A night of Halloween fun at Events Chambers

Hi everyone, I thought i'd make myself a blog of my last evening out as Cinnamon, once again at one of the Events Chambers monthly kinky parties.  I did actually have this blog wrote last week but after an accidental deletion its time to start it up again.

I knew that this party had a special Halloween theme, although had had no luck whatsoever with sorting a decent outfit early enough.  My friend who knows thought she had helped me with a "bad fairy" outfit, but the sizing was way out so it had to be returned.  So in the end I found a top on amazon and ordered it, thinking I would wear with my mini skirt, tights and heels.

My top for the party, a satin inner and lace layer over the top

Anyways the day of the party came and I after work began my task of getting ready.  I was pretty much dressed as I set off from home, all I needed to do was swap my shoes,  take off my pants and jacket, put my wig on and freshen up my makeup.   I had done a quick effort with my makeup at home, and as it was dark didn't have the same paranoia i've had driving in it before.  It was an interesting drive as the weather was way crazy.  But I pulled up outside the Chambers just after the start time and made my way in.  I was greeted as warmly as ever and allowed upstairs to get changed.  And pretty soon Cinnamon was downstairs chatting.  Some of the outfits and makeup were awesomely done as the theme was Halloween and the chambers had been decorated,  there was even a candyfloss machine and attendant in the reception area.  There were a few new faces there this time, yet I felt none of the nerves and paranoia I felt the first couple of times that I went.  It was great to catch up with people i've met before and speak to the Mistresses.  It may sound strange, but just by chatting I've learned a lot, and its hard to say just how grateful I am.

For this party there was some food available that had been cooked by the resident Dommes at the chambers, which smelled divine, I was cursing the fact i'd already eaten.  There was also entertainment similar to last time which this time scared the be-jesus out of me, anything with broken glass does, but the lady doing the demonstration had a flow to her movements, and managed to keep everyones attention.  It was quite erotic if i'm being honest, (even if the scary sissy inside me was cringing at the broken glass)  Mistress Arabella led a game at one point as well, two slaves with sparklers inserted into a certain body part followed by them apple bobbing.  This game ended up with a caning and something completely different.  All the subs were invited to give one spank, I've got to be honest this felt really strange, but kind of cool as well.

All too soon it was time to think about getting home and said my goodbyes before a thankfully dryer drive home.  Looking forward to next time, and with permission have pics of the event flyers to share in my blog, all contact details are on there, i'd really recommend the evenings, especially for anyone who may be nervous, i've found that unless you are being told to bend over a stool, or escort a Mistress to the bathroom there is just no reason to be!  I've never felt under any pressure there, and even if the chatting isn't about kinky things and is about music festivals etc, its still just as relaxed

My cute pink pillow, and me of course x

Since the party night i've been keeping myself busy while Mistress Courtney is away on holiday.  And kind of invented a kinky random game of chance, involving a playlist of humiliation clips and a timer.  Basically selected a couple of hours worth, but only one of the clips gives permission to make a precious cumsie.  Over the weekend i've cursed myself for coming up with this game as I have had absolutely zero luck with it.  Since then as well i've been told I need to play this game for an hour each day.  Its made the ache extremely intense, and has had me almost constantly aroused.  i've nearly called someone Mistress at work, and am feeling so submissive all the time.  In fact when i'm at home I'm almost cuddled up to the pink pillow all the time now, I guess it is perfect for a sissy.

Right, I think I am going to wrap this up now as I keep nearly drifting into something I am saving for another blog, as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

A day of helping film with Miss Courtney

Hi everyone, I thought I would write a post about a really fun day I had last week.  Helping Mistress Courtney film some clips for her clips stores.  And on a chilly afternoon what better way to write a blog than a hot and milky coffee

If you've read my blogs before you will know that I have helped film a few times before with Mistress and had always enjoyed helping, so when I was asked again I jumped at the opportunity.  Mistress had booked a dungeon studio called The Facility, in Birmingham and the day before had confirmed the times etc with me.

