a quick meal, before feeling the nerves start to rise a little bit, I'd thought of pretty much dressing at home and just covering up slightly to make getting ready there a little easier.  A bit like Mistress Courtney told me to do a few weeks ago, so I was dressed and just wore some jeans and a hoody over the top of my cinnamon outfit.  But I also did the majority of my makeup at home as well.  This is where the nerves really started to make me tingle a little, after all it was still daylight outside when I set off. I couldnt actually get it just as I wanted as my hands were shaking like crazy but managed to be reasonably happy with the results, I just saved the red lipstick for when I got there.  The drive was uneventful though apart from a raised heart rate every time I stopped at traffic lights etc, and then the very short walk from my car to the venue.

As I walked into the yard I was greeted by part of the evenings entertainment, with a fire eating display in progress and a very talented stiltwalker, with people already there watching.  I made my way to the reception area and signed myself in before being allowed upstairs to finish off getting ready.  The way i'd done most of it at home, I found it was only a couple of minutes before I was storing my bag and ready to start the nights fun.  I made my way outside to catch the end of the show, and was greeted by people,  it sometimes still feels a bit strange that some people remember me, but I was really grateful.  It wasn't long before I was chatting away to someone who was at their first event, and also some Mistresses that I have been introduced to in the past, like Mistress Lola, Miss Kitty, Mistress Violet and Miss Torment  I was definitely not as nervous as I have been in the past.  I think this was slightly picked up on as well.  Pretty soon I found myself inside in one of the dungeon rooms watching an example of a "judicial" caning gulp, all I could think was ouch!! But seeing Mistress Arabella in full flow was a treat to watch, all the same I'm glad I was only watching.

My shoes for the night, 

I was then chatting in the bar-room when I heard my name being called and a Mistress I met at the very first party Mistress Violet was beckoning me over to her so I made my way over and it was really nice to have a chat, whilst performing a simple task for her.  She wasn't happy unless I was speaking in a girly voice though, and I tried my best.  I was asked about what I like in sessions and things, before being let go being told that maybe later it would happen.  There was so much happening its hard to note it all down, and I was talking to lots of people and watching allsorts of kinky fun happening,  It was later in the evening when I was in one of the dungeon rooms when I was called over to Mistress Violet again and she introduced me to Mistress Islya, who i'd spoke to on twitter but never met.  my weakness for tickling was divulged and soon I found myself sat with my arms way above my head being teased and tickled until I squirmed, It was like I totally forgot I was in a room full of people, my dress was hitched up, and I was trying my hardest not to completely melt, and I lost track of time totally as is always the case when I get tickled like that, my head goes into a place where time doesn't make sense, I was talking to the events photographer outside later and he said you looked like you enjoyed that.  It was only then I snapped back to reality and realised it was in front of everyone *blushes* which gave me an extra buzz of the exposure and humiliation, but obviously I seem to really like that so it was all good!


The rest of the night was mainly spent watching play and chatting with lots of other people about experiences, nights out etc, realising even more how far i've come in what is pretty much only 6 months since my first event like this.   I'm really sorry that i've not mentioned you all, it was fantastic to catch up with people i've met before though, and meet lots of new people too, and even better I got a lot of comments about my outfit, even that I had a Debbie Harry vibe going on, it was a shame that all too soon it was getting towards that time where i'd have to think about leaving, so I made my excuses and sort of de-cinnamonised into my jeans and hoody, and regular shoes.  I also took off the makeup before making my way back downstairs, it was as I was saying my goodbyes that a couple of people really commented on my transformation, I guess the boy me looks a little different from my favourite side of me.  That really made my night.  Mistress Arabella did say she didnt like this look on me one bit though!!  I did say I still had my dress on underneath though.

After the goodbyes I made my way home and even forgot to turn the radio on, I was in a happy place, I got home and stripped back down to my girly outfit, and the next thing I knew it was the next morning and i'd fallen asleep on the couch, oopsies! I was thinking back over it the next day and realised that was probably the first time i've been played with at one of these events, however little it was compared to some of the other play going on.  Feels like kind of another cool step for me to take so yay!  And thankyou to Mistress Violet and Mistress Islya too!!

  I'm gonna wrap this post up now as it may be pretty damn long but thanks as always for reading, I hope you enjoy, i'm already looking forward to the next party, and booking another session with Mistress Courtney of course!  I hope theres lots of kinky fun coming this way.

Feel free to chat to me on twitter as always,

Cinnamon xxx

P.S another big thanks must go to Mistress Arabella for all the hard work organising the event, and looking great as the Ice Queen!!

