Another amazing session

Hey everyone, its been a couple of weeks since I posted, few things on and to be honest been looking forward to something quite a bit.  I mentioned a couple of times that the first anniversary of my first session was coming up, and well earlier this week It happened, and what better way to spend it than having another session with the amazing Mistress Courtney

I've been looking back over the year building up to this, remembering the feelings I had at this time last year, the nerves, the excitement, with a little bit of fear as well I guess.  Whilst all the time getting some similar feelings, well the fear has gone now, I think that was just because it was my first time, and totally unknown.  There was definitely excitement and some nerves too, but i'll get to those in a little bit.  I actually found myself getting lost in thoughts for a good few nights before the day.  I even spent the last few days before keeping myself in virtual bubblewrap to make sure I didnt get any injuries or anything.

I'd been thinking a lot of my first session, exactly a year ago

The day before the session Mistress told me she would like me to be wearing underwear under my clothes, and some makeup when I arrived.  That was where those nerves came in, I know I drove to meet Mistress before Bitches UnleSHED wearing makeup, but that was at night, in the dark.  This was going to be broad daylight, well that night I tossed and turned in bed but eventually drifted off into a dream that ended up being very humiliating.  I woke up on the day and sent a confirmation message and was told to bring the dress I wore while filming a couple of weeks ago and then had a relaxing morning, getting everything ready, before having some lunch and then getting dressed,  I chose a baby pink babydoll, baby pink fishnets and some silky pink panties with a lace trim on underneath a shirt and jeans.  I had no idea what makeup to wear, so I started with foundation and a hint of blush, a little eyeshadow and liner and mascara, I had a little play with my eyebrows too.  Finally for the lips, I used a lip crayon that came out much brighter than I thought it was, but I didn't have time to change it.  Grabbing my bag I got to my car as quick as possible while keeping my head down, and was so conscious all the way to the dungeon, trying to keep my head as straight as possible, especially through the busy section of roadworks on the M60, I parked up and was shaking a little.  Trying not to be seen by any passers by, I received a text telling me to go in, I had to put on my dress, and a wig and eye mask Mistress had left out, and to wait.

 As I approached the door I had a flashback of the first time that door opened to me last year. I was tingling as I got myself how Mistress wanted and then put the mask on.  I really couldnt see, then heard a little giggle as Mistress came in, I felt those sharp fingernails lightly brush along my arm,  now as always i'm not going to go into all the details of the session but at one point I was shown a video of me being spanked by Mistress, while she re-enacted the clip at the same time, it was like an overload of senses, watching it while feeling it at the same time, I was then tied up, which gave Mistress something to pull me about on.  It gave me such a great feeling as I was totally trapped.  I was then spanked again over Mistresses knee and I found out after that i'd been introduced to a cane for the first time. I was then turned over and teased a lot more with a Doxy, Mistress was mentioning all kinds of idea's, my head was just in that place where everything just feels right, and the ideas were making me even more excited.  I was writhing as the teasing continued.

Panties made sticky for the journey home

  I was allowed after a while to "make my panties wet and sticky for the drive home" and with the help of the Doxy and Mistresses permission had one of the most intense orgasms i've ever had.  I was kind of spaced out then, and was told to just lie there a minute as Mistress went to get some water.


Mistress came back and we chatted as I sort of came back round, before leaving me to get dressed.  I had to keep the sticky panties on though and we had another chat about the session and some possible future plans again and I gave Mistress a little surprise gift i'd got her, I was delighted that she liked it, when I left the dungeon I was on a high, and once again just drifted through the rush hour traffic, I spent the evening still feeling like I was floating, reliving not just that session but bits from all the sessions and things over the last year.  Its taken me a couple of days to let everything sink through for me to write about it, i'm sure i'll still be having flashbacks for a long time.


I've been thinking of the last year or so as a whole lately, I know I feel more comfortable in myself, lived some dreams I thought were impossible, and met some really great people.  Yet I know i've still lots to learn and i'm most definitely looking forward to that.  Right, this is probably way too long already so I'm gonna wrap this up, but as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS no panties were permanently damaged, yay

My night at Sinnation

Hi everyone, I'm hoping this will be a fun blog post,  after my adventure last night.  I'd bought a ticket for the first Sinnation event a few weeks ago and had been looking forward to it as it was the first event like that I have ever been to.  I'm guessing as well if you've read any of my recent posts as well you'd know i'd been wondering just what to wear.  I'd been told that I could arrive "vanilla" and change into whatever I felt comfortable in.  Now I wear lingerie most of the time under my guy clothes, but have never really been fully dressed in front of more than one Mistress, but thanks to some encouragement on twitter from Mistress Felix I'd found a dress online, and some heels, and decided I was going to do it.