I woke up early and made sure I had a proper breakfast for once and set off.  My mind wandering in my car, wondering what this place would be like, would I just be behind the camera? or as Mistress had said maybe there would be a little clip with me in,  I was glad i'd allowed extra time as the roads seemed to be feeling the effects of a certain Ophelia, the sky and sun a strange colour and the damn 50 mph limit on the M6 rolling into one huge jam.  But still I managed to get there about 5 minutes before we'd agreed and after driving up and down the road not seeing the studio thought I'd park up and wait for Mistress.  After a moment I saw Mistresses car coming down the road, and we waved at each other, as Mistress parked I walked over and said hi.  As none of us had been here before we had a giggle looking for the place, even walking into the wrong yard of some units at one point before finding the place and moving our cars to their car park.   Whilst we unloaded the car the first filming slaves arrived and we were all introduced.  It was very quiet at first as we were getting ready.  The room we were using was really well equipped and I set up the lighting for the area we were going to be using first as Mistress was throwing some ideas around and some of the formalities were done.  (paperwork, it gets everywhere)

Some images of the amazing Mistress Courtney

Pretty soon we were off with the clips.  As always I'm not going to go into too much detail about them, you'll have to check Mistresses store out.  I'm often transfixed while filming, trying to make sure I get the camera right while being in awe of Mistress, she has a certain aura of dominance and flows like an artist through a scene, I feel very lucky that i've had the chance to witness it, even though with some things I get cravings like I wish it was happening to me, in between scenes Mistress often tells me she could tell I liked the last one, which just sets me off blushing.

We filmed a good few clips, including a couple of role-play clips that had me trembling behind the camera, (thank god for tripods) and a couple that made me want to close my eyes, I couldnt of course.  Then there was a little swap around, as the first couple of slaves left and another arrived, We had a little break and then started again with the new slave, who also dresses, Sophie.  Mistress did her makeup, and I was a little envious watching, but still enjoyed it.  Before some clips involving cling film, foot worship, strap on play and a cute pink sissy dress.  It did get late very quick and we had to wrap the day up, I wasn't in any clips this time.  But Mistress mentioned booking another day after her holiday.  The Facility was a really good space to film in.  I think there were other ideas that we just didnt have time to get through


After packing up and saying my goodbyes I left for the thankfully quieter drive home feeling an ache all the way, picturing some of the things i'd seen, imagining being knelt before Mistress and smiling all the way home.  I couldn't really relax in my thoughts that evening though as I was home and instantly get ready for work the next day.  I knew later in the week as well I had another evening out as cinnamon at the Halloween Events Chambers party.  Thats being saved for another blog though, and for now I am going to wrap this one up.  Thanks for reading and feel free to chat to me on twitter


Cinnamon xxx

PS.  Feel free to check out Mistress Courtney's clip store here

A shopping trip with a friend

Hey everyone, I thought something that happened at the weekend deserved a blog post and its been a couple of weeks so here goes.  I knew I had time off work, and my original reason for booking the weekend off had been cancelled, so I hadn't really got any plans as such.

I've been getting naughtier in my thoughts lately and had treated myself to a clip from a clip store the other night from Cruel Girlfriend (I still remember winning that prize of a months subscription last year)  The clip featured a Princess I have met a couple of times at the Bitches UnleShed events, and it was based around a humiliating visit to a mall with lots of tasks to complete for points.  I'm sure anyone who reads my blogs regularly can tell, this kind of idea is one of my wildest fantasies.  I'm not going to ruin it by naming all the tasks but will say that completing the set would leave any sissy utterly humiliated and embarrassed, even though all the tasks were doable.  Do you find in some clips as few of the instructions/tasks just border a little into the impossible?  Not with this one.  Not with this one indeed.


