A trip, a club, and another new experience.

Hey everyone, I guess regular readers may have known this post was coming.  After a lot of anticipation, nerves and excitement my time off work had come.  Some of you will have seen on twitter I seem to listen to secret102 quite a lot and they had arranged to have a meet at Club Subversion.  I was also lucky that Mistress Courtney had said that I could go with her to the event, which had kind of put a few of my nerves at rest.  But also made my excitement grow even more.

Anyways, the day came, I had my instructions of where to meet Mistress and another of her slaves, (i'm not sure really if he would like naming so i'm refraining from it just in case) and thanks to the aftermath of storm Doris I boarded a train to London that was absolutely heaving, talk about sardines in a tin.  I found a little bit of the floor and claimed it before settling in for a fairly uncomfortable journey. But I couldnt care less about it as my mind was totally elsewhere, and after a couple of hours the train pulled in at Euston station.  I'd had a message telling me where to meet Mistress and set off in search, it didnt take too long before I spotted her and fairly nervously headed over.  I was introduced to her other slave and greeted,  I could actually feel my nerves lifting as I was told a couple of plans.

We headed outside and from there I was just a passenger as various ways of booking posh taxi's via apps were discussed and chosen from.  With the cases etc we thought this would be much easier than the tube then another train etc.  I must be honest once it was ordered it was pretty much there straight away, we loaded everything in and then set off.  We all chatted all the way to the hotel, and I realised just how much of a newbie at all this I am, but didnt feel out of place which was cool, it was quite a traffic filled journey but we got to the hotel in one piece and checked in.  We then went looking shopping round all the stores in the town centre as Mistress wanted to try and find some new shoes.  I was in heaven at this, especially walking into some of the department stores through the makeup areas and smelling all the cosmetics, being with Mistress also didnt bring us any of the stares I get when shopping alone and my head was racing with ideas *blushes*   Mistress found a bag she liked, and then we had a coffee,  pretty soon after that we headed back up to the hotel and met some of the others before taking a couple of hours to relax.  I ordered room service but the nerves were back by then and I hardly managed any.  I think being alone in the room was adding to them.  But after a while I received a message telling me to dress and come to Mistresses room.

I put my outfit on and felt extremely conscious walking through the hotel corridor to Mistresses with my sparkly pink dress on, I dont think anyone saw me though.  I knocked at the door and was let in.  I gave Mistress the small gift I'd brought for her as a thankyou for taking me and then was shown into the bathroom and sat down.  Mistress proceeded to do my makeup, taking her time and inside I was melting, I dont think i've ever worn so much in my life, I was in a special place once again, and for a long while was forbidden to take a look, when I was allowed I was in awe.  I wish could come up with results even half as good as that.

 We were still in Mistresses room when some other people started to come up ready for a pre-drink It was really good to meet some of the people I've been chatting to online and interacting with via the radio show for months, I still was feeling very much a newbie to the whole thing though and got quite shy, happy to be sat in the corner listening and taking it all in.  We then got ready for the taxis to the venue, which was a little chaotic, and I have to say walking through the hotel dressed fully as cinnamon was one of the most daunting experiences i've had, especially the reception area, but pretty soon I was safely on my way.  We got there and I had my next nightmare, but got through it ok, full on outside Stairs up to the club entrance, I was so glad I didnt fall!!!!

Following a quick security search and ticket check we were in, a huge room full of people into all sorts of kinky things, with fantastic costumes, I could feel my nerves subsiding, especially seeing others crossdressed, again more introductions and meeting people and to be honest being there with Mistress made me feel so lucky, I could really see how popular she is, with people wanting to chat with her.  The next few hours went in pretty much a blur i'll be honest.  Watching some play, hearing the scariest whip sound i've ever heard and laughing, chatting, and just feeling like the real me.  Some of the people I spoke to were so nice, and my dress was commented on, it was a great night.  To comment on the club, it was quite a large room, with a dancefloor that had been converted into a play area with crosses, benches, a cage and allsorts of scary and fun looking things, the bar was a good size and there was plenty of seating.  There was another room set up as a dance room, and a secluded outdoor smoking area, I was gutted that the toilets were down a set of stairs though, but I managed them without breaking my neck yay!