So anyway time drew around to yesterday and I spent most of the day getting myself ready, and packing a bag with all my things in.  I travelled to the location at the Manchester Chambers, and as usual for my first visit somewhere got a little bit lost, but found myself sat outside soon enough.  I actually met Mistress Felix and her slave outside and they showed me in.  Whilst I was checking my coat and showing my ticket etc I was introduced as Cinnamon to the other people in the room.  This made me blush, which didnt go unnoticed.  Was asked if I wanted to get changed and was shown upstairs to a room and left to get changed.  I was just about ready, when Mistress Felix came in and gave me some help with my makeup, she is very talented, I'm not sure what she did to my eyebrows but they looked amazing.

We went back downstairs to a playroom where there was a sushi girl.  A lot of the other people there were posing for pics and enjoying the sushi off her body.  I think this was the point that I was the most nervous, as there was quite a few people in the room, I was introduced to a few more people and  then stood back to watch a demonstration of Shibari, I've seen pictures of this before but actually seeing someone who was an expert in it in action was something else.  It truly looks like an work of art in progress.  There was some play starting to happen as a slave was worshipping a Mistresses feet during the demo.  I didnt really join in any play, was happy just to watch and try soak things in.  Especially as i'd never really met any of the people there before.  I talked to a few people and then headed upstairs for more Demos, one by Mistress Arabella who had a slave strapped to a bench and proceeded to give a spanking, paddling and caning demo.  Even the cane snapped.  During this I was speaking to another Mistress who remembered me from my day at Sexhibition who said she thought she had remembered me and that she liked my outfit.

There was a bar there that I couldnt properly enjoy with having to drive but I headed over there to cool down a bit, and outside it was very chilly before I headed back upstairs and taken into a room by Mistress Felix, she introduced me to another couple of Mistresses as Cinnamon,  and asked me to watch, I then for the first time ever saw a violet wand used, in tandem with a magic wand, the slave was squirming,  when they started tickling him I got a little bit jealous, (I love being tickled when I can't move) Although I dont think I have a pain threshold like some of the people there.

I had to sit down after a few hours as my feet had started to ache, but it was getting pretty late by then and eventually I got my bag to change ready to leave.  I did have a nightmare though getting my dress unzipped as it had stuck, thankfully though I was helped by Mistress Lola to get it open.  Before I got changed and headed back downstairs.  Chatted for another few minutes and thanked the Mistresses who'd organised it and said my goodbyes.  I had the most traffic free journey home ever (it was 1.45am though) and had some very kinky dreams last night.  I loved that I had the balls to go through with wearing the dress and not going to lie have loved some of the comments I had, I also loved that I didnt feel weird, or pressurised into anything.  Some of the play I saw was way beyond anything i've done yet.  But all in all I had a really good night, and hopefully i'll get to attend more things like this in the future.

A link to the event page is here  Sinnation

That was a hell of a start to my time off work, *blushes* although there is much more to come hopefully starting tomorrow but my lips are sealed, this really could be a week of kink!  As always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

A little update of my week and some things coming up!

Hi everyone, I wanted to write a quick post today,  although its probably going to be nowhere near as interesting as the one I posted at the weekend,  I really cannot believe how many views that post has had and some of the feedback I've had on it.  As what happened has sunk in more and the more i've thought about it I've realised even more just how lucky I was.  It really isn't every day that something like that happens, and the thoughts of those laughs in unison have been in my dreams all week and i've been loving the dreams.  Its once again been a week of draining the batteries in my mini-wand.  I've been looking actually at a real sized mains powered wand from Lovehoney, especially at the moment as theyve emailed me a voucher code for 20% off all purchases.  Part of me has been fantasising about being tied up, restrained, maybe blindfolded and teased till i'm totally squirming.  Its only since I started having sessions in real time i've realised how much I somehow just enjoy that feeling of squirming, and having no control over it whatsoever.  I like feeling weak for a dominant woman, it just feels so so right.