I was actually daydreaming about doing this task, even shared a tweet about it, but soon realised checking my budget, i'd kind of need to be a little more flush.  But then I had a message from one of my friends who kind of knows everything about me, asking if I wanted to catch up that afternoon, over a few texts we came up with the idea of meeting at the Trafford Centre and having a laugh, some coffee, and maybe I could help her with some shopping.  So I had some lunch and got myself ready and set off.  I was dressed in my boy clothes, but of course had panties on underneath.  I got there and parked up, before heading to where we'd agreed to meet. I thought I was going to be early but my friend was there and greeted me with a hug,

We went inside and were just having a general catch up chat, then she asked me if there was anything I was looking for in the shops today, I said I wish with a smile, not until payday as I know I have a couple of cool things coming up next week.  She giggled at this knowing full well what the "cool things" are.  I think this was my first inadvertent blush of the day.  We headed into New look first, and I was loosely just following around, feeling some of those feelings, looking for myself, but trying not to show it too much as you know, I was with a friend.  This continued for a few stores, At one point I was told a dress i'd said was cute would look great on me, I nervously glanced around but there was no-one within earshot, cue my second blush of the day, I was growing more confident though, I could feel myself looking more attentively rather than just look like the unfortunate guy to get dragged shopping.  It was so much fun, and as I wasn't alone, didnt get any of the creeping paranoia and fear that does happen when alone.  Then we headed up to the large Debenhams up at the far end of the centre.  I knew we were heading to a specific makeup counter, she goes there all the time.  I followed but felt the smell of cosmetics as soon as we entered, it has such an effect on me, but I tried not to show it as my friend was chatting to the girl on the counter, and after a moment was trying on all sorts of little testers, in fact the counter girl asked her to sit down and applied some lipstick but kind of blended two colours together, an ombre look.  She looked at me and winked, saying I bet this colour would suit me too.  The girl from the counter giggled at that.  I felt my third blush as my eyes widened and could feel goosebumps all over, I tried to smile and act as cool as I could, as she stood up she grabbed my hand and looked at me all funny.  She paid up and we left the store, I was told it was coffee time now.  So we walked almost the entire length of the place to our favourite  Starbucks, its better than the others somehow, ordered us a drink and sat down.  I'd calmed a little and was surprised to hear her say "sorry" I asked why??

She explained how she saw how I reacted in the makeup department, that by my reaction I actually wanted to be in that chair, especially when telling me the lipstick would have suited me,  we've chatted about my kinks before and some of the milder things I have done with Mistress Courtney etc, but she had no idea how nervous they make me, especially in a setting like that, It was just meant to be a friendly joke, I knew it was, I told her that, but said that some little things just trigger my mind, we were back to laughing a little now thankfully and the uncomfortable moment had passed.  As we left the coffee shop she asked if there was any other stores I wanted to check out and it was here I had the next blush of the day, saying well......  She told me I could tell her anything, so I said i'd always wanted to go into Victorias secret, without feeling awkward, she looked at me really deeply, like she was reading me, and said ok, we'll go in, but we'd be just pretending we were looking for her.  No more uncomfortable moments for the day.  She actually held my hand as we went in, and I have to say I could have spent all day in there with her *blushes* the best thing was not feeling dodgy for being in there, I was just in there with a friend, we left shortly after.  I walked her to her car and we hugged, I thanked her for the day and she said maybe one day, we can be shopping for you, she then kissed my cheek and drove off.  I was on a high walking back to my car, it had been such a cool and fun day.

Going back to the start of this post I mentioned the clip, I think for sure all the tasks would be doable at the trafford centre, and I know how strong sometimes my humiliation cravings get.  Gulp, I think it would definitely need to be around payday on a month with no sessions etc though to do it properly.
Anyways I'll wrap this up here, but have lots more fun, and probably a lot more kinky too coming up, with hopefully a session with the amazing Mistress Courtney next week and also the next kinky play party at EventsChambers with all week off I can really indulge *blushes*  I'm sure you'll hear all about it.  Feel free to chat with me, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

Another amazing session

Hey everyone, its been a couple of weeks since I posted, few things on and to be honest been looking forward to something quite a bit.  I mentioned a couple of times that the first anniversary of my first session was coming up, and well earlier this week It happened, and what better way to spend it than having another session with the amazing Mistress Courtney

I've been looking back over the year building up to this, remembering the feelings I had at this time last year, the nerves, the excitement, with a little bit of fear as well I guess.  Whilst all the time getting some similar feelings, well the fear has gone now, I think that was just because it was my first time, and totally unknown.  There was definitely excitement and some nerves too, but i'll get to those in a little bit.  I actually found myself getting lost in thoughts for a good few nights before the day.  I even spent the last few days before keeping myself in virtual bubblewrap to make sure I didnt get any injuries or anything.