I met and spoke to so many people I dont know if I dare try and name them all on here as I may forget a couple, It was truly cool to meet so many others, especially Annabel Grey as her dress was amazing, Adam Green from the radio show, his partner, Mr Black Sheep and his wife who's home made feather hat was insanely cool.  Becky, Lady Sara Borgia, Domstrapon, Candie kitten and many more.  I'm really sorry if I have forgot anyone.  I had some other people come up and ask if I was Cinnamon as well which was really unexpected.  And although I didnt speak to them I did recognise a few people from  my day at Sexhibition last year.

When the time came to leave, I was in a taxi with Mistress Courtney and her other slave who I met much earlier, we went back to Mistresses room for a bit of a chat.  Again I felt lucky and hearing Mistresses ideas etc was an honour.  It got late before the walk back to my room still totally Cinnamon-ised but I wasn't even bothered if anyone saw me by then.  I got in and cleaned off my makeup ready for bed, wishing that wasn't a beauty essential as it was so nice.  Before a couple hours sleep, (i didnt get very much at all) In fact I was stood outside very early the next morning and Domstrapon came out, and at first didn't recognise me in normal boy clothes.  That really made me feel so awesome, its not the first time its happened either as it happened at Sinnation last month too!

Later in the morning I was summoned to meet Mistress Courtney and we had a drink in the bar with her other slave, Mr BlackSheep and Alexandria Web, before arranging for a ride back to Euston again in one of these app called taxis.  Trains were arranged when we got there and we saw Mistress off safely,  before getting ready for ours.  Mine was a complete change to the day before, indeed after the first stop I was left in an entire carriage by myself and was once again overdosing on coffee and having wild ideas about going out last night, maybe to the Sinnation party.  I was actually really tempted by this but when I finally got home and had a bite to eat I hit a wall, I think I was totally shattered, exhausted and knew I wasn't in a good enough place to make the drive there.  Even when I received a surprise phonecall from Mistress Felix,  next time i'll be back for sure!  Hopefully as well there are some other plans with Mistress Courtney too.  I'm so lucky and can't wait.  But as i say last night I virtually hit a wall and think I had about 15 hours sleep.  Full of deliciously kinky dreams.


Anyways this has gone on for ages now, sorry if i've rambled but as always feel free to chat either here or on twitter and if you want to see what all the radio fun is about check out secret102.com where the main show is broadcast mon-thurs from 9-11 pm!!

Cinnamon xxx

From a previous session but can't wait to be in that position again

Countdown to fun!

Hey everyone, thought it was about time I wrote a new blog post, and as its sissysunday what better time to do one.  First things first i'm getting ever more excited for my first trip to a fetish club in London next weekend, especially as I will be with some great people and an amazing Mistress.  I'm sure throughout the week my excitement and nerves will build but I genuinely can't wait and am looking forward to it.  My main worry is that my outfit will be ok,  especially as there is a strict "fetish" dress code.   When I look back just a year I'm surprised how much i've changed as a person.  I've learned a lot both about myself and about kinky things, i'm still in a sort of place where I can sort of stand back and look at the changes and think wow.  I'm so glad I took that first nervous step,  and feel so much happier in myself.

New Tights

I still kind of class myself as a beginner at all of this, but have somehow been being asked questions by people on twitter, who are in sort of the place I was about a year ago.  Its quite a cool thing to be able to offer a couple of tips and whatever small advice I can, I know a couple of subs that have seen a Mistress for the first time, who have both said they only went through with it because of the advice and help they've had from both myself and others.  I know I have a lot to learn and hope to carry on doing so!!!!