  I've mentioned a couple weeks ago about an event that i've been looking forward to and have now bought a ticket.  Which has left me with the dilemma of an outfit.  Having been in touch with the venue i've been told that people can arrive in "normal" clothing and get changed in there to whatever is comfortable.  However I dont really have many outfits, especially fetish orientated ones.  I had spoke over twitter to one of the Mistresses attending who said maybe to wear feminine attire underneath say normal going out clothes.  To be totally honest i've been thinking about doing that, but after last weekend and feeling the exposure I felt last weekend in front of all of those women I'm leaning towards actually getting a full on outfit to take with me, and if i'm comfortable to get changed into it when I get there, and have been looking around for something online.  Found a metallic looking rockabilly dress that may fit me well and also some shoes on amazon that would fit my feet.  May have to wait till payday but I think that the outfit would work ok, I just wish I knew how many people etc will be there and the ratio of males and females.  I guess its the kind of thing that I will be fine with if there is a healthy balance, but I know I certainly wouldn't like a guy trying anything on with me, in fact i'd probably curl up into a ball and freak out.  I think with the outfit I would have to accessorize with stockings, my wig, makeup etc but thats a bridge i'll cross when I get there.  I suppose in a worst case scenario I could use this outfit below as it still just about fits.  It is very very short though. So I could be open to a world of spanking.

  I may well be getting ahead of myself here as the event is still a month or so away, I'm looking forward to seeing another dungeon chambers though and some of the demonstrations that will be happening at it.  Its actually at the start of my next week off work, so I will also be trying to book a session with Mistress Courtney again, especially as it is a special week for me, (not saying i'm getting old but lets face it i'm getting no younger)  Maybe i'll make it the week of kink part 2.  So will hopefully be planning a couple of other things for the week alongside the usual hectic preparations for the festive period.  Any kinky ideas will be more than appreciated hehe. I know full well i'd love to be back in this position again (below to the right)

But in the meantime I have a lots of time, so will be trying to continue a couple of my stories if I can.  And also help something I am very excited about.  A talented writer has asked to basically use me as a character in a story, and I keep getting emails asking me what i'd do in a certain situation and how I would react to things, *blushes* i've certainly never been called someones muse before and it is quite exciting.  And the parts of the story i've read have set a scene very well.  I believe its just starting to get to the exciting and kinky parts now which is even more fun.

Anyways, sorry this is only a short post but i'll wrap it up and get back to my imagination, as always feel free to get in touch, either on here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

A hen party with a difference

Hi everyone, wow this is going to be my third blog post in a week, and is about another experience that I feel so lucky to have had.

Now i'm sure a lot of other subs will have visited the various clip sites on the internet that feature humiliation clips, and I know a lot of the sites have clips where a beautiful Domme tells how she is going to expose you in front of others. I know its a thing I have fantasised about but it also scares me silly and
   However the other evening I got a message from the amazing Mistress Courtney.  She had been asked to do a demonstration of domination at a Hen party in a posh hotel.  She asked if I would like to go along.  I said yes pretty much straight away without even thinking much, the thinking came over the next day or so.  I was full of excitement and also nerves, without really knowing just what to expect.  But I also knew from a message that Mistress wasn't too sure either but said that we would at least have a giggle.  I ended up moving my work around for the day, just to make it easier to get ready.  Anyways saturday came, and I made a bag up of a couple of outfits, not really sure if I would need them and made sure I was ready, had a long bubble bath and then with my nerves at a fever pitch I set off.  The hotel was in one of my favourite cities and is about an hours drive away, so the nerves really built in that time.  Before I arrived and got to park in my favorite car park in the world. (you actually have to drive under the ground to get into it with funky ramps and all sorts, yes I know i'm a geek)

I checked my phone but realised I had no signal being underground and left pretty much into the heart of LiverpoolOne, I knew where the hotel was and made my way to an open space close to it.  I had a message then asking me to meet Mistress at her car. I sat in with her and we had a chat while she was waiting for the woman who had organised it to contact her.  I showed Mistress the outfits i'd brought, and she looked as stunning as ever in a latex dress, she touched up her mascara and I got her some shoes, her coat and a bag out of the boot, the bag obviously had lots of erm implements in it, with various flogger handles sticking out.  I think at this point my nerves were really building yet I felt totally safe with Mistress there.  She had a phone call from the lady and we met her at the door of the hotel.  She greeted Mistress with a hug and thanked her for doing this, and I was introduced as Cinnamon. Obviously I was carrying the bag with all the toys in and we were taken to a semi-private booth in the bar / lobby area.  I panicked inside as there was no privacy at all, luckily the lady said we could use a room if Mistress thought that was better which she did.  So we went up in the lift and were shown into a room.  We were then left and said that she would bring the party in about 5 mins and would knock.  So very hurriedly I was given the honour of helping Mistress shine her latex dress, (trying not to get any of the shiner on the floor and also getting a hotel flannel all blue!) and then I was ordered to get dressed very quickly, I wasn't all out dressed with makeup, just some stockings, a tight black tube dress with holes all over it and matching panties, with my wig and my maxfactor lipstick.  I looked pretty ridiculous I guess.