I'd been thinking a lot of my first session, exactly a year ago

The day before the session Mistress told me she would like me to be wearing underwear under my clothes, and some makeup when I arrived.  That was where those nerves came in, I know I drove to meet Mistress before Bitches UnleSHED wearing makeup, but that was at night, in the dark.  This was going to be broad daylight, well that night I tossed and turned in bed but eventually drifted off into a dream that ended up being very humiliating.  I woke up on the day and sent a confirmation message and was told to bring the dress I wore while filming a couple of weeks ago and then had a relaxing morning, getting everything ready, before having some lunch and then getting dressed,  I chose a baby pink babydoll, baby pink fishnets and some silky pink panties with a lace trim on underneath a shirt and jeans.  I had no idea what makeup to wear, so I started with foundation and a hint of blush, a little eyeshadow and liner and mascara, I had a little play with my eyebrows too.  Finally for the lips, I used a lip crayon that came out much brighter than I thought it was, but I didn't have time to change it.  Grabbing my bag I got to my car as quick as possible while keeping my head down, and was so conscious all the way to the dungeon, trying to keep my head as straight as possible, especially through the busy section of roadworks on the M60, I parked up and was shaking a little.  Trying not to be seen by any passers by, I received a text telling me to go in, I had to put on my dress, and a wig and eye mask Mistress had left out, and to wait.

 As I approached the door I had a flashback of the first time that door opened to me last year. I was tingling as I got myself how Mistress wanted and then put the mask on.  I really couldnt see, then heard a little giggle as Mistress came in, I felt those sharp fingernails lightly brush along my arm,  now as always i'm not going to go into all the details of the session but at one point I was shown a video of me being spanked by Mistress, while she re-enacted the clip at the same time, it was like an overload of senses, watching it while feeling it at the same time, I was then tied up, which gave Mistress something to pull me about on.  It gave me such a great feeling as I was totally trapped.  I was then spanked again over Mistresses knee and I found out after that i'd been introduced to a cane for the first time. I was then turned over and teased a lot more with a Doxy, Mistress was mentioning all kinds of idea's, my head was just in that place where everything just feels right, and the ideas were making me even more excited.  I was writhing as the teasing continued.

Panties made sticky for the journey home

  I was allowed after a while to "make my panties wet and sticky for the drive home" and with the help of the Doxy and Mistresses permission had one of the most intense orgasms i've ever had.  I was kind of spaced out then, and was told to just lie there a minute as Mistress went to get some water.


Mistress came back and we chatted as I sort of came back round, before leaving me to get dressed.  I had to keep the sticky panties on though and we had another chat about the session and some possible future plans again and I gave Mistress a little surprise gift i'd got her, I was delighted that she liked it, when I left the dungeon I was on a high, and once again just drifted through the rush hour traffic, I spent the evening still feeling like I was floating, reliving not just that session but bits from all the sessions and things over the last year.  Its taken me a couple of days to let everything sink through for me to write about it, i'm sure i'll still be having flashbacks for a long time.


I've been thinking of the last year or so as a whole lately, I know I feel more comfortable in myself, lived some dreams I thought were impossible, and met some really great people.  Yet I know i've still lots to learn and i'm most definitely looking forward to that.  Right, this is probably way too long already so I'm gonna wrap this up, but as always feel free to chat to me on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

PS no panties were permanently damaged, yay

An afternoon of filming fun

Hey everyone, I guess its that time for another post again.  Luckily just a day after another fun afternoon so I don't need to rumble around my imagination to try and come up with something to post.