Going back to my trip to London, i've bought a couple of accessories just to see if they will work with my outfit, including new tights, a new wig or two, a lovely belt and a feather boa (to go along with the theme of the club night) and as far as I can work out i've pretty much got everything I need.  Well I may get a padlock for my case on the train.  Somehow I doubt the contents will be what other passengers would imagine, and i'm sure there will be a blog post of how the trip goes.

New Wavy Wig

As i said earlier its sissysunday again, so I'm not going to make this a huge blogpost, as there is plenty of teasing and aching to be done I think especially with the Humiliation playlist playing constant random clips through my TV, but want to mention something, a few months ago I entered a competition to send a clip idea to CruelGirlfriend.  I actually won a months membership for the idea, well I was browsing the other night and I saw that the idea has actually been filmed and is on their site and clip stores.  So I think I may need to treat myself later, i'm excited to see how it sounds and looks in a clip.  I know i'll probably be fantasising about being in a clip with Mistress myself *blushes*

One last thing, i've been sharing a few more of my pics, both on twitter, and also with my vanilla friend, i'm so amazed how supportive she has been with me, and she makes me feel like a million dollars, I may not have many flashy things, but recently when i'm indulging in this side of me I feel like pretty much the luckiest sissy on the planet, even when the ache grows and the cravings make me feel so weak.  Whats the point in having dreams if you don't chase them.  So i'm going to wrap this up here and as always feel free to chat with me, either here or on my twitter.  Stay kinky everyone!

Cinnamon xxx

An update and exciting times.

Hi everyone, its been a couple weeks since my last blog post so thought I would make a quick one.  Some very exciting things coming up, and its been a fun couple of weeks as well so here goes.

Theres been so many views of my last couple of posts, about the session with Mistress Courtney and the video clip she recorded during the session, its given me a feeling i've never really had before.  Especially with a couple of the comments i've had about it, I dont really know how to explain it, other than its a good feeling, with it being a video I felt much more exposed than in say an edited picture.  Maybe theres a part of me that likes being an exhibitionist I never knew about.  I'd like to thank anyone who offered any encouragement about it, or let me know what they thought of the video, its really appreciated.

Right on with the post.  A couple of weeks ago I finally got the chance to call the Mean Girls again on niteflirt.  I've had money in my account there since last summer but with a glitch on international calls, when I had tried the platform would not connect us.  I'd almost given up on it, but tried when I saw them online earlyish and it worked.  I guess the call was slightly different to when I used to call all the time as I was chatting about things that have happened.  Especially things like helping Mistress Courtney at the Hen party last year.  They were telling me how they would have loved to have seen the look on my face as I got all embarrassed.  Even after all this time I found that they remembered little things about me, especially like the way I quite often squirm and wiggle about when I get excited yet a little uncomfy,  It was really good to catch up with them.  Hope to do it again, although I have no idea when I will be able to.

If you've been under a rock you may not have known it was the superbowl on Sunday just gone.  I found myself being asked before the game started if I fancied playing a little sissy game through it all.  I was intrigued as I have done something similar in the past.  Anyways Mistress Elesa (who has been an amazing and supporting lady as i've come on this journey) set me the task of cheering along for every point scored, just like a cheerleader, and also whenever a team got into the end zone.  For every flag I had to spank myself, and for every turnover use the magic wand for a short period of time.  This was tricky enough however there was also the half time show.  I was told I had to copy Lady Gaga's every move.  (thankfully not the jumping off the side of the stadium.)  It was like a full on workout, and I still had the second half of the game to go.
  I was getting quite worked up and feeling very girly, then I received a message while the Falcons were still up by over 20 points.  If the Falcons win, I could orgasm on thursday, but if the Patriots won I could on Monday.  So as the comeback started I got more and more excited.  I couldn't believe the final score, but lets just say I enjoyed Monday night.

Finally for this post i've just about got all my tickets sorted for something that promises to be really exciting, and I guess I'll make a post about it afterwards, but i'm going to one of Londons fetish club nights, and really looking forward to it.  Outfit, tickets, travel etc are now all sorted.  I have a few nerves but know that I will be fine.  I do feel very lucky about it.  Especially that I wont be going alone to it.  If you see me getting over excited on twitter in the next couple of weeks I apologise in advance.  Feel free to chat to me on there though.  And I guess i'll be back soon.