Mistress decided she would have a chat with the group first and then introduce me, so I was left in bathroom and felt the nerves really building.  I could smell perfume in there, and then I started to hear the voices.  We'd been told that there was 10 in the group and the noise through the bathroom door definitely grew.  I heard as they entered, "you know how theres always a stripper, well guess what" Followed by them being introduced to Mistress Courtney with laughter and giggles and allsorts.  I couldnt really hear everything, but did hear after a few minutes Mistress say she would like to introduce them to someone, she made it quite clear they could laugh at me, but asked them not to record anything (thankfully) then the bathroom door opened, Mistress stood there looking so stunning  with a smile on her face, I felt small, nervous and had a lump in my throat, she just said "come"

I followed out into the room and was introduced as Cinnamon, a sissy, and a guinea pig for the day and was told to kneel next to Mistress  I heard a couple of giggles but at first was too scared to look up, when I did I realised that all of the women there were absolutely gorgeous. As Mistress explained i'd first seen her a few months ago and explained a little bit, I was asked why i'd chosen Mistress Courtney, my nerves were really leaving me speechless but managed to explain why.  while Mistress was stroking my wig. It was pointed out I was shaking, they asked if I was cold, which I really wasn't, it was the nerves, and feelings of exposure, so intense, so scary, yet so perfect *blushes*
   I was asked to fetch the bag of toys Mistress had brought and was ordered to lie on my back.  Mistress introduced a flogger to the group, at first mentioning how it can be used to tease, almost tickling me with it.  I heard a voice say "look cinnamon likes it" as I squirmed before Mistress flogged me with it.  The group were curious how it hadnt left a mark.  Which was explained.    The women were asking lots of questions, mainly about how could they do "stuff" to their partners, Mistress was happy to give lots of tips, I was asked as well about how things made me feel, I was still feeling so nervous.  I was teased with Mistresses fingernails which always makes me weak before being led on the floor again as Mistress sat on my face, and ordered me to kiss her latex covered bottom.  One of the women called out that they couldnt hear any kissing *blushes* so I tried harder. I couldnt really see but heard lots of laughing.  I had to then go and get some rope and Mistress gave a demo of tieing up my tiny cock and balls, no-one said anything but i'm sure I heard a couple of gasps when Mistress took them out of my panties, i've never ever felt more exposed and couldnt look at anyone at that moment, it was then left with the rope dangling to make me more sensitive as more was explained.  I think at this point electrics were mentioned and Mistress said she had some in the car, she looked at me and said maybe I should go and get them (god I physically gulped then) but thankfully I wasn't sent

After having my hands tied, I was then bent over the bed and Mistress gave a lesson in spanking, showing how she builds it up with light spanks and touches, before using the paddles etc.  After this some of the hens, (I have no idea how many) had a go, I couldnt see as my face was on the bed, but there was laughter, one of them really got into it, and told me to "say thank you Cinnamon" so I did and she said "you forgot Mistress" I think I got more spanks because of that.  Then the bride to be was on the bed next to me to get a spanking too.  I was told to get up and Mistress showed how sensory deprivation can work, using a pillow case to cover the eyes of the bride to be, before gently teasing her arms with her nails, asking her how it felt.  (that looked so erotic to me) before taking the makeshift blindfold off and doing the same thing to show the difference.  before long all the women were sat on and around the bed again as I was led on the floor and Mistress did a demo in breath play, by sitting on my face again, whilst tweaking my very sensitive nipples, my god did i squirm, whilst asking if I could breath.   The women were all very inquisitive about the legal side of doing something like this in a session, and Mistress did explain, as well as detailing about lots of other fetishes, including plenty that are way over my limits.  It had been so long in that room, Mistress then asked me to go and get dressed and sent me back to the bathroom, I could hear bits of the conversation after that as I dressed again and when I looked in the mirror I was so red, but felt so lucky.

