I've been looking back over the year building up to this, remembering the feelings I had at this time last year, the nerves, the excitement, with a little bit of fear as well I guess. Whilst all the time getting some similar feelings, well the fear has gone now, I think that was just because it was my first time, and totally unknown. There was definitely excitement and some nerves too, but i'll get to those in a little bit. I actually found myself getting lost in thoughts for a good few nights before the day. I even spent the last few days before keeping myself in virtual bubblewrap to make sure I didnt get any injuries or anything.
|I'd been thinking a lot of my first session, exactly a year ago|
The day before the session Mistress told me she would like me to be wearing underwear under my clothes, and some makeup when I arrived. That was where those nerves came in, I know I drove to meet Mistress before Bitches UnleSHED wearing makeup, but that was at night, in the dark. This was going to be broad daylight, well that night I tossed and turned in bed but eventually drifted off into a dream that ended up being very humiliating. I woke up on the day and sent a confirmation message and was told to bring the dress I wore while filming a couple of weeks ago and then had a relaxing morning, getting everything ready, before having some lunch and then getting dressed, I chose a baby pink babydoll, baby pink fishnets and some silky pink panties with a lace trim on underneath a shirt and jeans. I had no idea what makeup to wear, so I started with foundation and a hint of blush, a little eyeshadow and liner and mascara, I had a little play with my eyebrows too. Finally for the lips, I used a lip crayon that came out much brighter than I thought it was, but I didn't have time to change it. Grabbing my bag I got to my car as quick as possible while keeping my head down, and was so conscious all the way to the dungeon, trying to keep my head as straight as possible, especially through the busy section of roadworks on the M60, I parked up and was shaking a little. Trying not to be seen by any passers by, I received a text telling me to go in, I had to put on my dress, and a wig and eye mask Mistress had left out, and to wait.
As I approached the door I had a flashback of the first time that door opened to me last year. I was tingling as I got myself how Mistress wanted and then put the mask on. I really couldnt see, then heard a little giggle as Mistress came in, I felt those sharp fingernails lightly brush along my arm, now as always i'm not going to go into all the details of the session but at one point I was shown a video of me being spanked by Mistress, while she re-enacted the clip at the same time, it was like an overload of senses, watching it while feeling it at the same time, I was then tied up, which gave Mistress something to pull me about on. It gave me such a great feeling as I was totally trapped. I was then spanked again over Mistresses knee and I found out after that i'd been introduced to a cane for the first time. I was then turned over and teased a lot more with a Doxy, Mistress was mentioning all kinds of idea's, my head was just in that place where everything just feels right, and the ideas were making me even more excited. I was writhing as the teasing continued.
|Panties made sticky for the journey home|
Mistress came back and we chatted as I sort of came back round, before leaving me to get dressed. I had to keep the sticky panties on though and we had another chat about the session and some possible future plans again and I gave Mistress a little surprise gift i'd got her, I was delighted that she liked it, when I left the dungeon I was on a high, and once again just drifted through the rush hour traffic, I spent the evening still feeling like I was floating, reliving not just that session but bits from all the sessions and things over the last year. Its taken me a couple of days to let everything sink through for me to write about it, i'm sure i'll still be having flashbacks for a long time.
I've been thinking of the last year or so as a whole lately, I know I feel more comfortable in myself, lived some dreams I thought were impossible, and met some really great people. Yet I know i've still lots to learn and i'm most definitely looking forward to that. Right, this is probably way too long already so I'm gonna wrap this up, but as always feel free to chat to me on twitter
PS no panties were permanently damaged, yay