Cinnamon xxx

A little extra from my session

Hi, this is something i've never done before, but as I posted in my last entry there was a totally new element (for me) in the session.  Mistress actually recorded some clips whilst making me squirm.

I was asked to think over how i'd feel about other people seeing these, and to be honest the thought actually has me excited quite a bit, so as a one off and with permission from Mistress Courtney I thought I would share one of the clips.

I know i'm not exactly svelte, so please dont feel the need to point that out, but the thought of others seeing it is quite exciting, just pls watch it alone, its probably well definitely not safe for work.

And of course, a huge thanks to Mistress Courtney for the amazing session and ideas.

So feel free to chat either here or on my twitter

Cinnamon xxx

My latest dungeon trip

Hey everyone.  I thought there would be another post this week, after my post about Sinnation last weekend.  Knowing that I had my first session of the year with Mistress Courtney later in the week.  In fact it would be the first since my birthday session a couple months ago.  I had a few "vanilla" things to do during the week but found myself thinking a lot of what may happen.  Especially thanks to a couple of messages from Mistress asking to send a couple of my fantasies and thoughts and maybe i'd be surprised with one in the session.  Somehow I find it hard to write them straight down even though my imagination is normally non-stop.  I admitted this, and also realised Mistress was getting me even more excited about the session.  This built up to a fever pitch by the day before,  I was invited to go snowboarding, but thought with my injury track record it may not be the best idea.


The morning came and I woke up feeling really good, I texted to confirm my appointment and set about getting ready.  I had a stop to make on the way there and received some instructions from Mistress that were different than normal.  It really set my imagination off again.  And I realised I may need another pitstop on the way there.  I did the usual standing around putting what I may need into a bag, before completely changing my mind and swapping it all.  In the end I settled for my fishnet dress Mistress had commented on last week and my pink wig as i'd been instructed to take that.  Some makeup and fence net stockings.  In my other bag I had the laptop i'd fixed for a friend, so when I dropped that off I had to make sure it was the right bag!!

I'd been told by Mistress to inform her when I'd parked up, then when told to enter the dungeon and go straight into the room and get myself dressed for her.  I realised that this would maybe put a toilet break to the back of the agenda so I made another "pit-stop" at a well known supermarket chain, to use their toilets and also buy a drink for the drive home and as always had the panty paranoia as there was another customer in there.  A few minutes later  I pulled up outside the dungeon slightly apprehensive as this was a completely new start to the session, sent a quick text and felt the nervous excitement peak as it always does.  I then got the command to enter.

I locked up and headed to that now fairly familiar door and headed in,  I went into the room i'd been instructed to without seeing Mistress Courtney, and I set about getting ready.  I was just about ready when Mistress entered and I gulped, as always Mistress looked stunning.  She liked my outfit and helped me with the last touches, while explaining what she wanted to do in the session, at some of the comments I found myself trembling with excitement.  I've never been video'd before, and it was going to happen. I then gave Mistress a small gift which she put on and the session properly started.

I normally leave out a lot of the details of my sessions, and feel i'm still going to here, but I started being strapped over the bench, legs and back strapped down and wrists cuffed, I really couldnt move at all. Mistress was first teasing me with her nails and tickling me and I couldnt resist, she alternated this with a spanking, which was probably harder than any i've had before, (I had said in the pre-session msg's that I really haven't explored the whole pain threshold thing, so I guess I had this coming)  I was squirming a fair bit, all the while Mistress's voice was softly in my ear pushing me into that space,  I found out later this was where Mistress had recorded a couple of clips.

Next I was led over Mistresses knee for more spanking, with more of her words making my mind melt, talking about some of the idea's i'd sent, how she would love to make a proper clip with one of them.  Almost like a femdom TV gameshow.  But i'll leave that there for now hehe.