Another amazing session

Hey everyone, its been a couple of weeks since I posted, few things on and to be honest been looking forward to something quite a bit.  I mentioned a couple of times that the first anniversary of my first session was coming up, and well earlier this week It happened, and what better way to spend it than having another session with the amazing Mistress Courtney

I've been looking back over the year building up to this, remembering the feelings I had at this time last year, the nerves, the excitement, with a little bit of fear as well I guess.  Whilst all the time getting some similar feelings, well the fear has gone now, I think that was just because it was my first time, and totally unknown.  There was definitely excitement and some nerves too, but i'll get to those in a little bit.  I actually found myself getting lost in thoughts for a good few nights before the day.  I even spent the last few days before keeping myself in virtual bubblewrap to make sure I didnt get any injuries or anything.

I'd been thinking a lot of my first session, exactly a year ago

The day before the session Mistress told me she would like me to be wearing underwear under my clothes, and some makeup when I arrived.  That was where those nerves came in, I know I drove to meet Mistress before Bitches UnleSHED wearing makeup, but that was at night, in the dark.  This was going to be broad daylight, well that night I tossed and turned in bed but eventually drifted off into a dream that ended up being very humiliating.  I woke up on the day and sent a confirmation message and was told to bring the dress I wore while filming a couple of weeks ago and then had a relaxing morning, getting everything ready, before having some lunch and then getting dressed,  I chose a baby pink babydoll, baby pink fishnets and some silky pink panties with a lace trim on underneath a shirt and jeans.  I had no idea what makeup to wear, so I started with foundation and a hint of blush, a little eyeshadow and liner and mascara, I had a little play with my eyebrows too.  Finally for the lips, I used a lip crayon that came out much brighter than I thought it was, but I didn't have time to change it.  Grabbing my bag I got to my car as quick as possible while keeping my head down, and was so conscious all the way to the dungeon, trying to keep my head as straight as possible, especially through the busy section of roadworks on the M60, I parked up and was shaking a little.  Trying not to be seen by any passers by, I received a text telling me to go in, I had to put on my dress, and a wig and eye mask Mistress had left out, and to wait.

 As I approached the door I had a flashback of the first time that door opened to me last year. I was tingling as I got myself how Mistress wanted and then put the mask on.  I really couldnt see, then heard a little giggle as Mistress came in, I felt those sharp fingernails lightly brush along my arm,  now as always i'm not going to go into all the details of the session but at one point I was shown a video of me being spanked by Mistress, while she re-enacted the clip at the same time, it was like an overload of senses, watching it while feeling it at the same time, I was then tied up, which gave Mistress something to pull me about on.  It gave me such a great feeling as I was totally trapped.  I was then spanked again over Mistresses knee and I found out after that i'd been introduced to a cane for the first time. I was then turned over and teased a lot more with a Doxy, Mistress was mentioning all kinds of idea's, my head was just in that place where everything just feels right, and the ideas were making me even more excited.  I was writhing as the teasing continued.

Panties made sticky for the journey home

  I was allowed after a while to "make my panties wet and sticky for the drive home" and with the help of the Doxy and Mistresses permission had one of the most intense orgasms i've ever had.  I was kind of spaced out then, and was told to just lie there a minute as Mistress went to get some water.


Mistress came back and we chatted as I sort of came back round, before leaving me to get dressed.  I had to keep the sticky panties on though and we had another chat about the session and some possible future plans again and I gave Mistress a little surprise gift i'd got her, I was delighted that she liked it, when I left the dungeon I was on a high, and once again just drifted through the rush hour traffic, I spent the evening still feeling like I was floating, reliving not just that session but bits from all the sessions and things over the last year.  Its taken me a couple of days to let everything sink through for me to write about it, i'm sure i'll still be having flashbacks for a long time.


I've been thinking of the last year or so as a whole lately, I know I feel more comfortable in myself, lived some dreams I thought were impossible, and met some really great people.  Yet I know i've still lots to learn and i'm most definitely looking forward to that.  Right, this is probably way too long already so I'm gonna wrap this up, but as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS no panties were permanently damaged, yay

A little extra from my session

Hi, this is something i've never done before, but as I posted in my last entry there was a totally new element (for me) in the session.  Mistress actually recorded some clips whilst making me squirm.

I was asked to think over how i'd feel about other people seeing these, and to be honest the thought actually has me excited quite a bit, so as a one off and with permission from Mistress Courtney I thought I would share one of the clips.

I know i'm not exactly svelte, so please dont feel the need to point that out, but the thought of others seeing it is quite exciting, just pls watch it alone, its probably well definitely not safe for work.

And of course, a huge thanks to Mistress Courtney for the amazing session and ideas.

So feel free to chat either here or on my twitter

Cinnamon xxx