You see for a long time my fantasies and thoughts were mainly of humiliation, as i'm sure a lot of the early posts on this blog will indicate, and dont get me wrong I still have them, but i've found that nothing is the same as actually being in the presence of a Domme, I've found that things I used to do like sit and watch the humiliation playlist dont have quite the same effect on me anymore. Dont get me wrong I still get aroused by them, (I know its pretty pathetic) but just not as much as things that have happened recently.
I know in real terms I am still pretty inexperienced and learning but just from a few of the things i've had done to me, the sensations i've felt etc i've realised the excitement they stir somewhere deep inside me, that i've never really felt before. Now i'm finding the fantasies i'm having are much more intense, in a way much scarier, and much (i dont know if this is the right word but) darker as well.
Have to mention as well, the dress I ordered last week was delivered and it fits Yay, and on twitter so many people have like the pic of it so i've added it here too. I'm so looking forward to taking it to my next session. I'm also looking at attending a couple of events, so I may need a full outfit for those *blushes* I really hope i'll get to explore these feelings more in sessions, I feel more like me than I ever have before.
As always feel free to chat to me on twitter or even on fetlife seeing as i'm trying to get more involved on there as well.