After being over Mistresses knee I was well strapped down on my back, ankles held apart with a spreader bar, arms cuffed down the sides and rope strapping me to the trolley.  I was gazing up at Mistress as she proceeded to tickle, prod and poke me, making me moan and squirm, which was also for the cameras benefit, I was lost in the moment and then Mistress pulled out a magic wand, which added to the teasing and torment, before Mistress came up with the idea of running a twitter poll to see just how long people would think I could last and then pointing out we would have to do a proper clip then, I was writhing on the bench feeling myself dangling at that magic point desperate to be allowed a release, alas that wasn't coming in the session.  I was told that Mistress would like me to still be all excited when I watched the videos later.  She left me strapped to the bench to calm down while she got me some water, and giggled as she returned as something certainly hadnt calmed down.  Then unstrapped me, checked I was ok and left me to get dressed.  

I was pretty much dressed as Mistress came back in for a chat,  she showed me a little video and has posted it on her twitter showing off the Necklace I gave her and saying she was still going to exploit me, I nearly melted right there again.  We talked about a few things and it looks like being a very busy few weeks, I genuinely feel lucky.  As always I left with a huge smile on my face, despite the ache, and floated through the 5pm friday traffic.  I've said it before, but seeing Mistress does seem to stop any signs of traffic frustration.  I got home and made some food before sitting down and checking my phone and......

It seems lots of people liked the little clip Mistress posted, about her exploiting me.  And then a check of my emails found the clips that had been recorded.  At that point I only knew of the last one when I was led on my back, so I got relaxed and sat back and watched them, it instantly brought the feelings back, knowing Mistress wanted me to think about how I felt about them and maybe others seeing them had thoughts crashing round inside me.  I really do find the thought exciting, almost intoxicating, needless to say I watched the clips a couple of times each and let my mind drift.  I used my own magic wand whilst watching the clip with one used and pretty soon found myself how can I put it, hmmm extremely happy.  I can safely say I had an amazing dream last night and have felt in such a happy mood all day today.

I'm gonna wrap this up now as its gone on quite long, but needless to say i'm excited about a fair few things coming up, and feel so very lucky about it all.  As always feel free to chat, either on here or on twitter, and I need to say a huge thankyou to Mistress Courtney and also the Stockport Dungeon for another great day.

Cinnamon xx

Another fun night at Sinnation

Hey everyone, Its been a couple of weeks since I posted but to be honest I was waiting for now, as i've finally got something kinky I can post about.  A couple of months ago I went to the first Sinnation party (which you can read about here) and had a really great evening,  luckily I was free this last weekend,  so planned to return.  I already felt after last time I would need a new outfit.  So I've found a couple of dresses in the January sales and thankfully one of them fitted me just right.  (I've made a mental note of the store and the size for future purposes)  I dont think I properly do the dress justice as it is gorgeous but it just feels so so nice.

I spent the day relaxing at home and getting myself ready for the night, packed a bag and felt the nerves and excitement build before setting off.  I'd arranged to meet Mistress Felix at her hotel and give her and her slave a lift to the chambers.  This was actually good for me as it didnt leave me walking in alone.  We drove to the venue and headed in.  After a few introductions and greetings I was shown to an area where I could change.  I was left there changing and then I was helped with my makeup again by Mistress Felix, as last time she worked wonders.   (my hands were actually shaking a bit, my attempt at mascara proved that)  My bag was taken to be stored at reception and with that I was out into the dungeon area.  I'm not going to lie, the nerves at that first moment will probably never stop however many times i do something like this.  But I was chatting to someone pretty much straight away and soon felt much more at ease.  I even was complimented on my blog post from last time.  That was cool!