When I went back out dressed normally again I was thanked by the group that was still there, and asked a few more questions, especially about what really "works" for guys, so I tried to say a couple of things that if a woman takes control of me really makes me weak.  They all seemed to have had a great time, and thanked Mistress Courtney, then we left, me carrying the bag of course.  I had such a giggle at the revolving door to the hotel when a guy was staring at it so hard.  Thinking if only he knew.  I sat with Mistress in her car for a few minutes and felt in that moment so so lucky.  I think Mistress enjoyed it too. We chatted before I left, and I drove home with a huge smile on my face, totally huge smile, and felt exhilarated that i'd done this.

Led at home later I was trying to process everything, I was so humiliated walking out of that bathroom, the moments I was in there waiting I was almost panicking, yet every time I looked at Mistress I knew that I would do it.  At first I was feeling a bit ashamed being stood there like I was I probably looked ridiculous, but after a while that feeling disappeared, I was feeling so excited instead, but frantically not trying to show it in one specific place *blushes* and now as it approaches 3 weeks since my last orgasm it has made the ache I feel a hell of a lot worse.  It was definitely a first for me, and if anyone had said a week ago that I would have been stood in room, exposed as a sissy for a group of 10 beautiful women and Mistress I would never have believed it.  I feel so lucky to have been asked so honoured as well.  As Mistress said in her car afterwards.  Its not your usual saturday evening is it!!

Right i'm going to wrap this up, it feels like an awfully long post, I hope you like it, feel free to get in touch on here or twitter if you've any questions, or *blushes* if you're having a hen party and want a demo lol.

Cinnamon xxx

ps Mistress Courtneys website is misscourtney.co.uk and she is on twitter too, @MissCourtneyM although she is on a well deserved holiday now, and I hope she has an amazing time, I really can't thank her enough.

Taking a plunge, a rant on fakes and new kinks

Hey, hope everyone is doing good, thought i'd use the lovely weather today to sit in my garden and write a new post.  It may not be too long, but firstly would like to say just how much I am looking forward to the weekend, in pretty much the largest city thats close to where I live at the weekend is the Sexhibition expo it looks to be an fun filled weekend, described as "The erotic event of the year"  I have been thinking of going and tempted for months, but finally after some encouragement from some lovely people on twitter have bought myself a ticket for the Sunday, which promises to celebrate the kinkier edgy side of the Expo.  I'm pretty nervous as i'm going alone, and although a fair few people have told me to go as Cinnamon I dont think i'm quite ready for that yet, so will be attending as my guy self, although I have a feeling i'll be Cinnamon underneath *blushes*

I'm looking forward to some of the stageshows, hopefully learning a bit more and looking round some of the retail units there as they are probably things that will interest the heck out of me.  There have been some really friendly people who've asked me to say hello too, i'm really hoping it will be a great day, and can't wait to tell you all about it after the day, (although I may need a couple days to recover)

I've been talking more and more on twitter to other subs lately as well.  Feel like i've learned a fair bit from them, and some ideas have definitely formed in my head.  Whether I dare follow them through is another matter, but who knows.  I do know that thinking about them I seem to have gone through way batteries than normal for the miniwand in the last week.  I've learned I really seem to enjoy being restrained, and now the idea of electrics being used (lightly) as part of the teasing/torture is intriguing.  So if its possible Twitter is making me kinkier than ever.

I do find it great most of the time, although just lately I seem to have been sent a barrage of dick pics, and DM's demanding I serve certain "Dommes" but a brief look at their profile shows they seem to be just insta-dommes, with no real interest in a kink, they just seem to be jumping on a bandwagon to get some extra cash.

I know "findom" has its place and there are many Dommes who seem to excel at it, I also know that if I have a session whether its on a phone, on cam or in real time its not very likely it will happen for free and i'm happy to pay, and if I can I have given a couple of gifts etc.  But the whole idea of findom isn't something that turns me on as it obviously does some others, money quite literally means nothing to me, its the way I have been brought up so controlling it has no effect on me.  I'm only commenting on this as i'm regularly told by these "insta's" that I am not really submissive, and even though they have contacted me, I am wasting their time.  I rarely react to be honest and they disappear off to beg another sub for enough money for a pack of cigs (seriously thats what one has said to me)  but it does annoy me.  I'm glad there are real Mistresses out there, I really am.

As for the Dick pics, read my last blog post, if you really want them seen and rated theres a link to a site on there that will happily do it!!!