The dress I wore for the day

Towards the end of last week I received a message from Mistress Courtney asking if I could help do some filming again for her which of course I said yes to.  I kind of had a feeling how the day would go after doing it a couple of times already until sunday afternoon when Mistress sent me another message both confirming the time, and telling me to bring a dress.  The part about a dress was definitely new.  Anyways I got up yesterday and did a few jobs I needed to do before getting myself ready and heading off to the dungeon with  dress and my wig in a bag.  I parked up and waited a couple of minutes before heading down and being greeted by Mistress.  I swear she looks stunning whatever she wears, and was excited about the afternoon.  We set up in the dungeon room as the other slave arrived and then Mistress asked me if I was forgetting something.  Gulp, so it was time for  me to get myself changed into my pink dress and wig, with a touch of lipstick too.  I didnt wear any heels as the camera is worth a bucketload and well I would hate to have tripped while using it.  When I was ready Mistress said "thats better"  I did feel a bit apprehensive as the other slave was there and inbetween clips  we were chatting etc, but that soon disappeared as we moved around the dungeon filming a load of different kinky fetish clips, including a couple that made my eyes water *blushes* But as always i'm not going to go into details here, you'll have to check Mistresses clips sites for that!

Maybe I can wear this one at an event soon

We took a break half way through the day and this was slightly scary as we all nipped outside for some fresh air, but I was still dressed in my dress but thankfully wasn't really in a visible position to anyone, there were some clip ideas for the future bouncing around then.  Then we went back in for some more clips.  There was one where both the slaves and Mistresses reaction to a certain toy being used was genuinely hilarious and I had to really bite my lips to stay silent, I soon burst into a giggle after we ended the clip though.  Finally after we finished the last clip for the day (or so I thought) I was instructed to kneel over a bench and was strapped down.  I was spanked and teased with Mistresses nails until I was shivering.  I didnt even care that the other slave was watching or that it was being recorded, It was actually fun, and has made me long for my next session,  I keep telling myself its less than a month now!

We tidied up and had a chat, and some delicious cookies that Mistress had brought with her, before saying our goodbyes, but I did manage to ask if I would be able to attend an event next month at the Chambers where Sinnation was held.  I missed the last one as I hit a massive wall after the fun of subversion the day before and travelling back up from that there London!  But I have had fun at the couple I attended, I can only dream that Mistress would be able to go as well *blushes*  And also hot off the press, the date for the second Bitches UnleaSHEd event at cirque has been released, hopefully i'll be able to attend this one as well, especially as i'm off work that week, the last one apart from the stairs of doom was a great night, that reminds me, maybe I need to find myself a pretty pair of flats??


Right i'm gonna wrap this up and have a coffee and relax, stay kinky ppl, and as always feel free to chat, either here or on twitter

Cinnamon xxx

My latest dungeon trip

Hey everyone.  I thought there would be another post this week, after my post about Sinnation last weekend.  Knowing that I had my first session of the year with Mistress Courtney later in the week.  In fact it would be the first since my birthday session a couple months ago.  I had a few "vanilla" things to do during the week but found myself thinking a lot of what may happen.  Especially thanks to a couple of messages from Mistress asking to send a couple of my fantasies and thoughts and maybe i'd be surprised with one in the session.  Somehow I find it hard to write them straight down even though my imagination is normally non-stop.  I admitted this, and also realised Mistress was getting me even more excited about the session.  This built up to a fever pitch by the day before,  I was invited to go snowboarding, but thought with my injury track record it may not be the best idea.


The morning came and I woke up feeling really good, I texted to confirm my appointment and set about getting ready.  I had a stop to make on the way there and received some instructions from Mistress that were different than normal.  It really set my imagination off again.  And I realised I may need another pitstop on the way there.  I did the usual standing around putting what I may need into a bag, before completely changing my mind and swapping it all.  In the end I settled for my fishnet dress Mistress had commented on last week and my pink wig as i'd been instructed to take that.  Some makeup and fence net stockings.  In my other bag I had the laptop i'd fixed for a friend, so when I dropped that off I had to make sure it was the right bag!!