There was lots of kinky play taking place, and inbetween chatting to other people there, I was lucky to be allowed to witness some.  I'm not going to go into too much detail, but safe to say there were some amazing examples of Dominance and submission.  Having people recognise me from last time, and just treat me normally was great too.  I was in one of the rooms watching a couple of scenes take place and was even asked by a Mistress if I would like a foot rub from her slave,  (being that I am pretty much the most ticklish person around I politely declined)  There wasn't the same demo's as last time, but I wouldn't say it altered the event at all, it was relaxed kinky fun, watching a scene unfold in front of you really seems to give you more respect for the Dommes, the way they seem to effortlessly seem to be able to control play and adapt as things come up.  I know that it will be similar in a session but standing at watching really gave me the chance to ponder and think on it which is like really cool.  Once again I didnt really join in any play.  I was happy just taking it all in.  Anyways the time really seemed to fly and it seemed I was in my car on my way home before I knew it, although after i'd got changed back into boy mode and was saying my goodbyes ones Mistress didnt realise I'd been Cinnamon for the night, that really made me tingle a bit its like she's a totally different person.  Hopefully i'll be able to go to more nights like it, and for anyone nervous, i'd say there is really no need to be.  Once again a huge thankyou to all the Mistresses for making it happen, and to Mistress Felix for the help with my makeup and generally looking out for me, the event page is linked here Sinnation page.





I'm also excited now for my session later in the week with the amazing Mistress Courtney it'll be my first one of the year and I hope the first of many.  I was hoping this may be a totally kinky week, but some decorating does need doing after a impromptu flood in my kitchen the other evening.  But I'm really hoping for at least some Cinnamon time.  I'm guessing with the session later in the week it may not be as long until I post next.  So as always feel free to chat, either on twitter or on here.

Thanks for reading

Cinnamon xx

New Year, and hopefully more kink

Hey everyone, first of all I'd like to wish anyone who reads this little slice of the internet a happy new year.  Its been a busy few weeks for me with work and so i've not had much chance to indulge in my kinks, no matter how much i've been thinking of them.   In fact from my birthday through to christmas I wasn't allowed any orgasm, but it did make the one I had on Christmas nearly as intense as the one I was given on my birthday session.   I do have some time booked off work in the next couple of weeks and hope to be having a session with the awesome and stunning Mistress Courtney which to be honest i've been looking forward to since the last one which seems an awful long time ago now.  There is also the possibility of some other things coming up too which could be fun, firstly i'm hoping to go back to the next Sinnation party this weekend, I did have fun at the first one a couple of months ago, it was in a way liberating to be out as Cinnamon, would be good to have that feeling again.  Then next month theres also a chance I will be attending a well known club in London which i'm sure will be an experience.

I guess the one good thing (apart from family time) about the holiday season for someone with a boring real world job is the sales.  Not having time to indulge in my kinks I have got myself a couple of treats over the last few weeks.  Well a sissy can never have enough panties or dresses can they.  This little black dress with a little frill was my first treat, and although it fits I feel I may need a little more confidence to wear it somewhere as it is very short.  But there is another dress I got with a ridiculous saving in the sale which fits perfectly and just feels amazing.  Its a black ruched dress, very snug with a fine gold leaf print all over which makes it shimmer if it catches the light.  I already think its my favourite.  I also bought more new panties as at the prices they were in the sale it would have been rude not too, along with a new mesh babydoll and a fishnet dress which feels so naughty,  I have a feeling that my time off may be a very girly time indeed,  with the new makeup I got just before Christmas I am sure I will have some fun *blushes*

Speaking of panties, i've had a good go through of all my things in the last week or so, mainly as I had to make more room for my "cinnamon" things.  Especially the panties,  theres a pic of just a few of them here.  I didnt realise I had so many and it really seems that pink is the predominant colour for me with them.  It seems appropriate somehow.

I've really found my fantasies and cravings taking off again the last few days since normality resumed after the holidays, and really hoping to be exploring and pushing them again soon.  I know I say it often but I am so grateful to all the people that have helped me, or offered advice on this journey I am on.  I'm realising more and more just how lucky I am.

I'm gonna leave this post here, but will be back soon with an update, and see if I can turn the time off into the week of kink part 3!!  As always pls feel free to chat either here on on twitter

Cinnamon xx