I've really been playing a lot with the bondage kit I won a couple of months ago even falling asleep in the cuffs a couple of nights, but it doesn't feel quite the same when you're alone.  The clamps really make my nipples more sensitive and the flogger can really make me tingle.  Its probably only the last few weeks since my real time sessions that i've really wondered about things like this and I am actually thinking that basically a trapdoor has been opened as my thoughts and fantasies are including  much more bondage elements rather than purely the humilation side of things.  I really really hope I can explore these much more in the future and maybe whatever other kinky things come into my head.

Gonna love you and leave you now with a colour pic of the Lovehoney Lingerie I won last week.  I've had so many likes of it on twitter I just have to share it on here, have a great week and feel free to get in touch, either here or on Twitter

I have been meaning to write another fantasy into a short story again, but it needs a little bit more work yet, so maybe next time.  Thanks for reading

Cinnamon xxx

A short story i've wrote from a fantasy

Hi everyone, i'm thinking this post may be a little different to my usual ones,  the other day I was in my second home (twitter) and got to daydreaming a really kinky fantasy and I kinda tweeted it.  It seems people may have liked it and i've been encouraged to try and flesh it out and post it as like a story I guess so here goes, hope you enjoy and feel free to let me know what you think.

It all started a few months ago, an itch i'd been feeling since adolescence finally explored. Finally submitting to a real dominatrix,  I overcame the nerves and booked a session in her dungeon and afterwards felt like a weight had been lifted off my shoulder.  It wasn't long till I had another session where my mind was blown again.  I actually felt accepted for who I was.  There were more sessions  and then last week I received a text message,  I had been invited to a party by the Mistress, I was in shock, I replied of course and that i'd love to come.  Shortly after I was given a time and a place, and told to dress casually.  

So on the day I turned up and rang a door bell, Mistress answered looking absolutely stunning, even dressed fairly casually, she hugged me and thanked me for coming, I could feel those eyes penetrate deep into me and stammered "you're welcome Mistress"  I was taken into a room and Mistress asked if I knew why she had invited me?  I shook my head and replied "no Mistress"  She giggled and said "Good, well every party needs entertainment, and tonight you are it".  I froze, a glass of water half held to my lips and gulped.  As her eyes looked over me I felt myself nodding and saying "yes Mistress" (like I could have said anything else.)

I was told to stand as Mistress stripped me naked, I was so conscious of the huge floor to ceiling glass windows on one side of the room but couldn't do anything.  I was then led on a table and restrained tightly to it, I trusted Mistress but still suddenly felt nervous and could feel goosebumps on my arms and a slight shiver up my back.  I was told that this would be my position for the evening and that she would be covering my head up with a mask, some panties and whatever else she wanted, but she would make sure that I could hear everything.   She explained that throughout the party I was only there to be teased, tormented and maybe even driven crazy in these restraints, and that her guests could use whatever they pleased, their hands, clamps, pegs, their nails, crops, magic wands, anything at all.  I literally couldn't move as my eyes grew wide,  which was noticed and laughed at. 

Mistress then announced that the entertainment part of the evening was that she was challenging her guests to make me cum, and that if they did their reward would be Mistress removing my mask to expose me to all her friends, (I had no idea who, or how many people had been invited to this party and started to feel scared) Mistress moved her hand to my tiny excuse of a manhood and started to tease it, she said "you want to make me happy dont you?"  I had to nod and say "Yes Mistress" as she teased me to an erection laughing at my predicament.  She then left and came back with a mask, panties and stockings which she tied around my head, hiding my identity, taking away my sight, but made sure I could hear everything.  She then squeezed my cock and whispered in my ear that it wouldn't be long now.

I heard the door close, and I was left trembling, wondering what I had got myself into, but still throbbing from the touch of Mistress,  I have no idea how long I was led there, I could feel my mind racing, and when trying to slightly move realised how secure the restraints were.  After a while I heard the same doorbell that I'd rang earlier, then the faint sound of voices in the next room.  Although I couldn't see or move I braced myself and heard the door open, I trembled at the loud laughs, and the cries of Oh My God, the laughter had the effect it usually does and made my tiny thing tingle again.  I could feel people right next to me, even to the breath on my mask as I heard a womans voice right next to my head say "So if i'm getting it right, if we want to see the face under this (stroking the mask) we have to make this squirt?"  My cock was grabbed and squeezed tight as I heard the laughs of numerous women.  I picked out Mistresses voice replying "you got it"