I'd been told by Mistress to inform her when I'd parked up, then when told to enter the dungeon and go straight into the room and get myself dressed for her.  I realised that this would maybe put a toilet break to the back of the agenda so I made another "pit-stop" at a well known supermarket chain, to use their toilets and also buy a drink for the drive home and as always had the panty paranoia as there was another customer in there.  A few minutes later  I pulled up outside the dungeon slightly apprehensive as this was a completely new start to the session, sent a quick text and felt the nervous excitement peak as it always does.  I then got the command to enter.

I locked up and headed to that now fairly familiar door and headed in,  I went into the room i'd been instructed to without seeing Mistress Courtney, and I set about getting ready.  I was just about ready when Mistress entered and I gulped, as always Mistress looked stunning.  She liked my outfit and helped me with the last touches, while explaining what she wanted to do in the session, at some of the comments I found myself trembling with excitement.  I've never been video'd before, and it was going to happen. I then gave Mistress a small gift which she put on and the session properly started.

I normally leave out a lot of the details of my sessions, and feel i'm still going to here, but I started being strapped over the bench, legs and back strapped down and wrists cuffed, I really couldnt move at all. Mistress was first teasing me with her nails and tickling me and I couldnt resist, she alternated this with a spanking, which was probably harder than any i've had before, (I had said in the pre-session msg's that I really haven't explored the whole pain threshold thing, so I guess I had this coming)  I was squirming a fair bit, all the while Mistress's voice was softly in my ear pushing me into that space,  I found out later this was where Mistress had recorded a couple of clips.

Next I was led over Mistresses knee for more spanking, with more of her words making my mind melt, talking about some of the idea's i'd sent, how she would love to make a proper clip with one of them.  Almost like a femdom TV gameshow.  But i'll leave that there for now hehe.

After being over Mistresses knee I was well strapped down on my back, ankles held apart with a spreader bar, arms cuffed down the sides and rope strapping me to the trolley.  I was gazing up at Mistress as she proceeded to tickle, prod and poke me, making me moan and squirm, which was also for the cameras benefit, I was lost in the moment and then Mistress pulled out a magic wand, which added to the teasing and torment, before Mistress came up with the idea of running a twitter poll to see just how long people would think I could last and then pointing out we would have to do a proper clip then, I was writhing on the bench feeling myself dangling at that magic point desperate to be allowed a release, alas that wasn't coming in the session.  I was told that Mistress would like me to still be all excited when I watched the videos later.  She left me strapped to the bench to calm down while she got me some water, and giggled as she returned as something certainly hadnt calmed down.  Then unstrapped me, checked I was ok and left me to get dressed.  

I was pretty much dressed as Mistress came back in for a chat,  she showed me a little video and has posted it on her twitter showing off the Necklace I gave her and saying she was still going to exploit me, I nearly melted right there again.  We talked about a few things and it looks like being a very busy few weeks, I genuinely feel lucky.  As always I left with a huge smile on my face, despite the ache, and floated through the 5pm friday traffic.  I've said it before, but seeing Mistress does seem to stop any signs of traffic frustration.  I got home and made some food before sitting down and checking my phone and......

It seems lots of people liked the little clip Mistress posted, about her exploiting me.  And then a check of my emails found the clips that had been recorded.  At that point I only knew of the last one when I was led on my back, so I got relaxed and sat back and watched them, it instantly brought the feelings back, knowing Mistress wanted me to think about how I felt about them and maybe others seeing them had thoughts crashing round inside me.  I really do find the thought exciting, almost intoxicating, needless to say I watched the clips a couple of times each and let my mind drift.  I used my own magic wand whilst watching the clip with one used and pretty soon found myself how can I put it, hmmm extremely happy.  I can safely say I had an amazing dream last night and have felt in such a happy mood all day today.

I'm gonna wrap this up now as its gone on quite long, but needless to say i'm excited about a fair few things coming up, and feel so very lucky about it all.  As always feel free to chat, either on here or on twitter, and I need to say a huge thankyou to Mistress Courtney and also the Stockport Dungeon for another great day.

Cinnamon xx