The teasing really started then, I have no idea how long it lasted, or how many people were there,  all I was trying to concentrate on was not cumming, not being able to see made my hearing and sense of touch feel so much more acute.  Every touch was making me tremble, I felt something like nipple clamps being attached and played with, my thighs were scratched with nails, as was my stomach, I was tickled all over, I could feel I was shaking, a Magic wand was draped over my now throbbing tiny dick and balls, which was being squeezed and pulled and teased constantly.  I can't lie, it felt really really good, but the fear of exposure was making me try to keep control.  At one point I felt the clamps being removed, then felt something hot dripping over the now very sensitive spots. I could hear Mistress laughing and reading out embarrassing articles from my blog, which brought howls of laughter from the women there, I could pick out at leat 6 different voices, I'm pretty sure I could also tell when it was a different woman touching me.  I was so sensitive and felt almost electric at each touch, thinking I would maybe never be the same again,  One voice whispered in my ear, "you know the best thing about doing laundry the old way?" then giggled and yelled "clothespegs" and I felt a nipping sensation all over my cock, i'd never had anything like that before, how could something so mundane, such a normal household item pinch as much as that, I could feel myself trying to buck as the sensations travelled through me.  Mistress took over at that point to remove the pegs, I think she used a crop, I could feel tears on my cheeks under the mask and the laughter grew and grew and cramps from all my muscles constantly squirming, it was getting to the point where I was totally desperate to cum, but still trying to hold it back.

It must have gone on for hours, at one point I heard a woman apologise that she had to be home for midnight as she had a babysitter and she left, my mind was trying to work out how long from that, i'd been tied since 5.30pm, after another while though it did go quiet, the touching sensations stopped although the ache in my balls and muscles was there constantly, I heard the voices walk away, and the door go, for a few moments it was so quiet all I could hear was my breath until I heard heels coming towards me, I sobbed as I instantly recognised Mistresses voice as she stroked my mask and said "Well done pet" I felt her fingernails lightly run down my body and grasp my still throbbing and sensitive cock before starting to milk me, it felt so good, but in a matter of seconds I felt the spasm deep in my balls as I started to cum, Mistress let go and ruined my orgasm.  I heard a giggle then and gulped.  Mistress then laughed and said "Oh you silly pet, the party is nowhere near over yet"

Her hands pulled away the mask, the glare made me blink frantically and as my sight became focused I gulped again, realising there was at least 10 women in the room with me and Mistress, I panicked really badly as I recognised some of them.  I looked at Mistress shaking but she just smiled, damn I can't resist those eyes, however humiliating, even in front of my crush from work, an ex girlfriend who I was still friends with, oh shit, even the girl from the makeup counter who i've asked for help before, they were all still laughing, I felt a humiliating shame run through me, but all it did was make me throb again.  Mistress grabbed it with one hand and scooped up some of my ruined orgasm cum with the other, she told me to open wide as she dripped it into my mouth, saying "I think we will make this party a weekender"  to a chorus of laughter, and oh god no, was that a camera flash.  As I swallowed my cum all I could do was look at her eyes and say

"Yes Mistress"


The end........ (or is it)

For now this is the end, I may try and continue it, I suppose it all depends on the feedback, obviously as well it is all a fantasy, not a real account, however awesome it would be.  I've never written anything like this before so would really appreciate any feedback at all.  Please feel free to comment, either on here or get in touch with me on twitter

I'd also like to say thanks for all the lovely comments and messages i've been getting on there about my new profile pic, and that i've encouraged others to maybe try some of their fantasies, it really makes me feel so cool, so really genuinely thank you


Cinnamon xxx

My second RT session

Hey everyone, I thought I would just have to write a post about my second RT session that i've had this week with Mistress Courtney.  I had been looking forward to it so much, and as the day grew closer I got the same nervous excitement I had last time.

As I knocked on the door the nerves peaked, but as the door opened and I saw Mistresses eyes and smile they just disappeared, we had a little chat and I was taken into the dungeon.  I was undressed and Mistress seemed to like the panties i'd been instructed to wear, I was then sat to have full makeup applied, having little things explained, and one very obvious gulp on my part when Mistress said she might make me arrive in makeup sometime, I was then put in a blue floaty dress and a wig before being shown to a mirror.  I looked so different to normal and felt so so girly and had some pics taken. I was then cuffed to a bar suspended from the ceiling. Mistress was so happy with the makeover job she asked another Mistress to have a look, I got so shy then.

Over the session I was teased, tickled, spanked, paddled, scratched, put in bondage, wrote on in lipstick, laughed at until I was squirming.  I had the feeling I just wanted to do whatever Mistress Courtney wanted, i'm not going to share all of the details, and i'm not going to post the pics Mistress took of my tiny thing, well because no-one would want to see that, even with the clamp attached.  But have to say how much I enjoyed it, we had a drink and a chat after which I really enjoyed, there were ideas mentioned that mad me tremble, but i've dreamt of them since which is a bit crazy.  Mistress Courtneys website is  www.misscourtney.co.uk and I can't thank her enough.

I feel really lucky that i've had these experiences, and really hope to have more, its hard to explain, but it feels like i'm actually being me, i've been pretty much on a high since the session, and have a task to work on, and a rule I have to follow.

I know the next few days will involve a lot of makeup for my task, I just hope I can get it ok, I feel like i'm under pressure now *blushes* I may try something with this No7 set (with a guest appearance of a barryM lipstick)

It'll be maybe that or the liquid eyeshadow from MaxFactor thats at the bottom here, It goes so well with this lipstick

Anyway thats me for this post, i'm off to practice, feel free to chat to me on Twitter i'd love to hear peoples thoughts, and have a lovely weekend

Cinnamon xxx

Fear, Fantasy, Comps and that laugh!

Hi everyone, it seems like ages since I last managed to write a blog on here, I did try last week but found myself unable to write what I was thinking down.  But with things that have happened I have hopefully a good post here.

Firstly last week, on the Monday it was apparently #malechastityday according to twitter, now I've never been in or seriously thought about Chastity in the past but I decided to try have a day of no touching, during the day it wasn't too bad. But around teatime, I received some news.

Over the last few weeks a Sex Toy company in the UK has been running a few retweeting competitions on twitter.  I had been retweeting a few, and imagine my reaction when this notification popped up

all of a sudden not touching became very difficult and I just had to cuddle my pink pillow so hard!

The companys website is www.thehouseofpassion.co.uk If anyone wanted to check them out.  For the couple of days after I was excited and also a bit scared, I honestly had no clue what would be in the package.  Anyways towards the end of the week after many edges and arousing dreams I came home from work to find that they had tried to deliver the parcel. So I headed to the depot to sign for and collect it.  (so thankful the packaging was totally discreet)

I also had a guy msging me a lot on twitter asking If I could be dominant to him, I asked advice from a couple of people and firstly made him change his twitter profile as it was not appropriate.  He wants to be a sissy but has no panties so I said he needed some, I also asked him to do another tweeting task, however he just replied "and if I dont" To be honest I dont really think i've got a dom bone in my body, although I know I can have a mean streak while playing pranks etc.  If this male?? doesn't reply its no skin of my back (i'll get to that shortly)

Sorry for that little detour, let me get back to the package I won.  It was full of all sorts of kinky goodies, floggers paddles, cuffs, blindfolds, rope, clamps, literally allsorts.  I had such a big lump in my throat looking through it all

of course I had to let the MeanGirls know about this, and I got an email back from Miss Vicki saying they couldn't wait to see some of it.  I'd also had a message from another Mistress saying the way the MeanGirls are inside my head is a "masterclass in dominance and feminisation" so of course i had to let Miss E and Miss V know that too.  Hearing it made me tingle i'll be honest.

Anyway getting to the end of the week and last night.  I'd planned to call the Goddesses and spent most of the day edging and tormenting myself, it got late in the night UK time and I got through to them.  I think it was a longer than normal call, where I had to show off the items from the package, they seemed to genuinely enjoy me using this on myself

  They were counting along and laughing so hard, they even stopped to ask if I was crying, (I wasn't but it was stinging a lot) Telling me they want pics of all the different colours my bottom turns after this,  Putting a fantasy about being at work and having all the girls do this to me after discovering me in panties, utterly humiliating me, and ensuring that literally Everyone knew  The call is a blur of humiliation I do remember showing them the Cb6000 that was in the prize bundle and I think I somehow volunteered to try it, (well if I can get it to fit my tiny thing anyway) and as has been usual recently I was allowed to beg to make a cumsie on my plate.  Its still flashing through my mind though how I actually begged to clean my plate for them.

We had a small chat after that and when I came off the phone I found they'd put a picture of my cumsie plate on twitter to add to my humiliation *blushes* I do love how the MeanGirls seem to know exactly what I need.  if anyone wants to see that pic its on their Twitter timeline.  Along with many links to their wall of shame further down,  

Anyway today for me is a day to slightly relax, but i've also to try on the Chastity device.  I'm so scared about this but its just trying it on right, what harm can it do?

As always thanks for reading this, feel free to get in touch

Cinnamon xxx